Thursday, October 2, 2008.

It was heartbreaking, nerve wrecking and will make you want to break down and cry.
After tuition, I went to meet mom at her office, then went to Taka, and was unable to find the book I wanted.
Then, went to Mount Elizabeth Hospital.

I nearly cried, right there and then.
who wouldn't?
seeing your own grandfather, lying there on the bed, weak and fragile.
doing his dialysis.
face pale, eyes half opened, the eyes went up, able to see the white, his pupils can't really be seen.
breathing heavily through the oxygen mask, only able to turn his head, to find the source of noise.

when i saw him, standing beside him, i literally froze on the spot.
mom kept distracting herself by asking the nurse who is taking down the beats and stuff, questions.
seeing him like that, is really.. painful.
so of course, i was not stupid enough to just cry there in front of him.

i greeted him, and kept talking to him.
he was like, nodding or shaking his head, if not no response at all.
which made things worse.
so i laughed it off, and also turned to the nurse.

sis came in, and when she saw him, she was mum.
her eyes turn red, all our eyes were red, but hey!
none of us cried.
not a single tear.

and that girl just stood there, and i had to instruct her. *laughs*

who would have thought his condition would actually take a turn for the worse?
after he admitted to the normal ward and all.
from ICU, to normal ward, to high dependency care.
had to make a hole again to clean his blood, everyday, for four tiring hours.
i just stood there for five minutes, and i already felt like crying.

but, after a while, got immune to it.
just let it be, and it was better.
sigh,
after that, went for dinner. talked a little.
about my tarot reading, and what the fengshui guy said.

went to novena, saw the POA teacher, said hi, she looked shocked when she saw mom.
she was literally gaping.
anyways, had dinner there, looked around, went popular, went to mph.
then see clothes for a while.

then went to the novena church.
kneel there and prayed as much as i could.
then left.
i pray to god, that everything will be alright.
i sincerely pray.

ya know, you may laugh at all these, think it is so easy.
bullshit.
bloody f**king hell bullshit.

and if you laughed at this post, felt that this post is too long, rolled your eyes or i am too naggy or whatever crap.
kindly shut up, i can hardly care about you people anymore.
this is a human life i am talking about here, my grandfather.
so scram, if you do not like what i say here in my blog,

bear this in mind, never ever take life so lightly.

p.s
i had always love you, so i pray, be safe.

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