Sunday, October 26, 2008.

the blazing fuck is this?

i am pissed so i am gonna rant, don like it, SCRAM.

ok lunch.

mom and sis and mama came home.
so they had lunch.
ok.
i walked to the table, none of them noticed me, so i was like blah.

went to the kitchen, no more plates.
went out, and saw that there was no space to sit to eat.
so went to the living hall and watched tv.

so i was getting oh so cosy,
then mother called out,
"amanda, clear the plates."
so i was like, "what?"
she STARED AT ME LIKE I WAS MENTAL,
"clear the plates!"
i stared at her, DUMBFOUNDED,
"me? i clear YOUR plates?!"
"yeah!"

i laughed at her.
before she could shoot me any angry look, i went up and clear their fucking shits.

i waited for them to fucking finish, their fucking lunch,
and in the end, i had to clear their fucking plates and wash them.

you can say i am childish to even complain about this type of shit.
but i swear, I SWEAR, if anybody had given you that TONE and that LOOK.
you would do nothing else but lift up the sofa and throw it in her face.

that belittling, despise, maid, lower status, look.
oh god,
when i CLEARED THE PLATES, i felt so badly..
so badly to just pour the damn curry and chicken bones over her head.
but how could i?

i mean, she is MY MOTHER, and my GRANDMOTHERS was there.
naturally, no matter how you look,
I WILL BE IN THE WRONG.

and, the best thing was,
my older sister was there too.
though she ate finished earlier, and cleared her own DISH.
she just sat there and use the com.

sigh,
it seem meaningless to even be pissed at her.
life still goes on.
and hell yeah, i am gonna have my LUNCH now.

and oh, for the love of god.
i am having terrible mood swings.
so pissed me off, and i promise you, i will definitely make a scene.
i promise you. ^^

and if you guys/girls wanna know why i don have a cbox, or whatever.
but i am just damn lazy, and somehow, i see no point in having a cbox.
so yeah. ^^

p.s
i am turning emo, piss off bitch.
well, to be simple,
i am turning into a fucked-up bitch. ^^

{ 1:13 PM }

narcissism.

her name is amanda laura age 15 going to 16, she is a tarot card reader , blessed with family and friends. :)

materialist.

I want this
good results,
for my prayers to be heard
friends and family smiling happily forever :)

i've got this
family,
friends,
myself,
god. :P

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