Sunday, August 31, 2008.

correction people. my hair is absolutely hideous.

{ 5:22 PM }

hooboy, my grandma is mighty pissed at me..
why?
cause i woke up late this morning, woke up around.. 12?
she screamed at me to wake up at 11.

but was hard, i had too many nice dreams to wake up, and i slept till 12. xDD
the weather is good, cooling, but no rain, no breeze.
just thunder and more dark clouds.

everybody woke up early, mom went to a birthday party,
waking me up to comment on her clothing,
sis woke up for tuition, making so much noise when she was changing.
nat was screaming upside down, elated that she can go party.
dad was snoring away, correction, he went to the party too. (just found out)
grandma and lasthree was busy working on nat, and the house.
me? i was sleeping.

mom called not long, saying that i should have been there.
they were giving away PUPPIES.
and even my sister said that they were adorable.

so i told my mom,
"really? i think it is an extremely good thing i didn't go, because i won't wanna come home and not to mention that, since when our house can keep pets? so why are you telling me all these when you yourself know that you won't allow me to bring them home?"
and the moment i said that, the line cut off, no reception.

(I don have good moods when i am waken up screaming and perspiring in my bed, cause my fan is off. and my room is filled with wet clothes left to dry cause it was raining.)

oh my dad is home, and my grandma is hogging the kitchen so that i can't cook.
anyways, bye people. cya tml,
and just to let ya all know.

my hair is HIDEOUS.

p.s
the kitchen is no longer hog, time to cook!

{ 12:53 PM }

Saturday, August 30, 2008.

I CUT MY HAIR!!!
not DIY la!
went to the salon i always go to.

so snip snip snip,
then...
i look like this.



but that was how i look like when i was young.
i look something like that, the hair is shorter though.
and the stupid parting. =.=

i got so scared, i am not gonna go for tuition today.
but no point also, the topic i am learning today, is the one i've done already.
and the test, got full marks! (^o^)

so.. to the people i am gonna see on monday.
don over react ok?
i look funny, seriously.

but my family likes it, say what?
i look like those Egypt people....
and i don think like wise.

anyways, cya people.
don LAUGH at me too much.
laugh a little can, comment also can.
just don cross the line. T^T

p.s
hubba hubba! do the thing like the way those Egypt people do! (no offense!)

{ 2:00 PM }

Friday, August 29, 2008.

yeahh!! changed my layout!!!
thanks to joey!! thank you so much for your help once again!! xDD
but hey!

i did majority by myself too ok!
well, i did some.
joey helped me download the link, paste it, gave me the link for the tagbox, help me get rid of the stupid disclaimer things.
then i did the rest!
hehehehehehe!

but still, thank you joey! ^o^
wee~ it is cute?
i like it! xDD
omg, my friends have no links!!

oh, done!! by joey!
THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN!!!
i shall call you 'oh wise one!' from now on! xDD
jkjk!
but thanks!!!!

p.s
cuteee!!~

{ 6:46 PM }

milk kills me.
seriously, the milk i drank last night was NOT expired!
it expires on the 30 Aug! and yesterday was the 28Th!
so how come, i still vomited and have diarrhoea?

this sucks, last night, smsed joey, saying MAYBE not coming to school today, cause i vomited.
then this morning before anybody woke me up, or anybody woke up.
i vomited again.
and didn't get much sleep, cause of tummy pains and the stupid after taste of vomiting in my mouth.
and thats why i didn't go to school today.

and i regretted it.
why?
cause everybody has been screaming at me the moment i woke up.
sigh,

anyways, i am really really sorry.
marianne and olivia.
really really sorry.
truly sorry.
really sorry..

ditching you guys last minute, really sorry.
so sorry..

and i am gonna cut my hair today,
and i had a nightmare about it.
and somehow i couldn't give a hoot for now..

i can't use com, can't read books,
only study. how sickening,
bye people.
wish me luck for my hair, and don laugh.

p.s
i am never gonna drink that brand ever again, no matter how much i loved it.

{ 11:05 AM }

Thursday, August 28, 2008.

i was never a sane person.
joking joking!!
felt like typing that, xDD
but true la, sometimes i get a bit high, and get hay-wired and turn happy crazy?

anyways, i am not here to rant about my madness.
but my hair.
i wanna cut it, to get fringe or whatever.
but my sis says to cut my hair short, cause there is a 'bend' from tying my hair too often.
true true, i know i tie my hair a lot, cause it is hard to study with my hair in my face.
and yes, there is a bend in my hair, from tying it too often.
sure sure, i know.

when i let down my hair, the 'bend' can be seen, and her advice is to cut my hair short, let it grow out again.
but still, won't it be like a vicious cycle?
cut-bend-cut, or something like that.

anyways, will think about it, most likely will be cutting on monday?
so will go there and get some advice and suggestions.
but their answer will be, cut short, cause, they prefer me in short hair.
with long hair, i look like a walking zombie, if not dead.
wish me luck and cross your fingers people.

p.s
frustrations, homework, money, stress. so many things to keep up with, and i am only a student.

{ 7:27 PM }

Wednesday, August 27, 2008.

trying desperately not to run away from reality.

{ 8:26 PM }

sighhh. slug slug slug slug slug slug.. pissed! sad! ultra sad! ultra pissed!
why? cause my dear cousin is backing out..
x.x
i finally managed to sell it!
i thought i did,
she needed time to save, so i let.
and guess what?
she wanna back out..
she wanna back out for damono and missle happy at a price at 56.
i lower like crazy already. and she wanna back out,
cause i am selling magister to her at a 105.
gonna lower the price to 100 and 50.
see if she want or not.
sighhhhh.
haixs, and i wonder how am i gonna talk to her when i see her for any event or anything.
x.x
money is an issue for me now..

i owe,

1) haru - $60
2) blood romance- $52.80
3) alice - $128
4) bank -$100
5) francine -$30
_____________
$370.80

now you all know why i am so damn desperate to sell my stuff.
and why i put a stop to merchandise and manga.
and yes, i owe this much.
i need it all to be paid by Sep, and don forget people.
i only get $4 a day.
happy counting the days for me on how much will i take to save,
and starve.
^^ i soooo love everything that is coming my way.

p.s
stress for studies and money. everything is not going accordingly to the way i want.

{ 8:07 PM }

i have no idea what to post.
but anyways,
today was fun, and tiring.
talk talk, didn't go to alice in the end.
found out that only had 100 LEFT IN MY BANK.
gonna DEAD, if my mom finds out, so DESPERATELY, trying to save it up.
anyways~
gonna post some pics.
^^

pictures that states my afternoon, enjoy~


this what marianne did, and her victim was joey.



lols. and this was joey on the bus. xDD



and this, was their reaction of the bishie! he was sooo cute! (sounds weird...)



this is completely not related to anything. but it is funny! xDD

{ 6:22 PM }

Monday, August 25, 2008.

what fuck shit is this?!
i am damn pissed off at this moment, so just read on.

just 10 to 5 minutes ago,
my stupid dad, kept poking me, while i was studying.
and guess where he was poking?
my PITS.
pits=armpits.
twice.
once, i slapped him as hard as i could.
second time, he got away.

was ultra pissed off,
and was smsing people.
ben called,
my sis took notice that i was using her ear-piece.
she 'allowed' me to use it,
which she didn't, i just took it.
hanged up, and she got onto the JACKET story.
read on to find out the amazing and blood boiling JACKET STORY.

THE JACKET STORY, THE MOST FUNNIEST THING EVER.

one fine day,
amanda had no proper jacket, and asked her godmother whether she had any.
and just nice, she does!
a nice one in fact, her friend gave her that jacket but she doesn't use it so she gave it to amanda.
amanda was SOOO HAPPY and thanked her like crazy.
so next few days.
amanda sister, rachael, kept bugging her to lend her the jacket.
and she lent it to her.
BUT, things got out of hand.
and rachael kept using it.
one night, rachael came home wearing the jacket,
and amanda does not remember her lending her the jacket.
so she ask her, and rachael insists that amanda did say yes.
rachael used it over and over.
without PERMISSION.
so one night, amanda was so pissed off.
she hid her jacket under the clothes.

and the next morning,
at around 9 am, when amanda was sleeping soundly,
she was woken up by screaming and shouting,
that said
'WHERE IS MY JACKET?!'
and amanda's grandmother came in to help rachael to find amanda's jacket.
and they messed up, amanda's cupboard which she had packed neatly and nicely,
and shouting at the top of their voices, finding DESPERATELY for that jacket.
and when they found it, rachael took it and left.

amanda, pissed off that she was woken up early in the morning by all the rukus.
just went back to sleep.
and in the night, she asked her sister who allowed her to use the jacket.
and once again, she said it was amanda.
which rachael did not even ask anything at all to amanda, because amanda was so called sleeping while watching the whole scene.
and a fight started.

then, fews day down the road.
another fight started for some reason and the jacket was brought up once again.
grandmother said.
"you ah! make us find YOUR jacket! you are so messy! hang also cannot hang properly!"
amanda stares DUMBFOUNDED and EXTREMELY PISSED OFF at her grandmother,
and says.
"Hello? it was YOUR ELDEST GRAND-DAUGHTER that ASKED YOU TO HELP HER FIND MY JACKET!" and walked off, leaving her grandmother speechless as she rememebered the incident.

just a few days ago..
amanda was on her way to tuition.
with her mother, grandmother, younger sister and maid in the car.
and the jacket incident was brought up again.
and this was how the conversation went.
mother-"amanda! i heard about the jacket incident! why rachael wanna use your jacket?"
amanda- silence..
grandmother-"ai ya..rachael jacket already so small and cannot fit her, so she borrow amanda's one lor."
amanda-silence.
mother-"oh... then why fight?"
amanda-silence...
grandmother-"cause amanda don wan to lend her, her jacket."
mother- *scolds amanda*
amanda-says something but i can't remember.
mother-"i don want to buy anymore jacket for you all! blah blah blah."
amanda-"i am not asking you to buy anything, why can't she just use it still? she can still wear it and all!"

and they suggest that, amanda GIVES rachael her jacket, while amanda uses rachael's jacket.
and YAYYY.
guess what?
amanda only used RACHAEL's jacket once for the art exam, and chinese exam.
and thats ALL!
and now, amanda's jacket that used to be body hugging,
is now huge and no longer hugging.
in fact, it dangles.
and when you see RACHAEL wear that jacket,
it hugs her.
and her excuse why it doesn't hug me, was cause someone sent it for washing. ^^

^^ nice isn't it?
the love between sisters.
how a jacket can create such chaos,
just a tiny jacket.

and now, amanda thinks of just giving up her jacket to that RACHAEL.
and don bother to EVER wear a jacket again.
this is how fuck shit life is.

and oh, if your father pokes your ARMPITS.
your reaction should be this,
stand up, move so fast he can't see, then kick his balls, and then gouge his eyes out.
because, he just can't understand the word,
"STOP" along with some profanities.

amazing how violence can be when people don understand SIMPLE ENGLISH ain't it?

p.s
i am super pissed off, so i don give a damn about how you all feel about this post.
yes, i curse and swear just in case you don't know.
i am a BAD ASS!!! xDD
p.s
i feel better. ^^

{ 9:52 PM }

Sunday, August 24, 2008.

gosh. bad news.
yes i am still on com.
anyways, BAD NEWSS!!

nothing to do with other people but,
my MOM, maybe sending my great-grandma to an old folks home!
can you believe it?!
my MOTHER!!

she is crying on the phone while talking to the people and her friends,
no wonder my grandpa is here, he lives with my g-grandma.

for the past few months,
my g-grandma has been causing a stir for everybody.
she was seeking great attention, like she wanted to.
but things naturally got out of hand..

well, the reasons are this.
-the maid, accuse accuse accuse.
-the house,
-grandpa,
-everybody, not enough attention.

i think, this is just a summary,
but i remember once, it was late in the night,
and raining heavily.
and that it was so bad, my mom got so pissed off.
she went there, along with my grandma and grandpa, and settled things before it got any worse.

not to mention that everybody was so pissed off,
and frustrated, that they had no idea what to do.
now my mom is crying, talking to someone, saying how hard it is.
all the problems, blah blah blah.

oh, now is she talking about dad.
gosh, my father is pathetic.
yes,
PATHETIC.

he comes home so late,
and ACCUSES me saying that i DID NOT STUDY.
and last night he asked me why i am not studying and using the com.

why?
cause it is a saturday!
i only have TWO days to use the com, sat and sun.

anyways, better go now.
my mom is still talking and sniffing on the phone.
ACK,
she is off!

wow, her eyes are red..
okok. BYEE.

p.s
everybody is so stressed, including me, you can literally see it PILING up.

{ 11:45 AM }

mug mug mug.
yes, it is a sunday and i am still studying, doing my homework and making notes.
believe it or not, me, amanda laura lee, is STUDYING.
reason being is cause EOY is round the corner.
and it is scary ya know..


I get the feeling i am gonna retain, fail fail fail.
I don wanna retain, NO WAY.

So i am gonna study like hell is coming.
Well, it is now.
Cause my sis is so stressed, i feel so stressed, i study more.
Thats the reason why i bring so many books home and pay more attention in class.
study study study.
if not.
save save save. ($)
or,
stress stress stress,
about money, and studies.

i better hurry,
my mom is not gonna like me using my com too long.
and so sorry to the people out there if i don reply you fast, or whatever.

anyways,
my plans for the week and etc.

monday, - find someone to study with, and if do, study at her place, not home.
tuesday- skip shooting? maybe not.
wednesday- find the same person and go to her house to study.
thursday- go out to alice, blood romance to pay and get stuff.
friday- completely no idea.

there, done.
and now, gonna study..
physics, english, maths, ss, history.
the whole entire day! beat my record of 5 hours of studying.

anyways, i wanna change my blog layout!
but no time. x.x
sigh, well, will find and change tonight if possible.
joey! if i do change my layout, i may need your help again. xD
okok, BYEEE.

p.s
i wonder how nerds do it. (it-studying.)

{ 11:23 AM }

Sunday, August 17, 2008.

i am bored..
i know i just posted two posts.
but still...
i am BOREDD.
so gonna spam post my blog.

bored
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bored.

ah!
hhehehehe!
i could spam people on msn with 100 nudges!
WOOT!
NEW VICTIMS!
PREPARE PEOPLE!
HERE I COMEEEE!!!

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p.s
boredom kills.

{ 3:47 PM }

Olympics is love!
yeah!~
i love the running and swimming ones!
they are AWESOME!
the swimming has the speed and everything!! it is so cool!
but their arms to their chest is kinda scary..
got the.. er.. flabs?
xDD
running is awesome!
watched last night one.
the jamica guy was like.
AWESOME!
he beat the world record and everything!
100m=9.69 seconds!
if i remember correctly.
but omg man!
he overtook the others like nothing!
and the way he ran,
was like his was FLYING!
it was AWESOMEEE!!!
xDD
love it!~
singapore VS china, in table tennis woman!
heheheheh!
i wonder who will win.
but..
china is good, and well, singapore is ok ok.
so dunno.
*shrugs*
lalalala~

p.s
sports are loveee!!!

{ 3:39 PM }

I have a confession to make.

well, since marianne said all that, i felt bad.
cause that early post i was just joking,
yes, i know it was meant as a surprise,
but i was kinda joking that i was jealous and all.
but i was jealous for another part,
sorry for being so damn childish,
whiny, and er.. demanding.
but nah, you all know that some times i just can't absorb in hints,
cause i am bad with all those kind,
of 'dropping small bombs before the big bomb' stuff.
but still thank you for telling me, the most, at least.
still thank you and sorry for putting the blame on you.
i am sorry for making you feel.. bad and guilty?
sorry,
DEEPEST APOLOGIZES.
and, as friends, i don think spending one month with you will screw us upside down.
cause, if that did happened, that well.
i will be royally screwed upside down for about..
7 years now.
yes, that's how long we have been friends.
hahah, and i don take it in the whole world crushing down on me,
blah blah blah,
well, at least i think i don.. do i? 00
anyways, don worry bout it.
i was just, teasing you?

xD
anyways,
my confession ain't that big.
plus,
it is kinda weird confessing this over the Internet.
but er...
i have two secrets.
one secret is which,
nobody, i repeat nobody, MUST know.
so yeah, that secret is only I KNOW.
the second secret is er..
er............
i have er... three secrets.
one just popped up in my mind, which will be revealed in few months time.
and er...
er...
how am i gonna say this...
sigh.
this is weird.
this is damn weird.
no no.
nooo!!!
er.

like wise people, when you read this, or when i FINALLY CONFESS.
don laugh at me or ask too many questions yeah?
it is HARD, TO EVEN TYPE IT OUT.
IT IS DAMN HARD.
ok.
the first small bomb, marianne should know this.
*ahem ahem*
you know oliver right?
she also dropped a bomb yesterday?
yeah.
mine is like that.
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT...
we are not together.
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
BUTTTTTT!!!!
we confessed that we like each other, and yeah.
thats it.
not bf gf thing.
but yeah.
OK
BYE PEOPLE
I AM NOT COMING TO SCHOOL ANYMORE.
ANYMORE!
NO MORE!
NO MOARRRRRR!!!

gosh.
this is so damn embarrassing.
x.x
ok.
i wonder..
with all these confessions.
how are we gonna say and face one another in school.
00
ok.
next, is.. joey and debra!!
xDD confess! confess!

-the end-

all in all, this is FUCKING weird and FUCKING....
i dunno.
HELL.
ANYWAYS.
DON LAUGH AT ME OR ANYTHING.
god.
i can't believe i am gonna post this and people are gonna read it.
GAHHHHHHH!!!

p.s
i wanna commit suicide now.

~you are tooooooo beautiful girl~
~lalallalala~ (dunno the lyrics)
~you make me suicidal, suicidal~
~yeah and thats all?~

{ 10:16 AM }

Saturday, August 16, 2008.

my one week holiday! :]
well, it is coming in another..
er.. i think another three weeks?
it starts on the 3 sep,
WOO, it is drawing near!
the birth of a new...!!
nvm, forget i said that.
hahah, anyways!
i have planned for my one week holiday already!
xDD
wee~
spamming marianne with 100 nudges~
lucky she is having dinner.
x.x thats my revenge for not telling me!
and not knowing how it looks like!
i feel hurt and betrayed. D:

also to another person whom i am not gonna name due to some reason.
anyways.
yeah,
i feel hurt and betrayed. D:
by two people.
*sniff sniff*
i get jealous every easily ya know.
oh, it is done.
hahaha,
should i spam some more?
but no fun. D:
she is having dinner,
ah she is back.
lols,
anyways~
my holiday!~
will be filled with work and tuition.
xDD
tue-friday
9-11, tuition.
after that, go to workplace and work till evening!
^o^
money money!
maths maths!
lols!
all M!
mac mac?
marianne marianne?
er...
mustard?

anyways~
sigh, i feel lost.
and...
lost?
i dunno, but heck.
exams are coming in one month!
studyyy!!!
maths!!!
ss!
history!
bio!
physics!
english!
the rest, heck care.
PASSS!!

p.s
I'll blow it clean away. this jealousy of...

{ 7:04 PM }

Friday, August 15, 2008.

I am insanely tired.
have been sleeping late for the past few nights,
with only 5 to 4 hours of sleep.
and yes people,
and my reaction is.
when i wake up in the morning,
i will be extremely quiet, you will never hear me say a word, not even a yes or a no.
last night was worse, slept at 12 plus, woke up at 4.30, went back to sleep till 5.
then went to school and slept.
xDD
revived!
hahaha, but on the train home, i did some head banging,
><"" lucky didn't miss my stop.

haixs,
tired tired.
*yawn*
sighhhh..
*stares at handphone.*
x.x
hmmm, anyways, my maid is kinda scary,
i was gonna bath when i saw her standing in the kitchen and just looking around.
plus, whenever i talk to her, her reply is
"hahahahhaha"
CRAP MY SIS IS HOME.
BYE

{ 9:08 PM }

Saturday, August 9, 2008.

Hear the song,

Listen to it,

Feel its pain, everything,

Every note, says its sorrow.

Listen carefully, how careless was it,

How much it regrets,

Listen to it,

Listen carefully,

Let it enter your heart,

Feel it, and you will know, how i felt.

Now let the song begin, open your heart, close your eyes, and listen.

It grieves, it cries. For the lost of the beloved one.

The song plays in harmony,

Along with their tears, their sorrows, their pain.

It continues, it does not stop, it will not stop.

Their cries and their pain will not be heard, their shouts of their sorrows, their feelings.

The thunder sounds, the rain hits the back of them, the violin stands and plays.

For them, and only for them alone.

The piece piercing through them with every note, every octave, every breath, every heartbeat.

When will their sorrow be heard?

When will their wish be granted?

When will everything be finally be put to an end?

When will they be able to rest in peace, to be at one, and to go together?

The winds blow softly, the piece entering into the chorus.

Their cries are louder, their tears dropped to the ground, mixing with the soil along with the rain.

Their soul’s tainted and sorrowed.

They grab one another, trying hard not to fall.

Silently, they watch the violin.

With every note,

It cries beautifully,

Every tear, every breath, every note, and every sound it makes.

It is heard clearly,

Its mistake, it’s grieve, it’s sorrow, its regret.

It shouts louder,

Every note rising higher,

Its feelings stuns them with its beauty and sorrowness.

The feelings deep,

The love and the hate.

The regret and the sorrow.

The chorus ends,

The pace is slower, its sadness heard.

Cries goes along with the notes,

Making it louder and higher, it plays, carries on playing.

They stop, breaking down, unable to carry on any further.

In the storm,

Only the violin stands playing beautifully,

In the heavy rain,

Only the violin cries,

In the strong winds,

Only the violin is shouting,

Slowly, the piece is ending,

The violin slowly bids its last goodbye,

Carefully and slowly,

It vanishes, into the darkness, and beyond it, will it join with its beloved one.

The crying violin, the grieving piano, the dying cello.

All will be joined, together and forever.

{ 3:23 PM }

Friday, August 8, 2008.

the crying violin.

{ 5:49 PM }

Thursday, August 7, 2008.

[RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR]
I WASTED TWO HOURS OF MY TIMEEEE!!!
yes people, i wasted two hours,
of finding for GOOD books to read,
but within the hours, i found NONE,
eg.



the host- i don like it, too boring.
marked,betrayed,chosen.- don get the storyline and too... normal?
(can't remember the name)- it was eye catching at first, picked it up, read it, and ended up standing there, with my heavy bag, and read it finish.
so i didn't buy it.
promise of the wolves- not too bad, but it will be nicer from the mundanes point of view.
hell prom night- COULDN'T FIND IT.
(can't remember the name again, but it was recommended by Meyer)- not too bad, but they didn't really talk much about the thing they were supposed to, and i didn't really get it.
(something something Chloe, i think.)- OK OK, but read half the book and lost interest.
and some other books which i found nice and interesting,
oh, i read one summary.
it made it sound so INTERESTING, flipped it open,
read few paragraphs, lost 35% of interest.
so tried to hang on and flipped through some pages,
and read a few, and lost interest and back it went sitting on the shelf.
haixs,
so went loitering around the area, picking up books and reading to see if they were nice.
but most of the bestsellers authors and books, didn't suit me.
x.x
i have very high expectations for books,
yes that is stupid i know,
so in the end, i queued up with two books i have already read.
city of bones (book 1) and city of ashes (book 2)
and so while waiting for my turn,
guess what?
i forgot to bring my card along with me,
so i had to go to the reservation counter to reserve it for me,
and collect it within three days starting from tomorrow.
sigh.
i wasted 2 and a half hours of my time..

oh, and a lot of people was buying Breaking Dawn,
and i mean A LOT,
saw an IJ girl,
saw a lot more other school girls buying it.
and saw many foreigners, picking the breaking dawn up and flipping through it.
though i felt like telling them that it was the last book,
since they were browsing through it without knowing that there is a series of it.
next, while i was wandering around that area,
i saw the movie trailer.
including the making of it.
James, Vitoria, everybody.
the action and everything.
how they walked so fast,
how they do the stunts,
how they talked,
how they growled and snarl.
trust me, i felt like throwing all the books at the TV,
burn the innocent sum sang TV,
smash it into pieces.
including with the disc.

and yes, that was how bad it was.
well, for me la.
i would love to comment more on their hair and such.
but to cut this long rant short.
i will just say five things.
1) the action is alright.
2) the fighting is as bad as it can get.
3) the talking and everything, no way.
4) none of the people is hot.
5) it is badddd.

but!
i have yet to watch the actual movie.
though i think i will cry when the whole thing is over,
cause the movie does not one bit,
ONE BIT,
follow the book,
James and everything.
HA.
the bite mark, looks like a... budging piece of meat that is glued on her wrist that is the shape of a crescent moon.
i rest none of my case.

THE END!

p.s
nothing will rock your socks.



admit it, yaoi people are hot. :P

p.p.s
ignore that pic, i am bored to boredom. and exhausted. nights people.

{ 8:37 PM }

Tuesday, August 5, 2008.

WOOHOO. just finished it!
had to wait 25 minutes for mom to leave though.
><"
can't use the com in her pressence.
it was AWESOME!
well during the part when they were fighting, especially Bella. :P
true true,
it ended too fast, they should at least continue with just one more last book.
but well,
authors are like that, mean and cruel but yet awesome!
lols,
i find the ending alright,
just a little... fast.
should carry on a little further!!
but nice! :D
ok, just wanted to post this. xDD
finished everything in one hour!!
9 chapters!
yeaa~

p.s
forever and ever.

{ 7:54 PM }

i have been thinking in the shower what to post.
but well, i forgot everything.
anyways~
just took a nice cooling bath,
though, i didn't realize that dad was home, and i just walked out of the bathroom with only a towel wrapped around me.
plus, i wonder,
is it a good or bad thing?
he has been coming home early two nights in a row,
last night cause the tv was coming,
and today,
i dunno the reason.
but either ways,
it feels awkward for him to be home so early.
x.x
haixs, scratch that,
it is not AWKWARD, it is pissing me off.
he just came into my room, and started commenting on how messy it is.
"you know ah, last time when i stayed, there was 7 person no 8 person staying in a three-room flat, and my house is much neater then this."
etc,
i had to correct his choice of words, under my breath of course.
sheesh,
trust me father, if you didn't sleep with mom or share the same room.
your room will be a rats nest.
and damn,
those people just keep showing up.
ARGHHH!!
haixs.
x.x

to think i wanted to post a nice cheery post,
but hey!
blogs are meant to rant stuff you wanna get away from and yet you can't do it no?
==
arghhh, buggers.
why can't they just come up and stop annoying me from the corner?!!
**
my eyes hurt, my degree is going up,
i can't look at the screen too long.
and i need to change my lens.
SOON.
will go on Thursday.
MUST GO.

hungry ghost festival~
which is kinda obvious with all those people burning and such.
if you don't well,
i say you better crawl out of your hole soon cause a nuclear bomb is coming directly at you.
haixs,
losing my temper easily nowadays.
i don know why.
but maybe i am going crazy,
sometimes i just get the urge to throw the chair and tables at people.
x.x
i am really going crazy,
plus i have been cursing the lord's name too much.
and thinking about it too.
and it is not good,
not one bit good,
cause i don like it,
and i hate it.
and i do not know what to do.
arghh!!
i am getting more pissed when typing all this,
though my expression is still stoned.

i shall read Breaking Dawn,
i heard from the people is 3/6 that the ending sucks big time.
like a cliffhanger,
too fast, and too little information.
like an anti-climax.
so the book i have been waiting, ever since the third book,
anxious to curious to know what happen.
plus not to mention, delaying time by trying not to read,
cause,
i wanna know the ending and yet i don wish to know.
and if it is gonna leave me hanging,
i think,
when i go for a movie, and the twilight trailer decided to pops up during the preview,
i think i will scream profanities at it, and well, i will definitely be dammed and chased out.
cause i don even like the movie but i am still gonna watch it.
but anyways~
gonna finish the book tonight,
my sister is bugging me to let her read.
bye bye people.

p.s
life is full of mystery, let's just hope it doesn't open another can of worms yeah?

{ 6:30 PM }