Saturday, November 29, 2008.

There is none like you,
and no one else can touch my heart like you do..

And I could search for all eternity lord..
and find, there is none like you..

There is none like you,
and no one else, no one else can touch my heart like you do..

and I could search, I could search, for all eternity lord.
and find, there is none like you.

ooh.. I could search for all, eternity lord.
and find...

there is none, there is none~
there is none like you.

there is none like you.

( 'There is none like you', Lenny LeBlanc. )
_______________________________________________________

I actually wanted to post everything that had happened, but seeing everything back.
I lost my mood.
maybe i will post it up tomorrow, maybe I will never post it up.

but all I know is that.

I miss yeye very much, it hurts to actually think about it.

My heart really squeezes, that he is no longer coming back.

That he will not be sitting in that chair of his, laying back, sleeping and snoring with his mouth wide open.
That he will not be there on my birthday, smiling at me and wishing me happy birthday.
That he will not be there, wearing his favorite green shirt of his and sitting with all of us in one big round table, and having dinner during christmas.
That he will not be there during any meal, and I will not be able to call him.
That he will not be there wearing red that he loves, smiling and laughing, talking very animatedly to his brothers and sisters during chinese new year.
That when we go to malaysia, whatever we want to buy, he will say "buy buy!" and my mom will tease him and us.
That when we played mah jong, he will not tell us tales and joke with us.
That he will ask me anymore to 'ok' him.

He is really gone, gone..
For eternity, till the day I die.
I will not see him again, till he comes visit me both spiritually or in my dreams.

It pains me to even see mama in this condition.
To never see the man she love and has spent 40 plus of her life with.
To never see the man she love sleeping and snoring beside her.
To never see the man she love complaining to her.
To never see the man she loves so deeply, calling her name and saying i love you.

It is amazing, how life can go on.
How the people around me, can live on like nothing has happened.

I want to get over this, I don't want to forget it.
but I want to get over this.
and I do not want to stay at home.
but i don't feel the need to be happy or be playing around.

This is reality, and hook or crook I will have to accept it.

I wanna go east coast, go ride my bicycle to the end of it.
and to tan everything out.
I want to do that, but the only question is when?

_______________________________________________

Marianne, Olivia, Rachel and everybody else.
I am sorry, I doubt I can go out this tuesday, really sorry. D:
with me in this condition, I think I will just dray you guys down.
so sorry.

And sorry, that i cannot go and visit shannen.
I have to abide some traditional rules.

- I cannot celebrate my birthday, and thank god for that, cause I don't want to.
- I cannot celebrate new year's nor christmas.
- I cannot go to people's houses for 100 days counting from the 24 november.
- I cannot wear red, nothing red.
- I cannot cut my hair for 49 days counting from 24 november.

and yeah, so yeah.
sorry shannen, don't think you will read this though.
but i will pray for your waking up, though it will be painful.
but get well.

and, thank you debra, for giving me your well wishes and the only one to reply me.
thank you for your intentions. :)

just in case, to let you all know, he died on the 24 november, monday, 2pm in the afternoon.

thank you for reading and god bless.

p.s
A kiss for you that is sorrowful, a goodbye for you that is loved.
I will love you yeye, always, and will never fail to.

{ 10:35 PM }

Sunday, November 23, 2008.

..... Aish.

My beloved, how long do I have to watch the both of us suffer?
How long more do I have to see your wrinkled face in pain?
How long more do we have to torture ourselves?
How long more do we have to wait, till you reach the gates of heaven?
How long more do I have to cry helplessly over you?
My tears are endless for you.

do not say a word.

{ 2:56 PM }

Thursday, November 20, 2008.

Ok.. this are the information bout the meeting.

the first person to reply me was debra, dashini then orelia.
what happened to the rest?
idk.

anyways, i feel bored, and felt like posting something. so did this.

the days you people are free.

debra- monday, wednesday, friday.
dashini- everyday 'cept saturday and sunday.
orelia- flying to somewhere and not coming back till late next month.

the rest.. call... *ring ring*
oh. pai seh.
sorry angela ,ya having gutair practice. xD

er... shannen. ==
sigh. i feel lazyyyyy.
no one is picking up.
ring ring ring ring ring ring.
ah wells. reached inbox. ==

nvm. and so~
wait till night.
and till then. shall roam around and la di da.

-edited.-
marianne- everyday but tuesday.
joey- everyday but weekends~
shannen- WHOLE WEEK NOT FREE, cause of OUTINGS and concerts. (:
celine- monday only.
angela- D: she never replies to me. not free the whole week. she is flying away.

p.s
my finger's hurts. D:

{ 2:10 PM }

Tuesday, November 18, 2008.

Fuck you bitch.

Is what I like to say. (:

Don't give me all those damn bullshit,
and about what shit you said.

What do you think I am?
Stupid?
yeah right, kindly think twice before you even say anything to me.
Or give me all those 'advices'.

Fuck you, and your stupid comments.
oh, and not to mention your stupid advices. (:

p.s
I got so pissed, i broke the thing where the keyboard was on. _|_

{ 10:15 PM }

Monday, November 17, 2008.

I started the day with a laugh, as in literally. (:

well, i woke up this morning, to find myself below my pillow.
so in others words, i moved down. but i was in the same sleeping position.
then, i turned to my left, jie was sleeping soundly.
then, i turned to my right, and started laughing like mad.

cause, when i turned to my right, hao yee eye's were so big, it gave me a shock. xD
i was so shocked, but it was so HILARIOUS! xDD
i don't know why, but it was funnyy!!!!
(it was bout 7?)

then went back to sleep, woke up again.
hao yee in the end, only slept for 2 hours, and was awake throughout the rest. D:
it is BADDDDD.
she could collapsed from exhaustion! as in LITERALLY! DD:

then had breakfast, went down, had to come back up again cause nat forgot her bag. ==
mom dropped us off at the cathy.
bought tickets, went all the way down to B, to buy the other popcorn.
but in the end, did not, cause the thing opens at 11, but the popcorn would be done by 12.
and our movie starts at 11. DD:

so went back up, bought popcorn, wait wait wait~
the movie was not bad, madesga?
okok la, kinda long, but funny. (:
then walked to ps, took train to somerset.

somerset, went to cini~
took neoprints~
then walked to taka, the kids wanted macs, so went there to eat.
eat eat eat.

i had tuition at 2, but called and said to change both timing and days.
it is a seven day tuition btw.
so starting from tml, it will start at 11AM-1pm. DD:
have to wake up early.
plus, i end next monday. DD:
sunday saturday also have.

oh, what time does training starts tml?
if i am too burnt out.. well i may not turn up. D:
so yeah. see how.
anyways, had fun in the end.
but am is so tired......

sis is sleeping, hao yee is going to her friends house to take something, go home change, and go back to orchard.
she is working at a hotel as a waitress!
HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!? xDD
plus! it is 7.50 PER HOURRRR!!!

i wanna work too!!!!
hahaha, try la.
if can, i PERSUADE mommy to let me work!
TO SAVE MONEY. :D

ack, i have to go down in 5 minutes time to send the rest home. D:
titus and vanessa is going home~
good and bad.
plus, titus confirm, when he is older, he will become ah beng.
CONFIRM. D:

anyways, i need to save money.
SAVEEE....
for various purposes.
and i am exhausted... ==

oh, and marianne, i am buying the blue eyes from you. so yeah..
tell me the price. just say it in the chat box.
plus, angela joey debra, you owe me money.. x.x
sorry to say it here. D:

gtg now... my legs ache from all the running...
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-

p.s
i like to moving moving. ( if i have the energy.)

{ 3:40 PM }

Friday, November 14, 2008.

I DISLIKE OKTO!!!!!! DD:

ok.. so i was flipping channels, so i stumbled onto OKTO.
and it was showing an anime..
sure, anime, okay.
THEN.
i realised that pink uniform looked familiar...
THEN.
i heard the voices, and they sounded familiar...
THEN.
i saw the actions and everything that were familiar...
THEN

I SCREAMED CAUSE THEY WERE SHOWING SKIP BEAT.
THEN,
i stopped, shocked and confused.
THEN,
i looked up to the right hand corner and saw OKTO(theicon),
AND SCREAMED, AND POINTED TO IT SCREAMING.

so basically, i screamed for an ENTIRE MINTUE,
till the opening song started.
THEN,
i ran to my grandma's room, took the house phone.
and dialed joey's house number.
NOBODY PICKED UP.
then, i dialed marianne's house number.
IT WAS NOT WORKING.
then i dialed joey's phone,
IT CANNOT CONNECT.
then, i dailed marianne's phone,
NOBODY PICKED UP.

so i got DAMN PISSED.
and stared at the screen, and screamed silently.

I HAD NO BLAZING SHIT IDEA THAT THEY WERE SHOWING SKIP BEAT!
AND BY ODEX!
F-U-C-K--Y-O-U-!-!-! (tonobodyiamjustsayingwellsomebodylarhsANDTHATISODEXANDOKTOFORSHOWINGSKIPBEAT!!!!!)

NOOOOOO!!!!
then, it became adverb.
"TO ALL ANIME FANS YOU SHOULD TUNE TO OUR CHANNEL AND WATCH THIS ******* IF YOU HAVE YET TO WATCH! AND THOSE HAVE NOT TO BECOME ANIME FANATICS WATCH THIS BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH!"
I GOT SO DAMN PISSED, AND I NEARLY SMASHED THE TV BY PULLING IT OUT FROM THE WIRES AND WALL.

SKIP BEAT! THEY ARE FUCKING HELL SHOWING SKIP BEAT TO THOSE .......... PEOPLE!!!
THANKS TO Y7365437452563863 ODEX, DGM BECAME SO.... OVERRATED.
AND I LIKED THAT ANIME,
AND THANKS TO A CERTAIN TWO PEOPLE, I DISLIKE THE ANIME, BUT CARRIED ON THE MANGA.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

UORYECSW XEDO!!!!!! EDIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s
an otaku anger is a killer!
p.s
i hardly watch tv, since i am always using the computer, so i found out that they were showing skip beat since 6 days ago. ==

{ 11:41 PM }

Thursday, November 13, 2008.

my love for stories.

DD: I FOUND TWO NEW STORIES!!!
though not book la, manga la.
xD

IT IS AWESOME!!!
the drawings are too cute and pretty!
oh gosh, my heart ached at some part.
but i still love it!!!

AND IT IS SO LONG!!!
it is still continuing BUT the last upload was always the early part of the year. D:
the author don seem to be continuing it. DD:
which is worse, cause i cannot read it!

DD: i hate author's like these!
THEY SHOULD CONTINUE NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

T^T
i wanna read more..
shall hunt. (:

p.s
i met a new friend today. (:

{ 11:18 PM }

I HATE MY FATHER!!! SCREW HIMMM!!!
cause he is so stupidly annoying. ==
so yeah. thats my post for today. (:

oh, and, i still love night markets!
I LOVE THE FOODDD!!! xD
i am putting on weight. D:
lols~ cya ~

p.s
la di da~

{ 7:01 PM }

Wednesday, November 12, 2008.

WENT TO MALAYSIA!!!!

and yes people, we went to malaysia.
after collecting TONS of FREEEE yaoi books! xDD
i kept screaming every time i found a book of MINAMI HARUKA!!
and yes JOEYYY, FREE BOOKS.

you should have gone. xD

after that went to malaysia, ate supper there and la di da.
then went back home.
reached home about 11 plus?
then played MAH JONG!!!

hahahah!
it was AWESOME!!!
loved playing with mama!
won three times! and once with the help of ahma! xDD

oh.
todayyyy.
came back from malaysia, then came home.
then used the com till sian, jie asked me to follow her to her nails.
so went. (:

guess what? the area is CLEMENTIC.
so went back there again, than did my nails!!! (:
black? and shiny shiny?
toes... plain silver. (:

my right hand one's are kinda screwed, cause i blew those yellow yellow balloons?
with titus and sheryl!
AND GUESS WHO WAS THERE!!?!?!?

HAO YEE!!!! :D
yeahhh!
talked to her, played with her.
SCREAM and COMPLAIN with her. xD
it was SO FUN!!!!!

we were complaining and scolding our schools, teachers.
then, when i found out she reads TWILIGHT.
I SCREAMED. xD
and, when jie found out she plays BRIDGE,
SHE SCREAMED! xD
and she kept laughing, we kept laughing all the way.
(:

it had been a LOOOONNNNNGGGGG time talking to her.
i like her better then her bro. (:
oh..
SHE IS OH SO PAITENT! xD
really good and very teacher like with the kids!!! xD
she is goooddd!

but ah wells!~
i am sleepy. D:
but need to bath and all.
oh, and PEOPLE.

MARIANNE, THIS IS FOR YOU.

I HAVE TUITION NEXT WEEK ONWARDS.
MONDAY TO SUNDAY! 2-4.
SO I CANNOT GO FOR TRAINING.
I WILL TRY TO GO, BUT DON THINK I CAN.
SORRYY!!!! DD:

p.s
malaysia, should really use their land wisely. (:
~malaysia, truly asia!~ xP

{ 11:00 PM }

Monday, November 10, 2008.

GOOD MORNING!!! xD

I am bored, and i can't really sleep, so gonna do a quick meme and force myself to sleep. xD

btw, i took the meme from joey's blog! D: sorry!
cause it is so long, and i figured by the time i finish it i would be sleepy. >< style="font-weight: bold;">12X MEME
Five sections to fill.
►
Right Here, Right Now
[x]What song is stuck in your head right now?
Monochrome kiss. xD

[o]Where are you at the present moment?
At home, and doing this.

[x]Where do you wish you were?
Dream land! xD

[o]What part of your body itches right now?
Hmm.. nowhere?

[x]Where you conscious before that it itched?
see above.

[o]Do you still have the same song in your head?
Yes, it is playing! xD

Word Association
[x]Aristocrat - aristo? D:
[o]Bridle - riddle?
[x]Clavicle - huh?
[o]Decoy - Rot!!
[x]Fate - Destiny.
[o]General - The person in charge?
[x]Herb - Medicine!
[o]Inefficaciousness - does not wok?
[x]Jerkwater - a water that a jerk did?
[o]Kayak - row row row?
[x]Lerperchan - leprosy?
[o]Minor - Major.
[x]Note - Paper.
[o]Old School - CHIJ.
[x]Pancake - with honey sauce! xD
[o]Quarter - Half.
[x]Racket - Badminton.
[o]Scalp - Hair?
[x]Toilet Soap - Soap meant to be used in toilet?
[o]Urchin - ???????
[x]Virtual - Image? lols.
[o]Waste - Rubbish.
[x]X ray - Bones!
[o]Yawn - Tired.
[x]Zeus - Judas.

Have you ever...
[o]Noticed that the word ass. (above) was in alphabetic order?
Now that you mention it..

[x]Pondered why the word "fun" is in "funeral"?
Never.

[o]Stayed up all night trying to catch Santa?
No! *laughs* I thought he existed though. xD

[x]Expected to get coal in your stocking?
Stocking? Nope.

[o]Tried to get to the end of a rainbow to find the pot of gold?
Nope. Never believed it.

[x]Tried to out run a car with a tricycle?
Yes!

[o]Called the Operator and tried to carry on a conversation with them?
Nope.

[x]Prank called random people with your friends and had a contest to see who could carry on the longest conversation?
Nope.

[o]Yelled "I LIKE SEX" as loud as you could in a crowded place?
HAHAHHAHA! NO!

[x]Wanted to marry an animal or even hold a fake wedding for you and your pet?
My pet was given away.. D:

[o]Contemplated a cartoon character's sex life?
Lols! Yes!!!!

[x]Slept all day and all night?
Yup. Of course.

Name one thing...
[x]You want
Money. D:

[o]You want to get rid of
My stupid insomnia.

[x]You are saving up for
Everything.

[o]You lie about constantly
... I don't know..

[x]You will never have but still hope for anyways
Unlimited 1000 dollar notes. xD

[o]You would die for
The PEOPLE i love, must die for more then 10 people.

[x]That even your closest friends wouldn't know about you
Hmmmmmm.... If i say now, whats the point of keeping it a secret?

[o]That pisses you off the most
Many things. too lazy to list them out.

[x]That you hate about life
That some people are so stupid.

Do you...
[o]Like green eggs and ham?
Ham yes. What is green eggs?

[x]Crack your knuckles?
Yup. But hardly now.

[o]Know where the funky chicken went?
Funky chicken? who is that? D:

[x]Believe that whoever wrote this quz is insane?
Nope.

[o]Believe in a thing called love?
Kinda.

[x]Wish you were an Oscar Meyer Weenier?
Nope.

[o]Now have a craving for an Oscar Meyer Weenier?
Nope.

[x]Believe in Rock and Roll?
Nope. But I listen to some songs.

[o]Can music Save your mortal soul?
Depends on what type one listens too. xD

[x]Can you teach me how to dance, reeeeeal sllllooooow?
Nope. I have no patience when it comes to these things. xD

[o]Notice that the last three questions rhyme?
Noted.

[x]Recognize that those same three questions are in a well known song?
Nope. Never heard of it.

[o]See dead people?
Yup.

[x]Know what movie the last question is from?(now this is too easy...its such a cliche!)
Nope..?

[o]Want me to stop asking random stupid questions?
Not really, but you are making me sleepy, so carry on.

7.Ten sections to fill.
►
* section 1 - about mee... *

Known as: Amanda.
Lives in: Singapore.
Birthday: 13th December
School: CHIJ, Toa Payoh.
Religion: None.
Shoe size: Eerrrr.. dunno..
Hair color: Black, with brown at some patches.
Eye color: Dark brown.
Style: what?

* section 2 - have you ever... *

Cheated on someone?:
Yes! xD online games!

Been Cheated on?:
Yeah. D:

Fallen off the bed?:
Nope, never. I think..

Broken someone's heart?:
Cyber world many times! xD Real life.. D: once?

Had your heart broken?:
Many times! xD

Had a dream come true?:
Nope.

Done something you regret?:
Many things!

Cheated on a test?:
Yes yes.

* section 3 - currently *

Wearing? : Blue house shirt, and also fbt shorts.
Listening to?: my sister's snoring.
Located?: In my room!
Chatting with?: You?
Watching?: Me typing all these?
Should REALLY be doing?: Packing up my room.


* section 4 - do you... *

Brush your teeth?: OF COURSE LARHS!
Have any piercings?: 4.
Drive?: Nope. Underage.
Drink?: Yup! Wine, champagne, vodka!
Smoke?: Nope. I hate smokers.
Got a cell?: Yupp!

* section 5 - the last person you... *

Hugged?: Tiatus! xD
Kissed?: My grandfather on his cheek!
IMed?: Lols, none.
Talked on the phone: er.. can't remember.
Yelled at?:Nat, for kissing the glass door. ==

* section 6 - personal *

What do you want to be when you grow up?
A photographer. Or maybe a psychiatrist's. Or a lawyer.

What has been the best day of your life?
Don't know...

What comes first in your life?
God, family, friends.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?
Nope.

What are you most scared of?
Short heights, creepy crawlies, ones i love dying. D:

What do you usually think about before you go to bed?
I daydream! xD so i think of manyyyyy things.

Did you lose someone you really loved?
Yeah, my aunt, uncle, my rabbit. D:

How many times have you fallen in love?
MANY!! xD counting people related to me.

Love your family?
Yupp!

Love your friends?
OF COURSE! :D

Are you a virgin?
OF COURSE!!!

* section 7 - favorite *

Movie: (toomany!D:)
Song: (toomany)
Band: (toomany)
Store: Kinokuniya.
Relative: A lot?
Sport: RIDING BICYLCE!! :D
Ice Cream Flavor: Hazelnut, nutella, vanilla!
Fruit: MANGO! :D
Candy: candy!
Day of the Week: Wednesday.
Time: breaking dawn and twilight!
Color: Brown!!!
Name for a Girl: Amanda laura!
Name for a Boy: Jeremy?

* section 8 - do you *

Like to give hugs?:
Yupp, even though i don seem the touchy touchy type of person! xD

Like to give kisses?:
Nope.

Like to walk in the rain?:
Yeah! it is cooling!!! :D

Prefer black or blue pens?:
Black pens.

Like to travel?:
YEAH! i love areoplanes!!! xD

Have a goldfish?:
neverrrr.

Ever have the falling dream?:
Many times! and sometimes, I FLYY!! xD

Have stuffed animals?:
Yes! plenty!

* section 9 - what do you think about... *

Abortion: Murder!!!
Suicide: Fool.
Smoking: Stupid.
Eating disorders: See a doctor?
Summer: Summer!!! go to the beach!!! PLAYYYYY!!! xD
Tattoos: Those scary looking looking types... dragons... D:
Piercings: Only on the EARS!

* section 10 - this or that *

Pierced nose or tongue?: None.
Single or taken?: Single
MTV or BET?: MTV!
7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: Errr. Neither.
Sugar or salt?: Sugar
Silver or gold?: Silver.
Chocolate or flowers?: Chocolate.
Color or Black-and-white photos?: Colour photos.
M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms.
Stay up late or sleep in?: Stay up late.
Hot or cold?: Cold.
Mustard or ketchup?: Mustard!
Spring or Fall?: Both? xD
Happy or sad?: Happy.
Wonder or amazement?: Wonder.
Mexican or Italian: Italian!~
Candy or Soda?: Candy!
Pepsi or Coke?: Neither. They are both very gasy.

8.X the things that are correct!
►
X=yes
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar.
( ) smoked a joint
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(x) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your myspace friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from the internet
( ) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/SCHOOL
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
( ) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country world
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( ) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) made prank phone calls when you were younger
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed PENIS in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have/had a little black dress.
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
( ) worn the opposite sex's clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
( ) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
(x) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
( ) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned someone
( ) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name?
( ) slept naked
( ) French braided someone's hair?
( ) grown a beard
( ) belong to the KKK
( ) slept with your bf / gf
( ) slept with someone u werent going out with
( ) went skinny dipping
( ) died


9.Seven things to fill again.
►
~Currents~

[Current Clothes]
Tee Shirt, FBT Shorts.

[Current Mood]
Tired.

[Current Music]
Nothing.

[Current Taste]
Water.

[Current Make-up]
None.

[Current Hair]
Half pony tail and side parting fringe being clipped.

[Current Annoyance]
35%

[Current Smell]
Don't know.?

[Current Desktop Picture]
Fye?

[Current Favorite Group]
None.

[Current Worry]
Many things...

~Last Person~

[You touched]
My older sister.

[You talked to]
Older sister.

[You hugged]
Tiatus .

[You instant messaged]
Marianne.

[You yelled at]
Natalie.

[You kissed]
Grandmother.

~Have You Ever~

[pictured your crush naked?]
eeeewwww. No!

[actually seen your crush naked]
Refer to above question.

[been in love]
yes.

[cried when someone died]
Yes.

[lied]
Yes. D:

~With the Opposite Sex~

[what do you notice first?]
The hair, the looks, then height.

[last person you slow danced with]
Mom.

[worst question to ask]
I don't know.

[turn ons]
.......

~Who~

[makes you laugh the most?]
People i know.

[makes you smile]
People i know.

[gives you a funny feeling when u see them]
I don't know.

[who do you have a crush on?]
No one.

[has a crush on you?]
None.

[is the easiest to talk to]
Hmmmm. God! xD

~Do You Ever~

[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]
Nope.

[save aol/aim conversations]
Nope.

[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]
Yes.

[cried because of someone saying something to you]
Yes.

~Have You Ever~

[fallen for your best friend]
Nope.

[been rejected]
yes

[rejected someone]
yes

[been used]
Yes.

[been cheated on]
Yes.

[done something you regret]
Yes.

~Number Of~

[times I have had my heart broken?]
Hmm. I don't know. D:

[hearts I have broken?]
Hmm. I don't know..

[close friends?]
6.

[cd's that I own?]
Erm.. i don't know the title. D: forgot.

[scars on my body?]
uncountable? i have plenty. xD

[things in my past that I regret?]
Countless times.

10.Bold what is true!
►
I've never been drunk
I've never smoked pot
I've never kissed a member of the opposite sex
I've never kissed a member of the same sex
I've never crashed a friend's car
I've never been to Japan
I've never been to Europe
I've never ridden in a taxi
I've never been in love
I've never been dumped
I've never shoplifted
I've never been in a fight
I've never had a threesome
I've never snuck out of my house
I've never pissed on myself
I've never been arrested
I've never made out with a stranger
I've never been on a blind date
I've never lied to a friend
I've never had a crush on a teacher
I've never skipped school
I've never thrown up in public
I've never purposely set a part of myself on fire
I've never eaten sushi
I've never been happy with myself
I've never met a movie star
I've never cheated in any test/exams
I've never confessed my feelings to anyone before
I've never run away from home
I've never been on a stage


D:
i will stop here.. i feel dizzy. my eyes hurts.. xD
and sleepy. *yawns.*
nights people...

p.s
memes lullaby you to sleep if it is too long.. x.x

{ 12:01 AM }

Saturday, November 8, 2008.

I didn't get any sleep last night. D:

well, i did..
but only 2 and a half hours.

i slept at about 12.30?
then kept waking about late 2.

woke up at around that timing, by a screaming noise.
which turned out to be my sister's breathing,
it was like screaming in my ear, though we were not sleeping in the same bed.
it was frightening..

went back to sleep, woke up again halfway,
heard the clock went
tick tock tick tock,
very loudly, then went back to sleep, and woke up again, then went back to sleep again.


and then somehow, i was FULLY AWAKE at 3.23.

laze around in the bed, suddenly felt the urge to study..
then, got up, switched on the light, took out twilight and started reading at 3.33am.
i read the book more then 10 times?
so just read the whole thing again.

listened to music.. read the book..
and somehow, for every song, flashback comes.
so like the book, everything went
flip flip flip.

at each page, at some words, memories come back too,
so same thing, it went
flip flip flip.

then had some memories of last year, the morning before EOY.
things happened, that was the first time i talked in a language i did not know.
so the same thing, everything went
flip flip flip.

the night, well morning, was not that long..
only when 4 coming to 5 took kinda long.

i could not sleep, my eyes was stinging from reading too long.
my body feels heavy, and my mind is still kinda exhausted.
i pray that i do not collasped from exhaustion.

mom left for the airport to bangkok, to pray to the four face buddha, and it is his/her birthday.
so said our goodbyes.

waited till the room turned really blue, breaking dawn.
and tried to sleep, but failed.
went back to my room, my own bed, tried to fall asleep but failed.
so now, here i am, exhausted but fully awake typing away.
D:

grandma and mom says it is due to the tea i drank.
i don't know, but will wait till i can sleep.
or when the tea effect wears off.
for now.. will roam bout the internet.

oh, and i finished reading twilight! :D
again.
lols.
oh, and night time ain't that bad after all.

hearing all the cars, people starting their engines, closing their doors, the engine running, people walking.. etc etc.. xD
ah wells~

p.s
one sheep, two sheeps, three sheeps, four sheeps, five sheeps, six sheeps, seven sheeps, eight sheeps, nine sheeps, ten sheeps.
and on it goes.

{ 6:45 AM }

Friday, November 7, 2008.

who says skinny people can't eat?

hahah, but wait.
let me rant about yesterday! xD

happy birthday marianne!
it was f-u-n, till you spoil it. D:
but anyways, the panda was cute right? xDD

so moving on~

and, who says skinny people can't eat?
yesterday, i had a verrryyyy full lunch, omu rice and er.. 1/5 of the cheesecake.
i don like cheesecake anymore..
and i still have to finish one BIG one that is in my fridge. D:

oh, today, nothing much.
woke up late, as per usual.
anddddd.
have early lunch, pepper lunch! xD

got kinda sick of eating it..
cause of the omu rice yesterday. D:
but still ate anyways.

then.. did not eat till...
9 close to 10?
before that, went to nat's orientation! xD

instead of listening the heads talking, went down to play basketball with a netball! xD
with dad and sis. (:
oh, and i really hate the lower sec. ==
whats so bad of being sucky in basketball?
that was my first time,
and whats so bad with playing with your dad?
screw you!

but it was fun! xD
he kept complaining sis and i have slow reflexes. D:
lols,
then after that.. went to see how nat was doing.
not bad!!
the classroom, is so spacious, but so HOT.
and and and, the table's and chairs are so cute!! xD

plus, on the way to the hall, there will be perfects leading the way.
cept that they just stood there and tried to smile. xD
there were some girls that said
"good evening."
so jie and i was like
"good evening to you too!"

and i kept laughing for some reason,
they look REALLY FUNNY standing there!
i laughed like crazy, when a girl said this.
"good evening MA'AM"
HAHAHAHAHA!
when she said that, i just stared at her, and started laughing at mad.
till i was crying.
hahahah!

oh oh oh. then.
we went to visit yeye! xD
oh gosh, it was fun la.
made him smile and made A LOT OF NOISE.
oh, then he started to write.
then, dad miss took a chinese word for
"save me."
my heart ache like anything.
but it was not that la, it was another word which we could not figured out.

so we all were like, trying to figure out what he is trying to say,
and so hungry till sis and i got gastric pain,
and that i got so pissed.
(donotpissmeoffwheniamhungry!)

then left, went to the.... bedok?
to eat roti john! :D
i was so hungry total i ate,

one full roti john, which had 10 pieces,
two small plates of mee gorang,
half of cheese prata,
10 satay sticks of chicken, 1 satay stick of mutton. (don really like mutton. D:)
and 1/3 plate of cheese fries,
one full cup of teh-ta-rea,
1/5 cup of bandong,

and yeah. thats it! xD
i was happy. (:
and yeah, i eat A LOT.

hahahha, and now.
my tummy is filled to the brim, kinda a unsettling feeling.
i am now drinking green tea!
from japan! xD

ahma 'stole' from the hotel. xD
i feel much better. yupp. ^^
okok nights people, will not sleep yet.
my insomnia is so bad, i will tend to sleep at around 12 to 1. D:
so no point wasting my time on the bed,
and might as well use com. xD

so yupp!
ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS PEOPLE.
AND PLEASE PLEASE, CHECK THE AIESEC GLOBAL VILLAGE!
plus!
i wanna GO WILD WILD WET! xDD

p.s
a nice hot cuppa tea!

{ 11:32 PM }

Saturday, November 1, 2008.

I deleted the earlier post, it is too long, and it would seem meaningless to post it up.

to put it into a summary,

we humans, are extremely stupid and stubborn.
even we watch it millions of times be it on television or on the internet, we will always, no matter what, no matter how.
we would always cling miserably onto that little tiny spark of hope.

for those who does not even give a flying fuck, should really learn how to even be human.
if not, do not even bother to know anything about emotions or love.
either ways, we will do whatever it takes to get to our goal.

to see the person we love, laying on the bed, tubes inserted everywhere, having to depend on machine's to breathe, instead of breathing through nose or mouth, we had to cut a hole at his throat so that he could breathe.

sigh, anyways.
i don't really know in what kind of condition my grandfather is,
but all i know is that, he knows.
and so i will not interfere, he will know what to do.

so yupp. (:
and people, once again, has been complaining that my posts are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
long.
D: sorry, but i can't help it.
i am a very naggy person and like to rant a lot.

anyways, just pray. (:
that i will not do anything stupid.
and people, you should really start researching on the AIESEC global village.

~^^ god bless.

(funny, awkward. whatever, ignore it.)

p.s
a kiss for you that is sorrowful,
a goodbye for you that is loved.

{ 9:17 PM }