Wednesday, December 31, 2008.

Oh dear god, I am so damn bored. ==

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*cries.*

I can't believe I just typed all that.

*cries*

I AM SO BOREDDDD!
and it is bloody new year's eve!
and time is going so sloooowwwww.
and i am done using my computer!

I WANNA GO OUT!
I WANNA GO OUT!
I WANNA GO OUT!

I W A N N A G O O U T ! ! !

*curses*

bloody shit.
all i did today was wake up, use com, then went to have pepper lunch, then came back use com, fell asleep, use com, dinner, then use com till now.

DAMN ITTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA GO OUT!
I WANNA GO EAST COAST!

BUT MY MOTTHHHHHEEEERRRRRR GAVE ME THAT LOOK!
THAT LOOK THAT I HATE!
ROLLED HER EYES AND SAID,
'what for? waste time.'

WHAT FOR?
WHAT FOR?!?!?
WASTE TIME?
WASTE TIME?!?!

ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cries*

p.s
happy new year people.

{ 8:38 PM }

Tuesday, December 30, 2008.

oooh, I am so in love now. xD

and yeah, did my IC in the morning.
woke up sooo early.
then mom followed me, did this did that.

then she dropped me off at novena. :D
sat at the medical centre after wondering around the entire square 2, to read my book.
sat there, read my book for an hour.
a funny lady came, she asked for time, then commented on me which made me laugh. xD

then met marianne up, watch IP MAN!!!!! xDD
yeah! hahahah, it is still nice. pity she don like this type of shows. D:
my family enjoys watching such shows.
and oh!
the main character! IS 44 YEARS OLD!

cool right?
he don look that age!!! xD
and i like him. xD my new hero? lols. *shrugs*

anyways, went to mac's, marianne said bout the immortality fries. xD
freaked me out, but still ate it anyways. xD
then she invaded my house.
and my younger sister told me where tsuki was. ==

they two make such good friends,
she, nat, got a little out of hand. throwing a tantrum by kicking the door.
anyways, used com.
la di da.

hahaha, oh, thanks marianne! xD
the website for twilight was funny! and the person who wrote was good too. xD

oh, and sorry, for er... letting all your persuasion going down to waste.
reason why I didn't wanna go, cause you rock my boat a little.
but it is still going in that direction, I am just scared (yeah, I am a coward. afraid to be swayed.) that you will throw me off my boat.
which you intent to. xD

but no worries, I will not avoid you like the plague when you bring hiroki out. :D
I will gladly become his er... photographer? amateur one though. xD
but thanks? :D

and yeah, I wanna go heeren tml. sadly.
but tml I am gonna go AMK HUB AGAIN, to eat pepper lunch which I used to be so fond of, and now just by the look of it I feel sick.
ugh, but I already feel sick, I am tasting bile in my mouth.

ready to hurl anytime!

hahaha, yeah, cross my fingers and hope that I am lucky.
by dragging my sister to heron. need to buy the other disc. :D

hahaha, new year is coming.
I wanna go see the pretty fireworks.
cross my fingers again and hope mom and dad bring us there!

lets all enjoy the pretty fireworks ok?

and angela, I am truly sorry bout your uncle.
my er... deepest sympathies and sorries.
D:
yeah.. sigh.

bummer eh? It sucks right? It sucks like shit right?
makes you so damn angry and frustrated you feel like.... destroying things?
anyways, sorry.
and cheer up.
at least we all know, he will be in heaven happy and watching all over you and your family, relatives.

bummer eh? It sucks right? It sucks like shit right?
makes you so damn angry and frustrated you feel like.... destroying things?
anyways, sorry.
and cheer up.
at least we all know, he will be in heaven happy and watching all over you and your family, relatives.

(the little long message, just read your blog.)

angela dear, I know it is painful.
But god has plans, what he is doing is good, but yet to us it is rather unfair.
cause you feel that you felt like you still have lots of things to say, and
that you did not spend enough time with him.
you still wish to do many things, like go out, have a meals with them, food they love to eat.
let them spoil you rotten or buy you things.

it is hard, extremely hard, to lose a beloved one.
but one may feel happy and relief cause they will no longer suffer.
and they finally return to god's side, and god's home.
a wonderful place where they need not suffer, a wonderful place where joy and laughter never fails to be echo or fill the entire area.
and the best thing of all is that, they will be watching over you and your family and relatives.

sometimes one may feel guilt, and will be unable to let go.
and it gets so painful, the pain is unbearable.
you can't breathe, you can't eat, you can't do anything.
you lose all motivation to do anything at all, but one may not want to burden their family or friends, they put a mask.
the mask that hides everything underneath, which is bad bad.
really bad for your health.

anyways, it is hard.
but bear in mind.

he is never coming back.
he is never coming back to hug you or kiss you.
he is never coming back to talk to you.
he is never coming back to celebrate your birthday or any event with you.
he is never coming back to laugh at your jokes.
he is never ever ever coming back.

it is tough, this is reality.
reality is harsh, but true.

you will wish time to be turned back,
you will wish he never die,
and you will wish he never ever had any cancer or what not.

crying will not bring anybody back,
crying will not do any good,
crying will not change anything. at all.

and bout your other relatives, we may not have any solutions to cure an incurable disease or cancer.
but all we could do, as mere humans, is pray and believe in god.
but then again, god may take them away peacefully to cease their endless pain and suffering.
it maybe sudden, it maybe expected, it maybe what you did not expect at all.

either ways, all we can do is pray and spend more time with them.
but at the same time, do not lose faith and believe in god.
continue believing in him, no matter what he does.

and yes, I did think of wanting to replace myself for their suffering.
but think about your family, bout your friends around you.
they will want to take your place too. it is a vicious cycle.

god may rob you of everything, but he will return them to you.
in a happier and better manner.
he will return you your loves ones, that are healthy, always smiling, and will forever be by your side.

it is like a story, with lots of drastic and tragic things happening in life.
but it may end with a happy ending.

god bless you and your family and your relatives.
and your uncle who is on his journey to god.

(few things on fear, phrases, quoted from authors, unknown people and writers.)

You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind.

Where fear is, happiness is not.

Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness.
and yeah, thats all.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

The first and great commandment is: Don't let them scare you.

It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.

Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.

Fear defeats more people than any other one thing in the world.

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

I feel that the most important requirement in success is learning to overcome failure. You must learn to tolerate it, but never accept it.

bye for now.

p.s
amen.

{ 11:02 PM }

Monday, December 29, 2008.

I am bored.

and I wanna watch IP Man again.
someone, oh someone, oh anybody. who is willing to watch with me?
thursday i cannot go out.
and wednesday everybody is all oh so busy with the new year.

school is starting already, and I am already dreading it but still happy,
I have a lot of resolutions.

but being the lazy me, I am not gonna say anything but this.

'I pray that I do not lose sight of my path, goal, ambition, and thinking.'

the end~

p.s
harharhar, new year, and school starts.

{ 9:30 PM }

hellooooo computer! xD

it has been awhile since i really touched the com. D:
christmas was fun~
it was alright. :D

still got some presents, got a funny looking earring from my aunt, and i still wear it.
hahahah, dinner at my godparents house was fun!
played rummy club all the way till dinner, slept a little.
dinner was good. yummm, hand-made hamburgers. xD

malaysia trip was fun too, but tiring actually.
i had very little sleep.
played mah-jong to 1 plus am, was so tired that i was so stoned. xD
was so disappointed with my dad cause he said he would buy food, but came back empty handed.
everybody was waiting for him to come back, cause we were all hungry.
even my younger sister, who nagged to sleep. xD

oh, no more eye candy for me till i go to malaysia. D:
plus, no more mah jong with my expert ma ma. D:
and school is reopening in three days.

lets go out!
i wanna watch IP man!
and we need to discuss bout the global village!
and i need to do my art. D: damn.

sigh, lets go out, and go broke.

p.s
i am sleepyyyyy. D:

{ 12:39 PM }

Tuesday, December 23, 2008.

I AM DYING!!!! (no kidding)

BWUAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAH.

read this people.

What are the signs and symptoms of leukaemia?

The following are symptoms that are common in people with leukaemia, you may only have a few of these symptoms and some may be more obvious than others:

• Unnatural pale complexion. -HAHAHAHAH! NO WAY MAN! I am always dark! xD -
  
• Pain in the joints or bones. -knees!!-
  
• Bruising and bleeding, especially from the nose and gums. -bruise at spine, bleeding nose.-
  
• Fever, chills and other flu like symptoms. -flu~-
• Night sweats. -huh?-
  
• Weakness and fatigue. -yupp, nearly fainted today.-
  
• Breathlessness. -*nods-
  
• Enlarged lymph glands. -what?-
  
• Repeat infections e.g. sore throats. -nope-
  
• Weight loss. -yeah..-
  
• Enlarged liver, and spleen, which may cause abdominal discomfort -no..-
  
• Loss of appetite. -yes, really lost everything! D:-
  

Generally, people with leukaemia become weak and tired and appear pale. This is usually because they are anaemic due to a deficiency of red blood cells. Some people will have no symptoms and the disease is picked up during a routine blood test. These symptoms are also common to other illnesses, however, if you have any of these symptoms you should consult your doctor for advice.

so yeah!

and it grew bigger! and darker! and it went several inches up!!!! D:

I am DYING....



p.s
i am joking, went to see a doctor. xD
nothing much.
p.p.s
but bout the spine thing it is true. xD scary thing~
bwuahahhahahah! ~^^

{ 2:39 PM }

Sunday, December 21, 2008.

two posts in a day, right.

just felt like ranting bout how i nearly broke my leg.
for some odd reason.

my foot nearly went to an angle of 270 degrees. D:
it only went 180 and bit above. D:
hahahaha. yeah. thats it.

note to self.
-school is starting 11 days, less then two weeks.
-start doing on your art.
-stop using the computer.
-start learning your maths, poa and physics. well, everything.
-prepare for school.

p.s
headache headache headache....

{ 10:37 PM }

I planned to rant about my Malaysia trip.

but I have completely no mood.

instead, i would just like to say, the irony of life is frustrating.
if a person named irony, i would slowly kill the person.

and Marianne, i cannot go for TDA, sorry.
ask Angeline or Francine, perhaps they could go.
though i doubt you would be surprised that i am not going.
right? (:

i will be going to Malaysia again, for the last time.
and will be coming back on Monday.

have fun looking at expensive dolls, and expensive doll clothes.
have fun spoiling your kid.
have fun at TDA.

things i am glad bout,
-my room is clean and packed,
-I found my art exam paper,
-I decided on one thing, and will not be swayed and do not want too,
-I bought presents for friends and broke the rules,

and last but not least,
to Cantonese people out there, happy chinese christmas.
today is a big day for you and i.
lets enjoy ourselves and party.

one more thing that i wish for,
i hope i get drink alcohol today, i wanna escape from reality for awhile.

p.s
happy merry christmas people.

{ 3:40 PM }

Thursday, December 18, 2008.

yesterday was fun!!!!

even though i had to wake up at 7am. ==

anyways! after tuition, i went to the washroom.
so as i was leaving, i saw a VERY FAMILIAR LOOKING GIRL standing outside.
and this was what happened.

me-woah, woah woah. angeline?!
angeline- stick?!?!?!

yeah. kinda like that. xD
we were both so shock!
i didn't know she tuition-ed there!!!
hhahahahahah!!!!!

then went to chinatown, lalalalala, then went home.
slept.. was so tired.
then went to paris ris, for the lady thingy.

ooooh, the snakes were sooo pretty....
they were a sight indeed. *nods*
hahaha, yeah, ohohoh.
the girl i talked too, was ADORABLE!!!!
she is so cute!!!!!!! xDD

and yeah~

_______________________________________________

WALL OF TEXT, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

the global village thingy.

hmm, i dunno if this may help but hope it does.

we have to make our stall look OUTSTANDING and BIG and er... NOTICEABLE right?
to attract people to our stall?
i don't think this may help, but it is er.. for decorations?

er.. i don have photoshop to like explain what i am trying to say, so it will tough.
but try to understand. sorry. D:

since most of us are in arts we could draw things you know.
cartoons!
i can't find the cartoons on the internet.. D:
but it appeared on tv before, you know the national defense day?
they had those competitions?
yeah, those cute little people that says singapore is very multi rational?
malay, indian, chinese and english?

yeah yeah, if you get my idea, those kind.
then we could ask those people from Canada for pictures on how Canada streets looks like.
then we could draw them in cartoon.

the part where we hang the flag, we could put those cartoon on it!
er...
you know, instead of hanging the flag like... on the stall the top part.
can we hang it OVER the stall?
you know, kinda like, the flag is standing on the stall?

*flag*
*stall*
*ground*

yeaahhh... ==
arghhhhh.
erm. yeah.

and to make it look outstanding, can we paint the.. er.. the... wall thingy?
it will be cloth right?
we can paint the flag, the town, the people. it will be tough, but this is an idea.

and for the food stalls, we could like, hang fake food around, and make hang all seasons?
you know, autumn, winter, summer and spring?
we could decorate the entire, one of the stall, with seasons, food, flowers, painting, cartoon people.

we have two food stalls,
we could hang fake food on the top, and on the table will be food for people to eat..
then er... hmmm. thats it? D:

for the others stall, we could decorate it with everything!
well, by everything, we could draw the cartoons on it, since the flag will be there.
draw cartoons, things that are often seen in canada.
like er.. starbucks, mc, kfc etc etc..

for the laptop site we could decorate it with the seasons?
and draw the little people, playing at the beach, snow, er.. yeah.

the scandal table!
pictures of famous actors and actresses scandals!
big bold words!!!!! xD
i suppose everybody will know what to do with this stall. xD

and and, we could like, make little stand, that gives directions leading to our stall!
like those in the video!
those eye-catching stands that leads people to our stall, Canada!!!!

for the others table, we could fill the entire table with things kids play.
er...
with unique things like dolls, voodoo, something that is not anything you see everyday?
kinda like promoting the country?
interesting facts, the scenery? clothings? sports? events held every year?

oooh, like the rest suggested, we could play card games!
board games! funny looking games?
and those people can maybe also learn how to do the dance?

anyways, whats is the dance exactly?

GAHHH, we need a meeting!
A MEETING!
A GOOD DAMN MEETING!!!

DD: my brain is not functioning well lately!
all i think is cosine and sin rules!
IT IS ALL MATHS!

anyways!
can we all meet up?
CAN WE?

SCHOOL IS OPENING IN TWO WEEKS!!!
TWO WEEKS!
THIS PROJECT MUST BE DONE IN A MONTH!
A MONTH!

CAN WE HOLD A MEETING? PLEASE?

oh, and i will be out of town, and will be coming back on sunday.
tml i am going to malaysia, and coming back on sunday.
so yeahh...
sorry...

but erm. can we meet online tonight?
can we?
to talk bout this. i sent sms to everybody already. so yeah.
and please, reply.

oh, and sorry marianne, my phone is always on silent, and i hardly check it.. D:
sorry for the late smses.

p.s
canada canada~

{ 1:45 PM }

Tuesday, December 16, 2008.

I LOVE YOU CHAMPION!!!!!

you respond to my love very happily, excitedly, and very very VERYY strongly...



















even though you are a dog.














hahahahah!
i bet you guys were thinking something bad at first right?!
then you saw the word DOG and thought something even worse then the first right?!
tsk tsk tsk, what do you think you lot are thinking.
i am soooo disappointed in you. D:
hahahaahahha!!!!!! xD

the reason i am SO HAPPY it cause, i walked champion! xD
HA!
i bet your face went 'diao....' RIGHT?!?!?!

yeah! no big deal, but it was fun! xD
seeing all the people's reaction.
hahahahha!
they were hilarious!

i want to thank them for making my day!

anyways, i was sooo tired from this morning and tuition, was exhausted then came back and saw a very very familiar dog.
hahah, when i went closer, he jumped on me! xD
no, i did not fall.
then i asked the maid, i walked him before, if i could walk him.
and she said yes! xD

so run run run run!
hahahah, it was fun.
running never felt better. xD
oh, then we were walking to the playground, there were three boys looking on the floor and playing something which turned out to be chinese checkers!

so as we got closer, one of the boys saw the dog, and still on the floor, he went like this.
'woah! WOAH WOAH WOAH WOAH!!!!!"
and he backed away frantically.
he was so cute! xD
and we all laughed at him and i ran off. xD

oooh, the kids at the playground was cute.
they were like,
' the dog is coming! the dog is coming!'
then playing pretend, i said to them,
'yeahhhh, the dog is coming to catch you all!'
which they screamed at me and scattered around. xD

ran up and down the house, children clinging onto me, running away from me and champion.
hahahaha, it was so cute.
oh, three boys, their friends, asked me in CHINESE, what breed and name is he.
so i said,
"champion! and no, i dunno the breed, he is not my dog!' xD
which they went ooohhhhhhh at. xD

oh oh!
then one of the boy said to champion,
' come here champion! you dog champion!'
hahhha, it was so cute.
they all laughed when they found out his name though. xD

so went back home, ran to my sis, and told her.
me- 'jie! i saw champion downstairs!'
sis- ' huh?'
me- i saw CHAMPION DOWNSTAIRS!
sis- *mute the com* HUH, miss champion?!?!?

then in my mind, i imagined myself WALKING MISS CHAMPION.
boy, that was scary.
hahahaha.
anyways yeah!

i hope i see him tomorrow! xD
and tuition was fun, to keep myself awake, i kept asking her about religion! xD

yeahhh, and i got to wake up at SEVEN AM tml. D:
my tuition starts at 9AM!!!!!
lols.

cya!~

p.s
pardon the reaction thingy. xD though it is fun.

{ 5:43 PM }

Saturday, December 13, 2008.

TO MY STUPID OLDER SISTER!



I hate you!!!
you made me cry. D:
anyways, thanks a lot love! xD
love you lots too, and er.. i don have much patience, so you will hear a lot of words coming from me. :)

yeye will be happy, he should be happy.
if not, i will go there and kick the people's butt if they are making him upset. D:

hahaha. kidding, i will only do that when i die. :D

hahhaha, i am TOUCHED, by what you said, and the best thing of all is that you had to mention yeye and the funeral. D:
arghhhh, you should know that when we all talk about him we tend to cry right? D:
I BET YOU CRIED!

hahaha!
anyways, i am waiting for my present! xD
lets have a fun time tonight yeah?
let me take lots of pictures of you and nat! and don say cause i am the birthday girl, i should be in the pictures. *rolls eyes*

anyways, ice cream!~
man, yeye should be here, i feel like kicking his butt for not coming on my birthday.
RAWRRRRR.
in fact, i feel like kicking his butt for dying.
DOUBLE RAWRRRR!
hahahha.

anyhow, let us enjoy the rest of our lives yeah? :)

oh, bout yeye thing i was just joking..



well, i am half serious too.


p.s
love you sis. :D

{ 9:00 PM }

I had a very good day today!!!

is what i liked to say, but i didn't exactly had a good day.

ooh, but the movie was awesome! xD

last night, we, me jie mom and dad, went to watch THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL!
it lasted till 1am, it was a nice show, a good show to start the day. :D
mom wished me happy birthday and a kiss on the cheek half way the show.

it was AWESOME!
and i still think the human race should die, since we are killing the earth.
i got all hyped up after the movie, and kept dancing around. xD
everybody was tired and yawning, and i was the only idiot that talked non stop. xD
though, on my way to the movie, i nagged to my family how disgusting and awful TWILIGHT THE MOVIE is. though the book is great. :)

oh, then woke up, nat kept kissing me and screaming at me.
then mom called, prepare, had lunch at amk hub.
then went to bugis, lazed around and went for tuition.
there was a girl in class, so i waited outside with my book. :D
oh oh, then it was 2.14 i realized my other classmate have yet to come.

guess what?
I HAD NO TUITION TODAY. DD:
i waited for HALF AN HOUR to find out i had no tuition. D:
the stupidity of me is infinite . xD
anyways, was shocked but then went off.
to ORCHARD. xD

went to kino, looked around..
oh, JOEYYY, Nosatsu junkie 6 came out, but it is sold out. D:
so in the end did not buy anything.
lazed around some more, and went off.
there were so many people!
from different countries! all dressed up like there is gonna be some BIG SPORTS EVENT.
it was weird.

plus, at kino, at the comic section, there were veryyy little people, maybe cause their all at EOY. xD

downstairs my house, saw mom and nat going to pick mama up from the factory, so tagged along.
mama called me dumb and laughed at me when i told her there was no tuition. D:
lols.

then came home, used com, slept for 15 minutes, ate dinner. BAK GU TEH!!! xDD
lols..
then, washed the dishes and mom and mama left to watch the concert with mom at EXPO!!!
i wanna go there! D:

and so here am i typing away, seems like a pretty ordinary day right?
'cept that it is the day i got a hundred from my two grandma's.
hmm, later we are gonna go to changi airport and eat swensens ice cream!
cause it will be free. xD

we always go there.
and i LOVE airports! because it is so huge and pretty!
plus, i have two sisters who are so photographic and they are willing to pose, sometimes, for me to take pictures! xD
i love my sisters. xD

anyways, thats bout it. :)
oooh, and i have made up my mind!
next thurs i am gonna ride my bike for the ENTIRE DAY! xD
alone of course. (:
then the next day i will be going to malaysiaaaaa!!!!
for bout 5 days? xD

i am looking forward to next week. :)

anyhow, marianne and joey!
how was EOY?!?!?!

p.s
ugh. i sound fake. D:

{ 6:49 PM }

Friday, December 12, 2008.

I AM BACKK!!!!

i said i would be posting up pictures right? xD
and i am back refreshed and good!
i cried all my temper out. :D so i am goodddd!!!!

though once again, if you didn't see i am SORRY that i threw my temper on you.

anyways!
JUST ONE MORE UPDATE!

ok, so i woke up, feeling moody but good.
went to mom's room and watched the last 5 mins of the channel 8 show.
ooh, then the little girl came along, jumping happily on the bed and telling me,
'er jie er jie! nah, happy birthday!' then she ran off.
went to ahma's room, then mom came along, and i told her i dreamt bout yeye last night.
she then said, ' well, your birthday is tml.'
which then made me tear and cry cause i remember he hugged me so tight more the five times.

then i tried not to cry, so changed topic.
so i shook the little box wrapped up nicely with cute wrapping paper.
me-'cup?'
ahma-'no, it is something you like.'
me- *lits up* -those ball thingy!!!!' :DD

and i tried not to tear the wrapping paper, and my sister was bouncing up and down, my grandma and mom was smiling at me.
i was shocked ok!
my YOUNGER SISTER giving me a birthday present!
for a first time! (i think.)
i was so happy, plus, it was something that i have always loved from young.

a crystal ball!
with santa and a snow ball man! and surrounding it was christmas trees!
it was beautiful, i was stunned for words, just like when i opened marianne and joey's present.
anyways.
enough bout me ranting. :D

here are the pictures i mentioned.


princesses more like it! xD


pretty white horse!


cow horse! xD


going down from the muddy squishy area. *squish squish*


something dropped?


moving on..~


joey and angela- treasure hunting!!!
marianne and debra- what are they doing?


okie~ done! lets continue!


hahahahah!


joey- *stones~*
angela- ooh, sand on my ankle. *swipe swipe.*


cheese! :D ooh, i got a hairline in between my forehead. :D


reflection!!!!


'stop taking pictures ehhh!'


*cries* 'LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE!!!!'


marianne- trains here, lets get moving.
joey- oh, ok. *takes stuff*


the sky sea sand view!!!!!


pretty tree, nice nice nice. if only someone was standing underneath there. D:


melted coke in a coke bottle. ewww.


group picture!


MAD JAC!!!! i drew the heart! xD if only celine was here. D:


p.s
the end!

p.p.s
my crystal ball! xD



p.p.p.s
now, finally.
THE END!!!!!

{ 8:14 PM }

THANK YOUUUU!!!!

anyways, thank you angela, debra, marianne and joey!

though you guys gave yourself away pretty easily. xD
it was fun.

thank you thank you. :D

though i have to say quite a number of sorries that will not cover or get back anything.

sorry angela and debra for making you guys late.
sorry joey and marianne for pushing the blame on you two when we could not find the bicycle kiosk and ended up walking too far up.
sorry angela, debra, marianne and joey for being a stupid idiot and deleting the processing video which i thought was a picture.

i am really really sorry.

but thank you for the jacket. :)
it is cute, i thought it was a bag at first. D: it is cutee.
and thank you debra for giving me such a cute card. and don worry bout it. time heals wound.
and thank you angela for once again baking such good er... coco cornflakes?
though i did not get to see what was in the big box.
and thanks hiroki.

overall, sorry for making you all lose something that will never be able to retrieve back.
really sorry.
and thank you, i had a lot of fun today. :)
will post the pictures up.

good luck marianne and joey for EOY tml, don laugh too much or too obvious and enjoy yourselves.

thanks and really sorry.

-edited-
another thing. sorry for throwing my temper at you like a small and immature kid.

p.s
a memorable day.

{ 5:38 PM }

Thursday, December 11, 2008.

This is so damn stupid.

but before i rant, i shall say bout my day today. (:

last night, well, early early this morning i could not sleep.
for various reasons.

anyways, finally slept and woke up at 7.50 am to find marianne's message saying this.

'Eh you guys wanna meet later? cause i don't think there's much to discuss about actually. :\ like maybe 11pm?' (dude! 11 PM.) -1.14am-

then i went to see the other message.

'Amanda i've looked through the papers and realize that there's nothing much to discuss about for tomorrow. It will be quite a waste of time. So can we hold a conference abt it since its not much and alot of people can't make it. Tmr's off and there will be conference to discuss about it. Yea thats is all.' -1.37am-

(Questions later.)

so i went back to sleep. then i woke up to feel the sun heat on my face and i perspiring like anything. but i was so exhausted. sis kept screaming at me, so woke up, bathe and used the com.
then left for tuition.

D: i had to run after the bus.
well, reached there way too early, so had lunch at PASTAMANIA!!!!
hell, it was horrid. D:

i ate alone, it was fine, then when my creamy chicken pasta came.
i ate happily and thankfully.
but, after 10 spoons, i felt sick.
then, i forced myself to eat, so badly i nearly threw up.

and that was very very ODD.
cause, i would normally be able to finish it and want for more.
it was so bad, i glared at the pasta for 5 minutes and gave up. D:
i felt so bad, it was so wasteful.

bought a drink, red tea, and drank to cool my tummy down cause i still felt like puking.
and thank god it did.
though i nearly puked while walking up the stairs. D:

tuition was f-u-n! xD

oh, i drank my tea during class so naturally nature called.
but the toilet was being cleaned. D:
and it was bloody hell raining. DD:
so i had to run in the heavy rain, and shook like an earthquake all the way to the mrt cause it was so damn cold, and the aircon made me shake even harder.

people kept staring cause i was shaking, and my teeth were chattering.
arghhh.
then took the train to raffles, changed to marina bay, went around hunting for toilets.
to find that it is not sheltered and it was raining like cats and dogs too.
went back to raffles and finally cooled down.

then went home. (:

ok.

anyways, questions marianne.

-whats papers were you reading? i thought it was newspapers and then i thought,
' why the hell is she reading newspapers at 1 in the morning for canada?'
enlighten me please.

oh. and i have made one choice i know some of you will tsk tsk and scold me and roll your eyes at me.
but i will not say it now.
cause i have yet to do it.

well, just one thing.
do not, i warn you, do not give you those words, look, or tone.
it is disgusting.

every time, trust me, EVERYTIME.
i feel like punching your damn face. you stupid selfish brat.
i honestly doubt i can take it anymore.
but heck, i don wanna cause a fight or a scene or anything.
though i think that happening is a very high possibility.

you are just counting the days till i lay my virgin punch on you. (:

to another dear friend of mine, i think you may know who i am talking about. :D

anyways, just a reminder, do not wish me happy birthday or give me prank calls. :)

enjoy yourselves at EOY people, for i will not be attending. :)

oh, and family if you are reading this, fret not loves, it is not you. :)

~ciao~

p.s
an offer you can't refuse.

{ 5:42 PM }

Tuesday, December 9, 2008.

oooh i have been called a slut, by nobody else, my mom. :D

it just happened 4 minutes ago.
and this was how it went.

mom- "hey, (to my sister) my friend works in pasta mania. you wanna work there?"
me- *hyped up.* i want!
mom- *glares,* you work so hard only for money, but cannot do a thing without the pay.
you really are a slut you know.
me- ...... hmmm...
mom- says some more but forgot.
me- hmm, interesting choice of words.
mom- you only have one grandmother, (correction mom, i have TWO.) and your grandfather just DIED and you want to kill this one? what have you done? lalalala.
me- nothing.
mom- who do you think you are?
me- nothing.

ah wells. i am not looking for
'awwww amanda. poor thing..' ( i will kick your butt. >D )

== don be dumb, i just found it very interesting.
well what to do.

parents means the best for you, so you just got to take everything i guess.
*shrugs.*

well, i looked up the dictionary on the word slut, cause i thought slut means those ladies that sleep with men for money.
but it turns out i was wrong.

slut
- a sexually immoral woman.
- an untidy lazy woman.

immoral
- not good or right ; not following accepted moral principles : using other people for one's own profit is immoral.
- going against accepted standards of sexual behaviour. : a pimp lives off the immoral earning of a prostitude. an immoral book that some people called obscene.

well, i am a slut alright.
but, not the first one though. D: i do not do that.
yeah, i am an UNTIDY LAZY WOMAN.
and i am not gonna defend myself cause it is the fact, but i do pack everything up every month.
well, most of the months i do.

but nowadays hardly.

oh, and you lot wanna know why i wanna work?
i wanna keep all the money in my bank, and give some to my parents cause they are in need of cash.
and because i don wanna laze around at home, and use the bloody com all day and do nothing.
and not letting my grandmother inch closer to her grave by screaming at me for being a useless sister who can't even do any bloody housework or teach my beloved younger sister who has no parents or sister love, chinese, and that i always hit her and scold her for screaming in my damn ear saying i am stupid and she don wanna be my sister.

and cause, i don wanna celebrate anything, not even my fucking birthday.
i just wanna go to fucking east coast and ride my bicycle i have never touch for more than a year already till the days reach twilight and dies off to midnight and begins all over again.

hell, i don even wanna celebrate christmas.
but!
christmas is the day jesus born, so of course i will wish him happy birthday.
i don wanna taint his birthday along with me being a slut.
or some bitch that works for money.

sigh. i feel good. (:
ranting every damn thing out, which somehow is damning me and everybody around me to hell because i am being such a bitch that is also a slut, just by my very existence.

i wanna start doing my art, i wanna start learning the bloody poa which i suck at.
i wanna improve my maths, i wanna hit 70 for sciences and i wanna fucking excel in my maths, english and humance.

arghhhhh, this is pissing me off.
my room is in a fucking mess, and i have tuition, and i don have the time to pack my entire room and start doing everything on my list.

bitch
- a female dog
- derog a woman esp when unkind or bad tempered.
- to complain continually
- to make nasty or hurtful remarks about other people.

sigh..

p.s
great, now i am officially a bitch and a slut.
damn, i don like this one bit.

{ 10:04 PM }

Friday, December 5, 2008.

yesterday was fun. (:

well, the haunted house when i became overly dramatic and joey crying and angela soothing her.
and everything other thing. it was fun.

the viking ship was AWESOME.
and i was the only idiot who was raising up her hand and not screaming.
==
it was so trilling and fun, i don understand how one cannot see in that. D:
sigh, well, we are all different.

oh.

and FINALLY.
i sat the gold cart!

and yes joey, that guy is a JERK. D:
but what to do~

anyways, today went to bowling with my family. (:
it was fun. :D

and and.
I BOUGHT FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES!

plus, i cannot make it for tomorrow's meeting. D:
sorry, i am going to malaysia, sudden trip.
i just found out last night before going to sleep. ==

anyways, yeah.
the thing i sent to you three, debra who is in somewhere being a kind soul she is, joey and marianne.
i hope it helps.
it is better then nothing. (:

and if i have time after typing this, i may help research to add on to the list.
DO NOT FORGET TO PRINT AND BRING IT TOMORROW.

and yeah that's about it.
sorry i cannot make it, truly sorry. but do update me, i will call you lot. D:

and also,
i warn you all.

I. DO. NOT. WANT. ANYTHING. BAD. TO. HAPPEN. IN. MY. ABSENCE.

^^ if i have, i will drag you by your neck and kill you all. ^^

If you want me to swear, I will.
and, being the 'peacemaker' i will not allow this to happen when i am not in town.

so try me, i will not go back on my words.

-edited-

p.s
aish, i hate this part of myself to the entire core. ==
p.p.s
well, fuck it.

(anything, give me a ring-a-ling!)

{ 6:36 PM }