Tuesday, December 30, 2008.

oooh, I am so in love now. xD

and yeah, did my IC in the morning.
woke up sooo early.
then mom followed me, did this did that.

then she dropped me off at novena. :D
sat at the medical centre after wondering around the entire square 2, to read my book.
sat there, read my book for an hour.
a funny lady came, she asked for time, then commented on me which made me laugh. xD

then met marianne up, watch IP MAN!!!!! xDD
yeah! hahahah, it is still nice. pity she don like this type of shows. D:
my family enjoys watching such shows.
and oh!
the main character! IS 44 YEARS OLD!

cool right?
he don look that age!!! xD
and i like him. xD my new hero? lols. *shrugs*

anyways, went to mac's, marianne said bout the immortality fries. xD
freaked me out, but still ate it anyways. xD
then she invaded my house.
and my younger sister told me where tsuki was. ==

they two make such good friends,
she, nat, got a little out of hand. throwing a tantrum by kicking the door.
anyways, used com.
la di da.

hahaha, oh, thanks marianne! xD
the website for twilight was funny! and the person who wrote was good too. xD

oh, and sorry, for er... letting all your persuasion going down to waste.
reason why I didn't wanna go, cause you rock my boat a little.
but it is still going in that direction, I am just scared (yeah, I am a coward. afraid to be swayed.) that you will throw me off my boat.
which you intent to. xD

but no worries, I will not avoid you like the plague when you bring hiroki out. :D
I will gladly become his er... photographer? amateur one though. xD
but thanks? :D

and yeah, I wanna go heeren tml. sadly.
but tml I am gonna go AMK HUB AGAIN, to eat pepper lunch which I used to be so fond of, and now just by the look of it I feel sick.
ugh, but I already feel sick, I am tasting bile in my mouth.

ready to hurl anytime!

hahaha, yeah, cross my fingers and hope that I am lucky.
by dragging my sister to heron. need to buy the other disc. :D

hahaha, new year is coming.
I wanna go see the pretty fireworks.
cross my fingers again and hope mom and dad bring us there!

lets all enjoy the pretty fireworks ok?

and angela, I am truly sorry bout your uncle.
my er... deepest sympathies and sorries.
D:
yeah.. sigh.

bummer eh? It sucks right? It sucks like shit right?
makes you so damn angry and frustrated you feel like.... destroying things?
anyways, sorry.
and cheer up.
at least we all know, he will be in heaven happy and watching all over you and your family, relatives.

bummer eh? It sucks right? It sucks like shit right?
makes you so damn angry and frustrated you feel like.... destroying things?
anyways, sorry.
and cheer up.
at least we all know, he will be in heaven happy and watching all over you and your family, relatives.

(the little long message, just read your blog.)

angela dear, I know it is painful.
But god has plans, what he is doing is good, but yet to us it is rather unfair.
cause you feel that you felt like you still have lots of things to say, and
that you did not spend enough time with him.
you still wish to do many things, like go out, have a meals with them, food they love to eat.
let them spoil you rotten or buy you things.

it is hard, extremely hard, to lose a beloved one.
but one may feel happy and relief cause they will no longer suffer.
and they finally return to god's side, and god's home.
a wonderful place where they need not suffer, a wonderful place where joy and laughter never fails to be echo or fill the entire area.
and the best thing of all is that, they will be watching over you and your family and relatives.

sometimes one may feel guilt, and will be unable to let go.
and it gets so painful, the pain is unbearable.
you can't breathe, you can't eat, you can't do anything.
you lose all motivation to do anything at all, but one may not want to burden their family or friends, they put a mask.
the mask that hides everything underneath, which is bad bad.
really bad for your health.

anyways, it is hard.
but bear in mind.

he is never coming back.
he is never coming back to hug you or kiss you.
he is never coming back to talk to you.
he is never coming back to celebrate your birthday or any event with you.
he is never coming back to laugh at your jokes.
he is never ever ever coming back.

it is tough, this is reality.
reality is harsh, but true.

you will wish time to be turned back,
you will wish he never die,
and you will wish he never ever had any cancer or what not.

crying will not bring anybody back,
crying will not do any good,
crying will not change anything. at all.

and bout your other relatives, we may not have any solutions to cure an incurable disease or cancer.
but all we could do, as mere humans, is pray and believe in god.
but then again, god may take them away peacefully to cease their endless pain and suffering.
it maybe sudden, it maybe expected, it maybe what you did not expect at all.

either ways, all we can do is pray and spend more time with them.
but at the same time, do not lose faith and believe in god.
continue believing in him, no matter what he does.

and yes, I did think of wanting to replace myself for their suffering.
but think about your family, bout your friends around you.
they will want to take your place too. it is a vicious cycle.

god may rob you of everything, but he will return them to you.
in a happier and better manner.
he will return you your loves ones, that are healthy, always smiling, and will forever be by your side.

it is like a story, with lots of drastic and tragic things happening in life.
but it may end with a happy ending.

god bless you and your family and your relatives.
and your uncle who is on his journey to god.

(few things on fear, phrases, quoted from authors, unknown people and writers.)

You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind.

Where fear is, happiness is not.

 Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness.
and yeah, thats all.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

 The first and great commandment is: Don't let them scare you.

It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.

 Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.

 Fear defeats more people than any other one thing in the world.

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

I feel that the most important requirement in success is learning to overcome failure. You must learn to tolerate it, but never accept it.

bye for now.

p.s
amen.

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