Monday, June 30, 2008.

my head is seriously killing me.
so i am gonna make this post... short?
anyways, went to mac,
with debra, joey, marianne and angela.
*laughs* they were hilarious, taking photos and doing stupid things.
ah yes, we piled the entire of our up size, large, i stress to you large fries, and managed to eat them all finished.
and we all decided to eat mac, after meeting dashini and seeing her carry fries and a meal, we all naturally got hungry.
and thus that was how we ended up in macs!
it was hilarious!
after eating, we kept on telling jokes, which sadly my memory fails me, that we apparently went home with a too full stomach.
and it wasn't exactly comfy, with all the air and undigested food, just laughing made it hurt. xDD
after that, angela left.
and while marianne was taking a video, an old man fell down the steps.
and our table was like, 'oh... OMG.' and watch him sit there on the floor stunned.
i wanted to help, but being stuck inside, i kept nudging marianne and waving at joey to go help since they were sitting outside. lols
but in the end, they just sat there stunned,
well, the lady who was standing behind him, on a way to clear a plate, was staring at him dumbfounded, recovered and tried to help the old man stand with her tray in her hands.
well, it was ok, he asked where the toilet was and realized that there was no toilet in this particular mac, so he went off, shocked and well.. hurt?

everybody was like, 'woah.. that old man, so poor thing.'
(sis nagging at me to eat dinner so brb now!~)
back, it had started to rain the moment i closed my rice cover,
before eating my dinner, i closed all the windows, and went back to eating quietly.
ahma was shouting at ah gong about helping to close the door, and in turned into a raging war.
they just fought.
matters from the past was brought up, and even worse, my mom isn't in town, she just flew today. and to add insult to injury,
she is the one who peace things out between them.
ah gong (the one i bumped in tp) was shouting at the top of their voices, and as i am typing this, it is currently raining extremely heavily outside.
and i tell you, VERY HEAVILY, and he left in a fit.
i told him not to go, since it is raining and all.
'never mind lah! who cares!? i die your grandmother happy ah!' and starting saying things in hokkien.
sigh, my head, and my grandma looks like she is on a verge of tears, i better end this post soon.
some how, i don feel like updating anymore, will update before i sleep.
better get nat into the room before she starts typhoon number 2.
bye people, wish me luck.

p.s
pray that my mother will be safe for me, i had a very disturbing dream..
p.p.s
and pray that my grandparents won't say such stuff again, having fights at such a age is not good for their health.

{ 7:22 PM }

Friday, June 27, 2008.

*yawns* it seems like my grandma really hate me huh?
to the point she won't even listen to me, like she does, and always drag her daughter in, threatening us.


'when i leave ah! your mother is the one to suffer the most!'
'your mother will be the one suffering not me! she can go suffer all she want with you all and your father!'

her most favorite quotes.
that just make me wanna shout, 'stop threatening me with mom! do you HATE YOUR DAUGHTER THAT MUCH? she tries to please you, make you happy, put you first. and you say those stuff behind HER BACK?'
or just slap her face and scream at her.
sigh, dunno lars~
just gonna do all my work.
i don care already, all those bitches, so and so school, my grandma screaming.
now, they are just nothing, but background to me.
for now, exams and shooting and work is more important.
yeah... just study hard, get good results, get out of the house. and be happy.
zzz, sleepy.
anyways, nights people.
i got competition on the day ij celebrates youth day.
i am oh so lucky, i am on cloud nine.

p.s
the view from above.

{ 11:02 PM }

Wednesday, June 25, 2008.

2012!!! WORLD END!!!
*laughs* maybe only, maybe maybe!
but after reading from what they say is kinda scary.
but read this, i freaked out.

Mr. Juseleeno,

born in 1960 (reportedly still alive in 2008), is a Brazilian who has made many predictions, and MOST have come to pass, including Princess Diana’s death by car accident (which is instigated by someone near her and will probably unfortunately be written off as a car accident), 9/11 and the 2004 Indonesian tsunami.

He sees the future in his dreams, and has an average of 3 to 9 such predictions per day. When he wakes up, he will write them down, and send warnings to those concerned.

If it concerns only a normal individual, he will write a letter to warn him/her. If it is a famous person(celebrity, politician etc.), or matters concerning the public, he will not only send it to the individual himself/herself, but also related agencies, government, and media.

He urged the media to publicize these predictions, but the reply always went along the lines of rejection for fear of arousing public panic.

Future predictions:

* 2008, July: There will be an earthquake in Japan , which will cause a tsunami of 30 plus metres high to occur as well.

* 2008, 18th September: An earthquake with magnitude of approximately 9.1 will rock China, simultaneously causing a tsunami of more than 30 metres to occur, resulting in the deaths of more than 1 million people. Although this huge earthquake will happen after the Olympics have ended, there will be a series of relatively smaller earthquakes occurring in China before the huge earthquake.The China government, which is more concerned with the success of the Olympics, wills most likely neglect to employ appropriate cautionary measures, thus the high casualty rate. If the China government does not publicize the occurrence of these minor earthquakes and evacuate people, the number of deaths will be as predicted.

* 2008, 17th December: terrorist attack in America

* 2010: The temperatures in some countries of Africa could be as high as 58 degrees Celsius, and there will be a serious shortage of water.

* 2010, 15th June: The New York Stock Exchange market will fail, causing an international financial crisis.

* 2011: The research on the treatment of some cancers will be completed, but a new life-threatening virus will appear. People who are infected will die after only approx. 4 hours of coming into contact with the virus.

* 2013, 1st – 25th November: Research on treatment of cancers, except for brain tumors, will be completed. An earthquake, caused by volcanic eruptions, will happen on Bahama Island of the Canary Islands . A gigantic tsunami of roughly 150 metres will result. America mainlands, Brazil etc. will be affected, with the tsunami pushing into the land as far as 15 to 20 kilometres. Before the occurrence of this gigantic tsunami, the sea/ocean water levels will sink by about 6 metres, and large flocks of birds will start to migrate.

* 2014: A small planet that has been gradually closing in on Earth might eventually collide with Earth, and this collision, if come to pass, will affect the survival of humans as a whole.

* 2015: By the mid of November, the average temperature of Earth could be as high as 59 degrees Celsius. Many people will die from the overheat, and international confusion and terror ensues.

* 2016, April: A huge typhoon will invade China , causing massive damage. The 43rd USA president, George Walker Bush, will enter the hospital, and faces a life or death situation.

* 2026, July: A super earthquake will occur in Sans Francisco, and it will be named ‘The Big One’. Huge damage to surrounding areas. Many volcanoes will re-activate, and the height of resulting tsunami will be more than 150 metres.

Mr. Juseleeno made known his predictions in hopes that people will take heed of his warnings, so that these disasters may be avoided. He hopes there will be a major change in the thinking of people’s mindsets in the time period 2007 – 2008. One factor will be the environmental issue of global warming, which is more serious than what some meteorologists assume.

SCARY ISN'T IT?!?!!
and plus, people! in like four days time,
keep a look-out for a quake in japan, if it does happen then, we are all dead.
but the last few years don't seem kinda realistic.
credits goes to sgcafe and Kasuke and Ref and Lancer.
who came up with so many things it is confusing!
anyways, check this area for more info! ^^
http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=50676&highlight=2012
there are erm, three pages, so don forget to find the arrows and click it yeah?
it is interesting and absolutely jaw dropping and shocking.
thanks for marianne too! xDD for telling me this thread.
anyways~ LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!!!! xDD

{ 10:30 PM }

I hate those stupid people!!!
what did I even do to them?!?!
lols, truth to be told, they did nothing to me and I still hate them.
xDD
see their face, their school, and i straight didn't like them already.
cause they think just because we are also from IJ, big deal.
keep on staring, tsk, not happy HARRRSS???
WANNA FIGHT HHAAARRRR???
lols, ok ok.
anyways, i HATE THEM TODAY.
(i am talking about shooting btw.)
stupid !!!!!!
well, i dunno what i did to them, to make them hate me to the extent, they must ANNOUNCE my ARRIVAL, when i am in their line of VIEW.
so yeah,
story so far,

i shot 15 shots, then i run out of air, and i erm.. broke the adapter?
but not me!!! the rubber band broke by ITSELF, not ME!!! so i had to borrow the others one.
there were two girls, from the school i dislike dry-firing in front of me.
anyways, so i went to the dry-firing area, thinking that the rest were dry-firing there.
(i was the last to shoot. T^T)
and THANK GOD i was wearing my specs.
if not i would have missed the stupid damn black girl nudging her friend in front of her, staring at me, saying loudly,
'hey look it is that girl.'
and she rolled her eyes at me,
naturally, i was pissed off, since about me shooting last too. ==
so i started cursing!
'fuck you la, fucking bitches.' and so, in a whisper of course.
by then i was already standing behind Yun Lu and the rest, and they stared at me in shock since i came in cursing like crazy.
so done, then i went to pump air, then went back to my lane to find it taken.
by the school i hate.
so i was, 'huh? why she take my lane?'
and found that the china coach, let her go first cause she wanna see her shoot.
so i was ok... then guess what?
i had to stand in the middle of them.

there were no more lanes, so in between the lanes, there will be space right?
yeah,
i had to stand there and dry-fire, in between them.
i freaked out, but no choice.. no more lanes.
stupid rifle people. == every time take up so much lane and take so long!!!
pistols got so little lanes just because we can stand in between.
anyways, dry-fire for half an hour.
sian sian,
she say i can rest, but i didn't want to rest, if not my arm may go hay-wire and start shaking on me all over again.
so dry-fire for another 15 mins.
then finally can shoot, BUT, i had to move all the way up, cause they still have yet to be done.
THEN,
i shot 15 shots again, realized it sounded funny, guess what.
it was OUT OF AIR AGAIN!
so i went the other way, not through the dry-firing way where i will pass by those bitches.
then guess what?
they could see me,
and that stupid damn black girl,
(and no i am not racist, i just don like her face) said to the rifle girl in front of her.
'hey, look.' nods in my direction. 'thats the girl i was telling you about.'
and just nice, ALL their rifle girls turned and stared at me.
i was so shocked i found it hilarious!
LOLS, i mean! i done nothing!
other then yesterday..
my first 15 was HORRID, then was ok-ok, then was good!
then that china coach, call us ALL out, including THAT SCHOOL, and two other girls who are pro and nice.
and gathered us in the dry-firing area, in a circle, placed me in the middle, and asked me to explain how and why i shot so good.
and my reaction was like this.
@0@
or something like that, ><"", i didn't know what to say.
so i said, 'i dunno?!!? i just shoot?! rise the gun, look and aim!'
and everybody started laughing,
then china coach...
ok, i am not going into details, too long.
but boss was in it, asking questions, and it was so embarrassing.. oh god, i never wanna do that again.

ok back to the story,
then, went back to the lane, bit pissed off.
and when i started to do some dry-firing first, guess what?
the black girl and her bitchy friend were in front of me.
so i was like, 'wtf?!!'
and my shots were extremely bad, i didn't even bother looking at it.
so damn pissed off.
heck, i see their face in interschool, i am gonna grind and mangle their scrawny little short ass necks!!!
ARGHHHH!!!

anyways, change topic. new post!!!! xDD

{ 10:03 PM }

Wednesday, June 18, 2008.

Unhappy things first.
*ahem ahem*
ooohhhh, guess what?
i just found out something.. that is happening in my family and household..
*clears throat.*
apparently, our family, has forgotten one very important thing..
a virus is catching up to them, pernament!
and the infected ones are, sadly i present you,
my grandmother, my older sister, and my dear cousin.
*nod nod*
and that VERY IMPORTANT COMMON SENSE THING IS.
*drums rolls*
HELPING.
yes, they somehow forgot how to HELP.
one example.
i ate breakfast, bread with jolly oh peanut butter with nuts,
and i left in a jiffy,
THEN,
on the bus.
my phone rang,
*bzzzz bzzzz* (it was on silent mode)
and it was from my house, so i answered it.
me - 'hello?'
grandma - 'YOU AHHH!!! *and she screams with words i do not understand*
me - 'huh huh??!?!' *confused*
grandma - '*talks properly.* (curse my memory, i forgot what she said.)
and so on, then she had a call, and i hanged up, no point waiting just to listening my grandma calling me to nag at cause,

1)'YOU FINISH EATING DUNNO HOW TO CLEAR HUHHHH?!?!'
2)'YOU NEVER CLOSE THE WASHING MACHINE DOOR PROPERLYYY!!!'
3)'I TELL YOU TO KEEP YOUR CLOTHES!!! *and some other things i couldn't understand.*'

and yeah, then, i came home with a happy happy mood.
dampen by my older sister, who took 3 minutes to open the gate for me,
then, dampen by my sister who just laid on the bed watching tv and saying,
'go keep the peanut butter you ate this morning.'
dampen by my grandma who completely ignored me like i am a ghost.
so i ate dinner, CURRYY, in silence, with bread and chicken and potato.
CURRY!!!

ok~ now about HAPPY STUFF, along with some UNHAPPY STUFF.
DOLLFIE!!!
YES! DOLLFIE PPL,
anyways, met with francine at tp there, she took him out, and waited for me, calling almost every 20 minutes, anxious for my arrival.
and my first reaction when i saw him was,
'woah.' i was shocked, really shocked,
for many reasons,
he didn't scare me but i was kinda disappointed.
since the image of a cute pretty boy wasn't really how he looked, but he is cute and ADORABLE.
anyways~
plently and tons of people were staring, commenting, pointing, nudging, giggling, glaring, and all.
but it was nice to carry it, but the attention was a wee bit too much.
dezi comments was like a black dirty waterfall.
poor francine, poor yue.
anyways!
took a lot of pictures! xDD
awesome!
i showed my sister,
me - 'how is it?' *smiling happily*
her - '*shudder* ewwww, it is DISGUSTING!'
me - '..........' *mood dampened.*
me - *recovers and ask cousin* , 'how is it?'
Fiona - *says nothing, looks at the picture and just takes my phone*
me - *insulted and angry. takes backs phone and walks off.*
and yeah.
here are the pictures of yue. ^^ it is a boy!!

this is the picture i showed to my sister, the 'disgusting' one.
i took it in mrt!!! i like this photo best! ><






~gazing away~


close upp!!!


he looks like a girl here, but cute isn't it?!?!



















































































yeah, anyways.
JIE, just for your info, if u don like it just lie or something.
it is like when we go shopping and when u try on clothes and u ask me how you look with it, i either shake my head, or say.
'nah, it is ok, but it you don look good with it.'
so shut up, and don give such comments.
next time you try on ANYTHING you LIKE, and ask ME how it is.
i will say.
'it is downright disgusting.'
sigh, people have different opinions, yes, but still, don says things i like in such a crude manner.
i would appreciate it A LOT.
and please please,
marianne and my jie, don fight in my tagbox,
i am HAPPY, that you actually come and drop in few words, but i don NEED such COMMENTS, on me or on my friends or my sister or whoever.
i don even go to YOUR BLOG, it is so lovely dovey that i feel so.....
sorry, but i think you should be it at private still.
and, no, don come vent your anger on people.
i wash our underwear, and get scolded for not hanging them out.
whereas YOU, just leave it be, ordering me to WASH IT ALL,
so what if it is just machine wash?
i am a very very fragile breakable girl,
and you don EVEN HELP ME, i have to wash, dry, and clear it.
you don even bother HELPING anymore!
saying, 'I GOT FOLD THE CLOTHES!'
'I WASHED THE DISHES!'
'I ER...' SO AND SO!
you know how sickening it is?
it is like living with people who have no common sense of helping!
and somehow no respect!

so what if i am stupid?!
so what it i am in normal?!
so what if i go for shooting almost everday?!
so what if i FORGOT to keep the peanut butter?!
so what?!
seriously, i don feel like anyone here is really like my family.
or i am just staying in a house where i get waken up EVERYDAY with grandma screaming at me,
'CARRY ON SLEEPING IN THIS PIG DEN' or whatever she says!
and YOU, scream and shout at me, then you ask kindly.
'can i borrow your book?'
and i say no!
then you come up to me again and ask.
then i say no!
then you say,
'good, cause i was making a bet with god, that if you say no, something will happen.'
ARE YOU STUPID?!
you already know my answer is no and you still ask the obvious!
have you gone so smart to stupid over the holidays?!
it is ok to play that once in awhile, being stupid.
but not EVERYDAY!

do you know, fiona is even ORDERING ME AROUND?
'go fold clothes amanda!'
'tsk! go keep the clothes amanda!'
and everything?!
and oh, i get scolded if i laze around and fiona is lazing around too,
'you are influencing her!'
'you are hopeless!'
'you are not even helping!'
'you can't even do a simple thing!'
i can't even shout back at anybody or anything!
cause, if i do, i will be scolded!
what am i?
rubbish? trash? so that you all can use me?

GAHHHHHH!!!!
i can't even use the com!
i can't even read manga!
i can't even read books!
is this really for my own good?
or is this some plan to kill me faster,
so that you all can get my money or live longer?

sigh, i apologize, i have been too emotional here.
and i am not crying.
serious.
just blank face, LOLS, blank and typing all those.
anyways, this is ULTRA LONG POST,
sorries!
shall say buh-bye now~
~^^~ dollfie <333

p.s
i do not want any fight going on in my tagbox, if do, i will settle it myself.
and jie, if u do not like what i say.
don bother coming here anymore.

{ 8:21 PM }

Monday, June 16, 2008.

I am just saying this.

don expect me to just shut up and sit back and laugh and smile,
I don think I can take it anymore, I am at my wits end already.
this is seriously pissing me off,
I am not your pawn, not your toy to vent your anger or for your amusement ------,
this post has nothing to do with anybody at all, none of my friends,
nobody.
so shut up and don assume I am talking about you or whoever is reading this.

I am not asking you to leave me alone, but to at least bear in mind,
that I am also human.

{ 9:10 PM }

Monday blues
arghh, it is not really Monday blues or anything, but more like muscles ache shitness.
i woke up to my grandma screaming again, it has become a normal routine now.
then, i felt a jolt of pain shooting up my body from my legs.
guess what?
it was so bad, i couldn't even stand up.
had to hold the cupboard, clinging on it and pull myself up.
then, i bend down to take the mattress up, and my back screamed in pain.
went to bath, i squat down to retrieve something i dropped, and my right leg went numb.
tried to stand up, and it nearly killed me.
and as i am typing this, i am standing and not sitting, cause when i wanna stand up, my right leg is hopeless.
sigh,
don think will be going for shooting today.
i can't even walk like a mundane,
i am liming as i walk.
sigh~
anyways, me got to study now.
but before that, got some chores to do.
sigh, byes ppl~
sorry i can't make it for shooting. ><""

p.s
when is the testing thing for the interschool? no one replied me. ==
if its today, i am so dead.

{ 11:34 AM }

Sunday, June 15, 2008.

sunday? no no, more like monday, it is past midnight already.
ok..
{continue}
we went to my godparents house, and well,
we drank *ahem ahem* then was a bit tipsy.
we found out that my godparents will be taking part in a 10km run on a fine sunday morning.
so my sister and i was like
'oh really?? why you never tell us?! we wanna go too! for the fun of it la!'
and so on,
then we sms-ed the person, can replace two ppl from their group cause they thought it was just a family jog, but nope.
so blah blah blah,
then settled.

when it was time to go home already, everybody was panicking on what was happening tml, my sister didn't know anything since she was sleeping,
so we just discussed it last minute and went home to gather our belongings,
then...
we got a call from my godpa, who was going to pick us up, saying that he got into a accident and the guy wanna claim insurance.
but in the end, it was just a light thing, no dent or anything, well maybe scratches
but yeah, it turned out alright,
and it was already 12 plus,
reached his area at 1.

next morning,
i realized i slept with my eyes open, cause when my alarm rang, i was in the exact position i slept except my leg was up.
and, i dunno whether i have slept cause i was thinking out through the whole way but i was 'sleeping' with my eyes open and all.
it was 5.25,
and it was not that bad, at least i was thinking about the book i read before i went to sleep, so it was good~
then, bath and everything.

OMG, you should have seen the terror and shock on my sister and my face when we reached there.
it look nothing like a church run or a friendly normal run/jog.
so we freaked out,
then got everything done,
blah blah blah.
oh and it was 5km not 10km.
when it was our turn to run, my sis and i, you run in pairs.
and the bad thing was, the starting road was all uphill.
i wasted all my energy on all those damn damn uphills,
and it was humid, short hair do not much good, sticking to your neck and all.
so run run run,
my sister ditched me halfway, and jogged up ahead, giving up on me, since i was walking and jogging at my own pace.
and some stupid indian, purposely overtook me, while i was jogging, just to look at my number tag.
good thing i was breathless,
i didn't even have to energy to shout, 'FU' but instead i muttered under my own breath.
and stupid stupid, there were so little downhills, and so many uphills,
and, the road look so long and far and never ending,
it was kinda intimidating.

well, i took, 1 HOUR to complete 5km!!
yea yea, just joking,
i took 40 minutes to complete, sis took 32 mins.
sigh~ next time, when i run this kind, i must have the stamina.
xDD
after that went to the church, sit down for some entertainment,
food, ohhhhh, the mee siam was good, i only stole a few bites from my godpa. ><"
he took the last bowl!
ate rummy burger, sis took the last beef.
oh oh! there was a show, about a science physics guy who were showing us experiments.
just so happen, he mention newton's law,
both my sister and i groaned.
lols!!!
and he was like, 'HEY!!! i heard some ppl go ARGHHHH, AWWWWW!'
lols!!!
then, there was this show, that was AWESOME?
erm, nice, loud and erm yeah.
^^ like it.
then lucky draw!~
i was spacing out, and my godparents were talking to my sister,
suddenly,
'0208!' and i turned around to shout my sister to go collect the price.
lols, shock, we were too engrossed.
she got a slow cooker, and the top prices were psp, limited edition red colour and silver?
but in the end didn't know who got it, what number was called, cause we had to leave.
T^T

went back home, bath and everything.
took a bus back home, came home, sms sms.
slept for... 5 hours? xDD exhausted.
lalalas~

ok, now onto something that happened just now,
guess what?
i was happily using my computer, reading.
then, i heard the sound of insects wings,
i freaked out, (i am sensitive to this cause there is a nest of wasp near by)
i looked up, and to my horror,
i saw a huge black thing flying.
so i ran out of the room, shocked, nothing coming out of my mouth,
scared for my cousin who were sleeping, thinking that huge black thing was a huge wasp.
counted to 5 i went back in, and saw a HUGE COCKROACH on my computer table where all my precious things were. i turned around and told my mom who were watching me act like an idiot, and i was shouting
'FIONA FIONA! OMG FIONA! COCKROACH! GET OUT!!!'
and she didn't even move, but watch my mom catch it and kill it.
IT WAS HUGE.
HUGE HUGE HUGE, oh god, i was so scared that my room was breeding roaches, i started to vacuum and clean everything.
my stupid sister was like, 'oh? big deal it is just a roach.'
IN OUR DAMN ROOM!
AND MY COUSIN WAS LIKE, 'HUH, SO?'
MY MOM WAS LIKE, 'SCARED FOR WHAT? IT IS ONLY JUST A COCKROACH!'
OMG! OMG OMG OMG!!!
arghhh!!
and i don think i will be going to shooting tml cause
1) my legs are aching,
2) i am gonna do major spring cleaning for my room.
3) i feel sick to the gut.

THE END. THATS IT, SORRY BUT YEAH, I MAY NOT BE GOING FOR SHOOTING TML, AND MY STUPID SISTER IS COMPLETELY NOT AFFECTED BY THE COCKROACH THING.
ARGHHHH!!
sigh, gonna sleep now, all complaining. == nights ppl.~

p.s
logging off at 1am.
Note to self: keep room clean at all times.

{ 8:55 PM }

Friday, June 13, 2008.

Friday the 13 truly lives up to its name.
ok, finally i got the time to use com. (today is sunday btw)
OKKK.

ok.. I started out the day with my grandma hollering at me to get out of the bed,
and my first thought was
'I need to get out of here as soon as possible!'
so nothing really started out well.

went for shooting, yishun,
then, i saw someone who looked familiar from behind and just brushed it aside thinking it was a guy.
so, when i went down the escalator, i just walked pass that person,
then, the next escalator, someone tapped me on the shoulder.
and guess who was it?
Our dear MISS AU.
and i freaked out,
'You never see me?! I saw you zoom down!'
and i was shocked, NATURALLY,
cause i wasn't expecting to see her first thing in the morning,
i mean, it is shocking isn't it? all of a sudden...
anyways, walk walk walk, then halfway to the bus stop,
she stopped and said,
'you go ahead first, ......... (things i didn't really hear)'
and held out the donuts, 16 of them, and said
'you help me to carry it there first, don drop them!!'
so went to the bus stop..
the bus came, and waited for me, THANK GOD, and i got on.

my stupid card can't be detected, not to mention my hands were full.
saw rachel, oliver and logini.

ok, during shooting,
okok, nervous at first,
during sighting shots was ok, when i noticed it was a bit on the right.
so i sighted to R.
then, competition shots,
it was getting worse, since they were all getting to the right.
so i kept changing.
my first 10 series was horrid, horrid horrid.
coach called me out 4 times.
he kept scolding me, and i couldn't figure out what was wrong with my shots.
so,
during my third 10 series, he said,
'where are you sighting to?'
and i said 'R'
after saying that, i realized i made a blunder,
the shots were getting to my left not my right.

stupid isn't it? and i kept shaking.
sigh, old habit of mine.
well did 13 clicks, was ok,
the rest of the shots was ok.
the last 10 series was badddddddd.
and ughhhh, THANK GOD it isn't inter-school, if it was, i will be dead...

packing up,
dezi was exhausted, and when miss au asked her to eat a donut, she turned it down.
as per usual, she over reacted and was saying things like.
'you can't say no!'
'you know i went all the way to city hall, raffles area just to buy donuts for you all!'
blah blah blah,
then when we were supposed to leave, she shouted to both marianne and i in a stern and strict voice, with no doubt the whole shooting range heard.
'WE ARE LEAVING ALREADY. YOU ARE LISTENING TO THE WRONG VOICE!'
and she made it sound like dezi was the devil,
'listening to the wrong voice.'
sigh, poor dezi, always getting miss au nags?

then after that, i was stalked by two people.
forcing me to go home and bring them along, threatening and everything.
sigh~
went to bishan instead, went to novena already, (too bad marianne, you stalker, you have no choice? xDD)
went to CC, inside they look look, i waited outside for them,
then saw the shop beside it and went it,
apparently i had 'run' away from my stalkers, or so they thought,
lols, just had no interest in CC, so waited outside instead of roaming around inside.
was called, threatened, black mail by the oh-so-cunning-francine.
hahaha, kinda funny though, i was just beside the shop they were in.

then, went home,
everybody was all preparing to leave, so i had no chance to bath.
left for clementi, ate there, then went to my godparents house.
{the rest shall be continued on the sunday post. too long already, sians.}

{ 10:50 PM }

Wednesday, June 11, 2008.

OH GOD! OH GOD! I FEEL SO FUCKING DISGUSTED!
lols, hey! be happy ok! I AM TRYING TO BE POSITIVE!
yeah right. ==
anyways~ came to rant, MY LAST FINAL RANT BEFORE I TAKE MY LAST BREATH, that my com will be locked.
hahaha, very funny.
==
ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!
god!!! OH GOD!
ALLELUIA!
PRAISE THE LORD GOD!!

oh fuck, why am i saying all that?
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
xDD
anyways, b-l-o-o-d-y h-e-l-l.
i am fucking pissed off, and i am not showing any emotion on my face.
*gasped in horror*
joking.
anyways, hell yeah, i am SUPER PISSED OFF.
of tons and tons of reason!!!
1) cousin
2) mother
3) sister
4) money
5) cousin
6) cousin homework
7) mother with her ugh-ness.
8) cousin with her annoyance.
9) myself?
10) the world. (JUST JOKING ABOUT THIS ONE)

anyways~ yeah yeah,
my story!
*ahem ahem*
blah blah blah blah.
ti ti ti ti.
tu tu tu.

heck, i am spamming my own blog. ==''''
anyways, ok,
well i was using the com, my mom pissed off, i brushed her aside.
blah blah blahs,
then she shout to my sister.
'LOCK HER COMMMMM'
blah blah blah.
so right now, i am gasping for my last breath, just to type this. xDD
and yeah.
well, i am kinda ok with the locking com shit, but once i finish my books,
thats it, i am off the rocker!!!
lols! xDD
hell. so shut up , i am gonna rant and spam this post.

hmmm, my cousin is realllllyyy annoying me,
real badly,
i am still amazed i am only giving her harsh comments and sarcastic remarks.
fuck youuu!!
and to my dear sister who maybe reading this, shut the hell up.
tell mom, and i will make sure you wished that you have never crossed the line.
(and don go running to mom, showing her my blog, crying.
'AMANDA THREATENING ME!!!' like you did last time, praise the lord i didn't strangle your scrawny neck or do anything to you.)
anyways~
i am uber pissed and happy.
for some damn reason, i didn't shout or curse or cry for any madness.
i just feel...

fucking disgusted.
reason is..
hmmm, this may some jealously to you but nope, not one bit.
well, while my mom was scolding me my cousin stood beside her, and then after my mom scold me, she turn to her and talked nicely and soothe her like i was some monster on a rampage.
yeah yeah, i don care if she is scared or anything,
but ughhhh!!!
the way my mom talked!
her expression!

OH GODDDD!!!!
and yes, you get my point,
*shudder* ugghhhh.
hypocrite?
runs in the blood i guess, i am so much of a hypocrite i fucking hate it.
and to those ppl who are like ------ and ------ and ------ and -----
go screw yourself with a pole and die.

sigh.
this is not working, this is not helping.
ughhh!!!!
well, my mom said.
'when i use the cane on you that time don cry! (me- erm, you guys hit me so much i am immune to it.) and you can't go out the next few days! i don care you got whatever competition! (me-erm, fine? tell Miss Au that, sides, i only got competition on friday and the 2 week of july. the rest is all training.) '
the end!
hahahaha, now my stupid dad wanna go out and eat food.
'i want fries, (runs in the blood marianne) lets call and order fries.'
me- 'don be ridiculous dad! just ordering fries?!'
hahahaha, well, yeah.
oh oh!
my mom said this, ' when HE lay a hand on you, you will regret it!'
*rolls eyes* don worry mother,
he laid many hands on me since i was primary three.
didn't you know?
he had more hands then an OCTOPUS!
why else do u think i am so immune to ALL your beating and remarks?
DUH.
who else?
lols.

wooo, long post i have here eh?
lols, kk. just gonna transfer songs and pictures in and out,
then they can locked the com

p.s
ppl, prayed to god that i don finish my two books so fast, because if i do, there will be tears before bed time! and it won't be me. *grins*
p.p.s
don mind me, i realized i sound like a mad woman, but just need to vent all my feelings out. i mean, where else can i vent?

{ 10:30 PM }

Tuesday, June 10, 2008.

HIEEEE YA!
lols!!! ok ok, it is 14 more minutes to midnight so gonna finish this up.
guess what?
I WATCHED KUNG FU PANDA!!!! xDD
lols!
IT WAS HILARIOUS!
IT WAS AWESOME!!!
'there is no price to being awesome.'
AHHHH!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH!!!
oh oh! warning!
when you wanna go watch the movie, please bear in mind to breathe and catch your breath!
hahaha, cause i will laughing for half an hour straight!
laugh till i was lightheaded, lack of oxygen? xDD
after the show, my grandma called that it was gonna rain while we were going down home.
then, my sister said. 'ah! raining already!!'
lols, so went toilet, blah blah blah.
then sis was hungry so we went to the food court beside Mac,
Mac was filled so yeah.
eat eat eat, well only her.
then ran in the rain to the bus stop.
stupid sister. ==
told her to shelter dad and nat, dad said ' no no go shelter amanda!'
and she sheltered me, haixs, how dumb.
so run to the bus stop, ignoring her screaming of pissing and bossing her around.
the wind was COOLING AND COLDDDD!
blah blah blah.

came home~
oh oh!
something happened! really stupid!
I was sitting down at the dining table there with all my family who were talking,
then i was thinking happily.
'oh?~ what am i doing tomorrow?~'
so i sat there and thought.
THEN.
the lightning strike as 'shooting.' rosed in my mind.
then.. i blurred for a while.
then thought again, 'i have shooting tml?'
and my position automatically went like that.












hahaha, well something like that. but yeah.
'shooting.. i have shooting tml. tml.. tml...'
ah wells~
nobody even bothered about me! sobs.
they just left, my cousin and sister was like, staring and me and looking.
lols!
anyways,
xD now drinking milk! hahaha.
not windy here. kinda warm, but cooling with fan on full.
anyways!
PPL! M-U-S-T W-A-T-C-H K-U-N-G F-U P-A-N-D-A-!-!-!
it is awesome!!!
lols!

one quote from the movie.

yesterday was history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a present because today is a gift.

they have a lot of meaningful quotes and sentences but i like this one best. :D
yeaaa!! gonna watch the happening on FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!
AND WE ARE GONNA WATCH IT, 2 HOURS BEFORE MIDNIGHT!!!
Y-A-Y-!-!-!-!
lols, kk kk.
nights and sweet dreams ppl!

p.s
logging off at 11.55!

{ 11:45 PM }

Monday, June 9, 2008.

warning! alert alert! children under the age of 13 please shut this window now! or ppl who cannot take horror stories don read on! warning! alert alert!
YOU HAVE BE WARNED!


ok.. this happened to me, well just. i am just borrowing the whole thing from fruits basket and editing it.
*ahem ahem*

I was feeling parched, so i headed for the kitchen.
And sitting there on the table was a freshly prepared glass of iced coffee...
Thinking it was a gift from heaven, I took a gulp and finished its contents without a second thought..

SUDDENLY!!!
A shiver went down my spine!!

I froze and my face white shade of pale!

I stared in horror...
inside the now empty glass I had just consumed from...

Unable to tear my gaze from the sight that stopped me completely in my tracks!
My whole body stiffened.
Yes! Inside that glass..

sat a huge black COCKROACH.














*GASP AND SCREAMS!*

lols, just joking!
BUT. something similar happened to me.
lols,
it was something like that story, but mine was milk.
so i drink drink drink, then i saw a....

HUGE FLY AT THE END OF THE CUP, STUCK TO IT.

and my first reaction was, i spitted everything back to the cup, coughing and choking, run to the toilet and forced myself to vomit. xDD

and hell yeah, that happened. i was cursing and screaming
'FUCK FUCK! OH MY FUCK!'
the whole entire way, ><""
hahaha. disgusting. *shudder*
anyways!
goodbye! and remember!
TO CHECK YOUR CUP BEFORE YOU DRINK IT ALL!!!

{ 11:23 PM }

Sunday, June 8, 2008.

woot! went shopping!!!
hahaha, yeah.
went shopping with family.
bought shirts and everything!!!
things for father's day, bags, clothes.
not much but happy. ^^
plus, met a lot of nice ppl today! (on the net)
hahaha,
was finding for songs, couldn't find and went asking around.
two people saw and gave me the web!!!
got one song, but another web, need to download something.
so yeah. sigh. i want that song so badly.
T^T
but still can't get it.
anyways!!
yesterday..
hmm.. what did i do yesterday? yesterday was..
OH YEAH.

~yesterday~
woke up, checked my phone.
'i want ----' and i screamed
'WHAT THE FUCK?!'
thank god, my grandma room door was closed and she couldn't be bothered with me.
my cousin freaked out though. xD
hahha, ok, carry on~
then went for tuition,
went to the counter and paid for the classes.
Mdm Cham came out, went in together with her.
and i stopped dead in my tracks.
someone was sitting in my seat. (lols!)
and it was a guy, so i was like 'huh huh huh?!?!' turning back and forth.
Mdm Cham-'Calm down, he is a new student.'
me-'ohhh...' recovering from the shock.
me-'where is Lin?'
Mdm cham-'she is behind you.'
me- *turns around* 'eh?'
Mdm Cham- *sighs*
me-*walks to Lin old seat.*
me-*turns around again* 'oh!'
Lin-*smiles* hi. *confused*
me-'where is Jovin?'
*doors open* Jovin- *huff huff* 'sorry!'
and we all sat down.
lols!!!
oh, i felt weird...... not sitting at my usual seat.
stupid what his name, he look like something from jie sailing.
i wonder...
anyways, his name was... tian soon?
LOLS.
something like that

ok. after tuition, went to church. blah blah blah.
went to amk hub, trade in phone,
OHHHH.
lols, sis and i saw two rings!
VERY NICE.
and on offer!!!
from 35 to 30++
blah blah blah.

Note to self:
1) SAVE MONEY, for tigerbarb, ring, ahma b'ade, fathers day, francine.
2) erm....
3) SAVE MONEY FOR.. EVERYTHING.
4) ......
5) OH, GO TO KINO BUY BOOKS. (how the hell is that saving money?!) IT IS ON DISCOUNT.
6) ok, no point doing this, all i have to do is save money and sell all my stuff.
so...

ANYBODY INTERESTED IN BUYING DGM PORTRAIT COLLECTION?

{ 5:14 PM }

Friday, June 6, 2008.

In memory of....?
ok. just joking, but yeah, someone passed away but this has nothing to do with it.
wells, just gonna rant for awhile about my ...
hmm right.
ok.



'that girl never do anything!'

'that girl only play computer and never study or help around the house.'

'AMANDA! COME HERE! pack this area up! you are the only one who touched this area! you every time do things halfway one! i don wanna scold you or say anything to you at all!'

'that girl ah, damn useless. can't even keep things at all!'

'you see that girl ah, always to things half way!'

'that girl!! so damn useless! cannot even do a single thing!'

'eh? help that girl take out rice when have dinner? FOR WHAT?? she also never help to wash people plate! only wash her own. help that girl for WHAT?'

and as you can see, i kinda made it short, but this are all said by my grandma, who never fails to say all this EVERYDAY. and she complains to me that she cannot sleep well, her life, her hands, her body. i can understand that.

then next i help you with the computer. then you start yelling at me why am i using the com. right. i shut up and do nothing, but some how, you just lovvveee to say all these when your daughter is around huh? and also, you have never complain anything about rachael. only me.

like wise, i do help to wash the plates after dinner, but since i always end up finishing first i only wash my own plate and everything that is in the basin. and also, i started to notice that this month, that you stopped taking rice for me, i am fine with it, but hey. i didn't think you would be so petty.
and please please do not put words in my mouth. i do help alright, i forget to keep the ironing clothes at time because i always put it in a different area.
so sorry, but heck. shut up and stop complaining.

and the best thing i love about cousins, is that they stick to you, follow you, and give you no privacy, thank you very much.
but i don need someone to follow me 24/7.
sigh, thats it.
the end.
now gonna pack around the house and bath and sleep.
^^ cyas ppl~

{ 9:45 PM }

Thursday, June 5, 2008.

I didn't know going Orchard road could be so tiring.
well, thing is, I went with my cousin.
sigh...
yes, my cousin.
it was alright at first, she kept up with me, I answered all her questions.
went to kino, bought manga, storybook, for joey and for her.
went to have lunch,

she took about an hour, so when I finished eating, I lost myself in a book.
then, she started asking me questions when I was reading,
I answered everything even though i knew she was trying to strike up a conversation.
then, after lunch, that was when I was annoyed.

we walked to cini there,
she was complaining I walked too fast,
'walk so fast for what? like an idiot like that.'
so I slowed down, till veryyyyy slow.
and she complained that I was still too fast,
she was tired, the walk to cini (from taka) is so long and far.
(I was carrying everything.)
I couldn't care bother myself with her anymore, I walked ahead.
but keeping at a snail's pace.
and guess what?
she still couldn't catch up.
so walk walk walk.
then, reached cini,
i opened the door, saw the sign board on the floor that say 'wet floor caution'
or whatever.
then she bumped into it, and stared at the thing and stared at me.
==
Like hello? why are you staring at me and the thing?
then guess what?
she walked off.
so I had to clean up her shit, with everybody staring, bend down, make it stand with me carrying the kino bag and my bag.
she just stood there and watch me, pretending to help me.
once i was done, i looked up to see the cleaning lady and she tsked me.
like w-t-f.
ok fine,
so i told my cousin.
'next time, you bump into anything, just pick it up and leave got it? or you could at least help me??'
she ignored me and said, 'owww.. when i bumped into that thing, i scratch myself.'
and she was touching her palm.
so i said, 'huh. what? just bumping into that you scratched your hand?'
'no no.. just now when i bumped into it, i accidentally scratched my hand.'
== god gave you ears for a reason child.
i felt a strong urge to curse and yell at her, but i shut up and went to buy the donut.

next, while looking through the donuts.
she was standing beside me and clearly blocking my way, and when i tried to move to the direction where she was standing, i had to go one big round, just to see.
and while i was telling my order, that stupid lady just left and went to attend another customer.
fuck you la.
they don accept nets so i went to withdraw money, and that stupid machine didn't allow me to withdraw 20 but 50.
no choice i had to.

next, from cini, i walked to the somerset mrt.
and she was complaining, (i was carrying the kino plastic bag, donuts, and my own)
so i ignored her, and told her.
me-'i can't imagine when you actually go jogging with me.'
her-'then i go jogging with rachael lars!'
me-'*laughs* yeah right, her jogging is like running.'
her-'ohhh..'
*silence to the mrt.*
and during the mrt ride home, she kept asking questions when she was reading the book.
'i don get this part.'
'what does she mean?'
'huh?'
like erm.. read further down and maybe you will know what they are talking about?
sigh.
so exhausting, on the bus. oh god.
she didn't want to move in to the standing area, and she was squeezing with me, and a man was like still pushing to get to the door.
i touched her shoulder and said, 'move in.' and she rooted herself to the spot.
the man being super annoying, pushed me when i was standing just beside the bar, carrying the donut, lifting them up. and my cousin moved back, and i nearly fell
onto the space where she rooted herself to.
i glared at the man who was talking on the phone, and my cousin just acting as if nothing had happened.
oh god oh god,
it amazes me that i never cursed throughout this whole thing.
sigh, now she is laughing out loud while reading the book.
and just now she aske- no more like command me, 'why you never take my cotton butt?'
so i went to find it, and told her it was all dirtied.
and she gave me that look, so i asked her, 'why do u need it for?'
and she was like 'err...'
'to dig your ear?'
'yeahh.'
and she gave me that diao diao look and she was mumbling to herself in broken sentences.
arghhh!!! i am so tired.
sigh...
hdjkhfkgdfikhhkhdlhf.

{ 3:33 PM }

Wednesday, June 4, 2008.

this is one of those nights..
sigh, fever.... ==''
couldn't go out today..
today whole day rained.
sigh~
wanna go to escape, without any thunder lightning or rain.
but now rainy season how to?
somehow shooting shooting shooting.
haixs.
my cousin is following everywhere i go,
when i eat she eat,
sigh. no privacy?
dunno, but sometimes when she talk kinda annoying.
she will be like, 'tml..' silence 'you...' silence 'errr....' silence and walks away,
at least finish you sentence!
ugh.. my head. sigh.
shall not rant but the meme? dunno.

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
camelian knight?

Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
three.In the master bedroom , living room, sleeping room

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
erm.. don think so.

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
table, chair, rice.

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
nope.

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
yeah!! so that i can prepare everything, live life to the fullest, and say my farewells. oh oh, and will be at the place i wanna die!

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
hmmms, dunno. I am fine with my name

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
black blue white?

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
hmmms, yeah. staple bullets by accident.

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
lols. nope!

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
hahaha, little fingers are important! so no.

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
hmmm, blog. nope, need a place to vent my anger.

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
NOOO. never in my entire life!

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $10,000?
no,but i will try to do it

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
no, everybody's life is priceless. sides doing that is a straight way ticket to hell.

Q. What is in your left pocket?
pocket? no pocket, wearing FBT shorts! :D

Q. Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
no

Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
nope, all marble and cement?

Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
stand, how to sit?

Q. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
flips flops.. hmmm, my family shares? all four of us have the same foot size.

Q. Last person who texted you?
erm.. ben?

Q. Last person who called you?
my mom.

Q. Person you hugged?
none.

Q. Number?
3,9,13,31

Q. Season?
WINTER:)

Q. Colour?
Black

Q. Missing someone?
hmmm, yeah. someone... can't remember.

Q. Mood?
normal, not too good.

Q. Listening to?
my grandparents shouting and scolding my younger sister and my cousin asking me a question i don get?

Q. Watching?
a scene unfolding right before my eyes, my family.

Q. Worrying about?
tomorrow, shooting, money. ><""

Q. Wearing?
shirt and shorts.

Q. First place you went this morning?
toilet

Q. What can you not wait to do?
to end the day. lols, nah la. reading and computer. :DD

Q. Do you smile often?
everyday at something that never fails to humor and amuses me.

Q. Are you a friendly person?
YES,VERRRRYYYYY!! xDD

{ 7:48 PM }

Monday, June 2, 2008.

This sucks.
This is horrid.
Sigh. Today was fun exciting and confusing.
Till 1 hour ago.
Went for the funeral for my aunt, my dad dad (my grandfather) sister, whom brother just passed away not 2 months ago.
Thing is,
It was so strong, that it hit me the moment I stepped out of the car.
At first I didn’t know what was it, but when I sat down and listened.
It was saddening and painful.
It was overwhelming, made me feel dizzy through out the whole thing,
Thank goodness they had an exercise ground to let me get my mind off it.
But nope, it didn’t help at all,
Still, I didn’t think I would get affected.
It was strong and good enough to make me moody,
And when I asked my sister, ‘can’t u feel anything?’
I can’t really remember what she said, but I think it was like that,
‘I don wanna know.’
It was maddening when she said that, it is not like I can block it or anything.
I can’t control it,
Neither do I know how to even do anything about it.
Sigh,
In the end, when I left there, I was pissed.
Thinking about it, makes me even madder.
And when I asked mom about how the deceased aunt son, if he was still crying.
‘No, well. He is much better.’ At least at is a relive, but not good enough,
Not like I can’t help him and tell him. But thing is, should I tell?
Sigh.
Now I am home, and downstairs my house has the senior citizens thingy,
They are all singing off-tune, and it is not exactly helping me.
Not. One. Bit.
It is like adding fuel to the fire, and my younger sister is pissing me off.
It is so fucking noisy, it is so maddening, and I am pissed at myself for letting myself get affected.
Ughhhh.
Anyways. I pray for her, and for Uncle James.
Rest in peace po-po.


as the ghostly wind blew,
I found myself staring back at me, and my name craved into the stone.

{ 9:32 PM }