Wednesday, June 18, 2008.

Unhappy things first.
*ahem ahem*
ooohhhh, guess what?
i just found out something.. that is happening in my family and household..
*clears throat.*
apparently, our family, has forgotten one very important thing..
a virus is catching up to them, pernament!
and the infected ones are, sadly i present you,
my grandmother, my older sister, and my dear cousin.
*nod nod*
and that VERY IMPORTANT COMMON SENSE THING IS.
*drums rolls*
HELPING.
yes, they somehow forgot how to HELP.
one example.
i ate breakfast, bread with jolly oh peanut butter with nuts,
and i left in a jiffy,
THEN,
on the bus.
my phone rang,
*bzzzz bzzzz* (it was on silent mode)
and it was from my house, so i answered it.
me - 'hello?'
grandma - 'YOU AHHH!!! *and she screams with words i do not understand*
me - 'huh huh??!?!' *confused*
grandma - '*talks properly.* (curse my memory, i forgot what she said.)
and so on, then she had a call, and i hanged up, no point waiting just to listening my grandma calling me to nag at cause,

1)'YOU FINISH EATING DUNNO HOW TO CLEAR HUHHHH?!?!'
2)'YOU NEVER CLOSE THE WASHING MACHINE DOOR PROPERLYYY!!!'
3)'I TELL YOU TO KEEP YOUR CLOTHES!!! *and some other things i couldn't understand.*'

and yeah, then, i came home with a happy happy mood.
dampen by my older sister, who took 3 minutes to open the gate for me,
then, dampen by my sister who just laid on the bed watching tv and saying,
'go keep the peanut butter you ate this morning.'
dampen by my grandma who completely ignored me like i am a ghost.
so i ate dinner, CURRYY, in silence, with bread and chicken and potato.
CURRY!!!

ok~ now about HAPPY STUFF, along with some UNHAPPY STUFF.
DOLLFIE!!!
YES! DOLLFIE PPL,
anyways, met with francine at tp there, she took him out, and waited for me, calling almost every 20 minutes, anxious for my arrival.
and my first reaction when i saw him was,
'woah.' i was shocked, really shocked,
for many reasons,
he didn't scare me but i was kinda disappointed.
since the image of a cute pretty boy wasn't really how he looked, but he is cute and ADORABLE.
anyways~
plently and tons of people were staring, commenting, pointing, nudging, giggling, glaring, and all.
but it was nice to carry it, but the attention was a wee bit too much.
dezi comments was like a black dirty waterfall.
poor francine, poor yue.
anyways!
took a lot of pictures! xDD
awesome!
i showed my sister,
me - 'how is it?' *smiling happily*
her - '*shudder* ewwww, it is DISGUSTING!'
me - '..........' *mood dampened.*
me - *recovers and ask cousin* , 'how is it?'
Fiona - *says nothing, looks at the picture and just takes my phone*
me - *insulted and angry. takes backs phone and walks off.*
and yeah.
here are the pictures of yue. ^^ it is a boy!!

this is the picture i showed to my sister, the 'disgusting' one.
i took it in mrt!!! i like this photo best! ><






~gazing away~


close upp!!!


he looks like a girl here, but cute isn't it?!?!



















































































yeah, anyways.
JIE, just for your info, if u don like it just lie or something.
it is like when we go shopping and when u try on clothes and u ask me how you look with it, i either shake my head, or say.
'nah, it is ok, but it you don look good with it.'
so shut up, and don give such comments.
next time you try on ANYTHING you LIKE, and ask ME how it is.
i will say.
'it is downright disgusting.'
sigh, people have different opinions, yes, but still, don says things i like in such a crude manner.
i would appreciate it A LOT.
and please please,
marianne and my jie, don fight in my tagbox,
i am HAPPY, that you actually come and drop in few words, but i don NEED such COMMENTS, on me or on my friends or my sister or whoever.
i don even go to YOUR BLOG, it is so lovely dovey that i feel so.....
sorry, but i think you should be it at private still.
and, no, don come vent your anger on people.
i wash our underwear, and get scolded for not hanging them out.
whereas YOU, just leave it be, ordering me to WASH IT ALL,
so what if it is just machine wash?
i am a very very fragile breakable girl,
and you don EVEN HELP ME, i have to wash, dry, and clear it.
you don even bother HELPING anymore!
saying, 'I GOT FOLD THE CLOTHES!'
'I WASHED THE DISHES!'
'I ER...' SO AND SO!
you know how sickening it is?
it is like living with people who have no common sense of helping!
and somehow no respect!

so what if i am stupid?!
so what it i am in normal?!
so what if i go for shooting almost everday?!
so what if i FORGOT to keep the peanut butter?!
so what?!
seriously, i don feel like anyone here is really like my family.
or i am just staying in a house where i get waken up EVERYDAY with grandma screaming at me,
'CARRY ON SLEEPING IN THIS PIG DEN' or whatever she says!
and YOU, scream and shout at me, then you ask kindly.
'can i borrow your book?'
and i say no!
then you come up to me again and ask.
then i say no!
then you say,
'good, cause i was making a bet with god, that if you say no, something will happen.'
ARE YOU STUPID?!
you already know my answer is no and you still ask the obvious!
have you gone so smart to stupid over the holidays?!
it is ok to play that once in awhile, being stupid.
but not EVERYDAY!

do you know, fiona is even ORDERING ME AROUND?
'go fold clothes amanda!'
'tsk! go keep the clothes amanda!'
and everything?!
and oh, i get scolded if i laze around and fiona is lazing around too,
'you are influencing her!'
'you are hopeless!'
'you are not even helping!'
'you can't even do a simple thing!'
i can't even shout back at anybody or anything!
cause, if i do, i will be scolded!
what am i?
rubbish? trash? so that you all can use me?

GAHHHHHH!!!!
i can't even use the com!
i can't even read manga!
i can't even read books!
is this really for my own good?
or is this some plan to kill me faster,
so that you all can get my money or live longer?

sigh, i apologize, i have been too emotional here.
and i am not crying.
serious.
just blank face, LOLS, blank and typing all those.
anyways, this is ULTRA LONG POST,
sorries!
shall say buh-bye now~
~^^~ dollfie <333

p.s
i do not want any fight going on in my tagbox, if do, i will settle it myself.
and jie, if u do not like what i say.
don bother coming here anymore.

{ 8:21 PM }