Saturday, March 28, 2009.
Today was the most horrible day i had, so far in this year.and more will come knocking on my door asap.
i woke up with people screaming at me, on the phone and in my face.
i am going to sleep with people who screamed at me in my face.
and sides,
i have to comment on something.
it has been a really long time since i tasted salty water, first hand, down my cheek.
duh. it is so obvious as to where this salty water came from.
i was peeing and crying.
LOLS.
weird i know. shut up.
anyhow,
two phrases or more like sentences stuck in my head.
one,
'you are getting more closer to satan. shall i put a bible on your forehead?'
no mom, its okay.
putting a bible in my head will not make me anymore holy-er.
nor going to church will make me so.
it is just my way of thinking.
two, (i said this to my sis.)
'i figured you will say this to me,
'oh you bitch you got me into your ass again.'
and her reply was,
'well, i would have said that in the past, but now i would say this.
if such stuff does help you in certain ways, than i guess its okay.
you just tend to give in to temptations a lot, which it is what humans do.'
trust me, i was shocked to the tips of my toes.
and what a sweet sister i have, god bless her soul, and good to hear that she has changed for the better. (maybe)
and yes, i give in to temptations like a hundred thousand times.
and trust me, i always end up regretting it.
but sides, what can i do?
ah wells, for now, all i can say is this.
yun lu, i will be imposing on you as much as i can.
as long as i am free, and you are free.
i will be going to your house almost everyday just to study.
my sincere apologizes.
it will at least help me to be able to run away from my biggest temptation at home.
which in other words, i will not be coming home till quite late.
but oh no, i will have dinner back home, just late.
come home, bath, eat dinner, sleep.
sounds good to me, i will not really use the computer much.
and oh yeah, i have to hand wash all my clothes from now on.
and mom, with all due respect, if you do ever read this, i would like to tell you this.
i don mind washing them, but let me remind you.
the water bill will be high, and that is cause ahma, me and jie will be washing our clothes in different timing and so forth.
and don forget sis and i have school and training.
ahma will use washing machine,
sis and i will hand wash and than use the washing machine to spin dry.
which also means, in other words,
both your electricity and water bills will definitely increase, and we are not say very stable with our financial.
and yeah, i hope you will do some thinking about this.
and that's it people!
that concludes my horrendous day and my moodiness.
and i hope i can use the computer tomorrow.
i need to get the pictures from shooting to my thumb-drive and print some of them out downstairs.
ah wells.
and oh, one more comment.
the earth hour was rather disappointing. i still could see and everything.
but at that time i was in the hospital with my family so i cannot really say about it.
but from my view during that one hour, it was bright and lively.
and yeah.
nights and sweet dreams to all who read this at night.
good morning and good day to all who read this in the morning and afternoon.
god bless everybody's soul out there.
and those who hates me and those who think i hates them.
p.s
stars...? how random.
p.p.s
and thanks to my sister who kindly lent me her laptop.
{ 11:24 PM }
I bathed in 5 minutes and 18 seconds.
and this is my third time typing all these out, cause my com went nuts. --
anyhow, i am too lazy to type the whole same thing out.
just basically, i just wanna say.
i don care.
and yup. (:
nice short simple. (:
hahahahaha.
okay bye people. (:
p.s
to hell with this.
{ 1:06 PM }
Thursday, March 26, 2009.
OMG. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. O-M-G-!!!!!people. the pictures are horribleeeee.
you can see the before and after when the person MOVES.
AND.
EVERYBODY IS MOVING EVERY SECOND.
SO YOU CAN SEE NOTHING BUT BLURRED SHAPES AND BLAH BLAH.
OMG OMG OMG.
FAIL.
FAILLLLL.
I FAILLLLLLLLLL.
WTFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT DA FUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK?!!?!?!?!?
I FEEL LIKEE CRYING FOR THOSE BADLY TAKEN SHOOTS!!!
THAT COULD HAVE BEEN SO DAMN NICE!
MARIANNE! WHEN YOU HAD THE BRAIDS!
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO KEEP MOVING!!!
WAHHHHH!!!!
I DON EVEN HAVE A PROPER, GOOD, NOT MOVING, NO BLUR THING WITH YOU IN BRAIDS!!!!!!!
OMGGGGG.
OMG OMG OMG.
AND I HAVE SO MUCH MORE PHOTOS TO GO.
I JUST KEEP DELETING AND DELETING!
AND ROTATING AND ROTATING!
BUT DELETING?!?!
NOOO!!! I DON WANT THAT!!!
WHYYYYY!!!!
WHAT MODE WAS IT IN WHEN I WAS TAKING?!?!?!
WAS IT P???!!!!
WAS IT MICRO??!!!
WAS IT RUNNING??!!!
WHATTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!
I AM NOT EVEN NEAR THE PART WHERE FRANCINE HAD TO GO FOR HER DETAIL!!!
I AM ONLY AT THE PART WHERE EVERYBODY WAS PLAYING WITH YOU HAIRRRR!!!!
WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*freaking out like crazy.*
now i am calm.
and oh my shit,
the pictures are so f-ing bad.
and my mom is so pissed at me cause i had not been studying and talking very rudely.
and that i brought my camera out without her consent....
shoots.
i am far worse than dead.
i am gonna be chopped up, cremated, gased, burn, and nailed.
arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
will not be able to post up the photos anytime soon.
this might be the last time for me to use the com for this week.
so i warn you all. do not keep your hopes up.
and apologizes.
p.s
*cries and wallow in self pity for being a useless and super amateur photographer.*
p.p.s
it is gonna take me years to edit. i highly doubt those blurred pictures can be edited..
p.p.p.s
*cries even harder.*
{ 8:23 PM }
I TOOK 1,508 SHOTS TODAY!!!
hahahha. and yeah.
today was the national pistol competition!!!
and it was fun!
somehow, and i dunno why, felt a bit weird at first. but woo. (:
love my camera. and all the people.
and i took so many shots, just tranferring out to this com, my grandma com.
is gonna take about an hour?
thats what it says. D:
hahahah, it was okay la.
didn't die of boredom. kept laughing like crazy majority of the times. and taking photos.
oh!
and i kept stalking yolanda and many other people!
hahahahahhha.
oohhhh.
i love the part where we went to the bridge and did jump shots. :DD
didn't want to be in the photo. but loved to take it.
it was sooooooo fun. :DD
and the pictures turn out really funny and awesome!!!!
and thanks to the glaring sorching sun.
i pespired like a mad woman. D:
now i am dying to bath.
but shall bath after posting this. :D
well over all it was fun.
but the sad thing was after everything. everybody seemed to have lose all their hyper-ness. D:
no more jump shots.
and they say i bimbo? cause i kept asking people to jump so i can take them. D:
but it is so nice!!!!!
ah wells.
i still have next thursday and friday. (:
shall take more pics, and must charge my other battery.
oh oh!
i got pics of MISS AU too!!!
she kept scolding me once though, for taking pictures of her unknowningly. :D
hahahahha.
the fun and the joy. (:
yeah, good thing i brought my cam!!!! :DD
bye peeps. shall bath, do everything.
than will post on facebook. anybody want the pictures, call me and go online on msn.
*thunder rumbles..*
ahhahahaha.
shall edit here and there too!!!!
anyhow yeah. (:
buuuaaaiiii.
p.s
aw come on, a jump shot for me? pretty pleaseeeeeee. :DD
{ 5:00 PM }
Tuesday, March 24, 2009.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.no, I am not crazy.
anyhow, today was alright~
training was okay. once again, slacked like crazy and took a lot of videos. (:
will post it up on facebook if i am bored.
came home, sat down had dinner, watched tv.
became pissed cause cannot even watch tv nor read newspaper.
only study.
than bathed, than mom was in the room.
she bought me new b** so i had to try.
than in the end, found out i had a huge lump on my right boobs.
and mom and grandma started to scare me with whatever they were saying.
and so, i am not going to school tomorrow cause we are all scared and paranoid and wanna be safe and all.
and i am so tired, so i have no idea what i am typing.
gonna sleep after posting this post.
i am not suppose to even use the com.
ugh..
bye peeps.
will update tomorrow.
and sorry to yun lu and miss au and orelia and jasmine and marianne and gang for not going to school tomorrow.
sorry yun lu and miss au, for not being able to accompany ya two to go transport the guns.
and ohhhhh, i pray, i only get tml's mc.
i die die don wanna miss thursday. D:
p.s
if i really have it.
you see me die of laughter and not from breast cancer.
p.p.s
all the over-reacting and doing my homework drained my energy...
{ 10:53 PM }
Sunday, March 22, 2009.
SATURDAYYYY!!!!it was fun. :D
met up with yun lu and sharon at the mrt in the MORNING.
oh.
wait pause, on the way, i took the bus 88 to tp.
the top bunk? was pitch black.
so i thought it was like, cannot go up or something.
so i sat on the first level, which was like, half empty.
then suddenly, one person came down!
and another!
and another!
so i went up, and saw people.
PEOPLE. SLEEPING.
so i sat down, and it was cozy. :D
dark, nice, listen to music.
and ended up falling asleep.
than the lights came back. D:
five stops before the last one. DD:
aiieeee.
oh, then met up with them, sat down and waited for yolanda outside the NTUC.
sharon said that we looked like as if we were beggars.
LOLS.
than went to school.
settle this settle that.
got on bus, and Singapore flyer, here we come!
should have brought my camera. D:
it was nice la, but can go there next time. (:
than walked with sharon, yun lu and yolanda.
held hands, walked to... i dunno where, than walked back.
hahah.
than one of yun lu friends asked, if sharon and i were her sisters.
and she was like,
yeah! i told you what.
lols.
than went to raffles, had lunch there.
it was horrible.
like horrid horrible.
bleh.
walked around, went to vivo.
the rest went to forever21, to find sharons bag.
and on the mrt to there, yun lu and i was saying that if the bag there also out of stock.
we would laugh our ass off and do a high five!
and guess what?
there was no more stock.
lols.
oh, while waiting, yun lu and i went to try something!
hahaha!
it was AWESOME!
set me on high. :)
oh oh oh, we went to the national thingy, and they had this little cube room showcase.
where a person will stand inside, and cold wind will blowwwww.
it was awesomeeeeee.
i went in first, i felt like a showcase though. D:
everybody was standing there and watching me.
than, the fan started.
it was awesomeeeee.
it was so colddddddd, i felt like as if i was in chinaaaaaa.
but sad, could not see my breath. D:
no puffs. D:
but it was awesome!
they had this body temperature check thingy?
and my temperature did not drop so quickly. and i was dancing around like a mad woman.
not to mention, the wind was so strong, my hair was flying like crazy.
hahahahah.
than yun lu went in.
she did not stand in the middle. D:
hahaha.
her body temperature dropped like anything.
than sharon went in.
when the wind started, she screamed so loudly we could hear her.
hahahaha.
than we kept posing and taking pictures inside.
sad thing is that yolanda, nat and sheryl did not go. D:
it was FUN.
like crazy fun!
and when you step out, after like 10 minutes, you will feel like as if ya burning.
cause of the different body temperature and the sudden change.
anyhow, i loved it!!!!
i wanna go it in again! :DD
hahahha. and yeah. (:
well, better do whatever homework i can today and all.
bye peeps.
school is starting tomorrow!
(sadness. D:)
p.s
i love myself too much to fall in love with a boy. (: lols!
{ 1:31 PM }
Friday, March 20, 2009.
I am so tired.so damn tired. I am going to fall asleep while using sis laptop soon.
anyhow, today was okay.
woke up super early, met with yun lu.
then went to the range.
everybody's expression when they saw me was hilarious.
even the coaches.
they said i looked better, more fresh?
funny thing was i was sleepy that timing.
hahaha.
though francine kept commenting that,
my hair was frizzy,
my bangs had so many holes,
my hair is not nice.
blah blah blah.
i find it funny though.
we were having a conversation and she can just say,
'oh my god, you bangs is horrid.'
hilarious no?
whatever, i am too tired.
than went to have late lunch with yun lu and sharon.
ate yoshi, bought things.
walked around woodlands.
than went home.
and yeah, thats bout it.
gonna turn in for the night now.
tomorrow i have an early day again, got CIP.
so tired...
not an ounce of energy left.
and yeah.
bye people.
my period is killing me, and i cannot eat my meji strawberry yogurt.
ugh.
p.s
nights and sweet dreams.....
{ 7:45 PM }
Thursday, March 19, 2009.
It is hot, my friend is here, and I am sweating like a PIG.arghhh. i hate that time of the month.
god knows what happened to me in the day,
i was feeling like i had a darn fever.
and my tummy hurt like shit.
oh, and none-the-less i felt like puking over and over.
despite me drinking hot water and forcing food down my throat.
nothing worked.
this is madness.
anyhow,
on sis birthday went to Singapore Botanic Gardens!
forgive my spelling mistakes, too lazy to correct.
anyhow,
IT WAS AWESOME.
hell, i was sweating like a PIG again.
ended up not going for tuition cause had to collect my passport.
and in the end, after waiting for an hour.
we forgot to bring my OLD passport.
dumb?
i know.
so went back home, took it, went back there and met up with sis.
then on the way to there, she did not know where we were going and she fell asleep.
we got lost, got stuck in some area for half an hour, cause no cars were moving.
then finally we reached. :D
it was heaven!
cept that i was wearing jeans, and that mom sis and nat did not wait for me, and just walked ahead, while i hurriedly took pictures and chased after them.
the food was good, though i thought the servings were small.
surprisingly, i was full. (:
the meat is awesomeeee.
then went to little india.
sis did her eyebrows.
was too chicken to try it out. looked too scary... and too painful.
(good thing i did not too, since my period was on the way, it would hurt a hell lot worse than normal.)
then went to the stall beside it and did Hanna?
mine is cool!
sis butterfly is too... elaborated?
mom's flower look so.. weird.
nat's flowers was cute. (:
oh, and the best part?
we went back home.
brushed everything out, and realized we got cheated.
it is so light.
mom's one, despite her being fair, there was no trace that she did Hanna.
mine is okay, blends in with my skin tone sadly. but yeah.
hahahaha.
i took a hell lot of pictures. and i am too darn lazy to put it up.
and i wanna bath, and i need to STUDY DESPERATELY.
and yeah. (:
oh,
one more thing.
i reallllyyyyyyy hate periods. ==
oh!
and i dreamt of yeye!!!
WOOOOOOOOO.
random, i know.
but it was nice. (:
oh. mom is home.
cya TML.
and people. snap out of it.
our one week of 'freedom' is going to end in approximately 76 hours and dunno how many minutes and seconds. :)
CYAAAAAAA.
p.s
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH. god bless you all!
{ 8:57 PM }
Sunday, March 15, 2009.
I only have 20 mins to usebefore it touches 2.
anyhow.
earlier on went for prata!!!!
it was good. :)
it came hot and hot.
hahahaha.
then oh, this morning.
i did something badddd.
i was sleeping, than dad came in, stood beside me.
and put his finger in my ear. (yuck, i know.)
then, some how.
when i turned, my right hand just....
flew?
when i turned, and it hit, no wait, smashed onto my dad's neck there.
collar-bone? chest?
don't know.
i didn't even know what i was doing, and later i realised that he did not even see my hand coming.
and when my palm, backwards, smashed onto his chest.
he took a step back, and grabbed his shirt.
seems like it was really hard, cause i could even feel the impact and the sound of like, as if bones hit against one another.
ahahhaha,
and even my sister winced and said ow.
he kept rubbing the area i hit for like. half an hour?
and she even commented that it was really loud.
hahahaha.
guess do not do anything funny when i am sleeping! xD
woot.
anyhow, better study now.
than can play my cameraaaaa. :DD
p.s
touch me when i am sleeping, and i will break your ribs with my powerful skinny bony hand!!!
BWUHAHAHAHAHA. xD
(joking~ i am not that violent to the extreme.)
{ 1:40 PM }
Saturday, March 14, 2009.
The pictures!! I took more, but too lazy. xD hahahah.
the plants are fake. :)
{ 2:47 PM }
WOOHOO.
hahaha, and fiona, one reason this blog is boring cause i hardly update anything that had been interesting.
too much la. xD
anyhow!
went to IT fair on the first day!
tuition was okay, i was so exhausted at one part i was semi-conscious.
so whatever she was saying, i was like, 'okay okay.' nod nod.
then when come to me explaining to her and doing the question.
i went like, 'huh? how to do?'
thank god she is so patient.
anyhow!
IT FAIIRRRRR. was so damn crowded.
there was like, so many people going through the same direction, and it was so hot.
thank god i changed to shirt, blouse will literally kill me of heat.
ack, better type fast.
mom is on me.
anyhow, went to IT fair.
pa bought pa long a acer laptop.
then when they went to play, went to teach her english using an acer desktop.
then then.
went to nikon.
saw the prices and both of us winced and walked away. D: sadly.
then saw sony cameras.
went there, started playing and everything while mom talked to the man, Keith.
then while playing, she was like.
"you better gimme all my A's."
WOO.
i got a camera!!! plus it is not bad. :D
i was so happy!
though the price pulled me down.
at least we got so many free gifts.
and of two, mom wanted to buy earlier. and in the end she did not.
good thing too, if not she would have wasted since it came as freebie along with the cam. :)
then went home.
blah blah.
yesterday told dad, he was so calm.
it was frightening.
truly frightening.
he was like, okay okay, but buy for what? blah blah.
total he said was like two sentences.
i thought he would hit me or something or kill me.
anyhow.
PLAYED WITH THE CAMERA TODAYYYYY.
it is awesome!
fondled around with the mode, lightning, focus and blah blah.
i truly love such cameras. :D
something i know that will not be short-lived.
and i am dying to go downstairs to take nature. :D
oh, and i cut my hair again.
not suprisingly. since whenever my hair is that long, cut!
and well, it is shorter than the earlier cut.
and instead of fringe, it is bangs.
anyhow. here are some pics round the house! :DD
sorry, the pictures are on the top. D:
something wrong la.... ==
my computer gone bonkers. now using my grandma's one.
oh, and it is SNOWING in korea!!!
minus degree!
cool eh? hahahaha.
p.s
I LOVE IT!
{ 2:28 PM }
Monday, March 9, 2009.
I love my grandmotherS!hahahha.
and I know, I should not be using the computer but needed to type this out. D:
you all should know bout north korea right?
anyhow, I was on the bus, dozing on and off. exhausted.
then somehow, I woke up wide awake and looked at the tv.
and it was showing the latest news bout north korea.
then came home,
my grandmotherS was watching show through the small dvd portable player.
I was so shocked to see mama home, so I stood there, mouth open shocked.
and she laughed at my expression.
gosh. she is so cute. xD
then about north korea, ahma still does not know whether she should tell her friends or not.
and I am unsure if mama knows such happenings.
and it is so frustrating.
as much as i would love to comment.
I shall shut my mouth up.
anyhow, I am super scared.
both my grandmothers are going to SOUTH KOREA next wednesday.
and what if something happens?
what if just nice, a spark is created?
they are like *ahem* and *ahem* (if you learn history you should know who I am talking about.)
they would use any excuse to create a war.
just one little spark that need not be visible, will be enough to start an explosion.
arghhh, this is so maddening.
anyhow, gtg now.
study study study.
good thing took a super short nap during the bus ride. (:
kk, bye people.
and happy sweet sixteen shanice. ((:
you are finally sixteen. can watch NC16 shows! xD hahahahha.
kk. bye bye.
p.s
god bless everybody's soul.
p.s
gonna keep track of the news like a stalker. gggrrrrrrrrrr.
{ 6:44 PM }
Sunday, March 8, 2009.
Annoyance.this is truly annoying.
i say i found the inspiration to study, but no matter how much i do.
i still can't get the drive nor mood.
this is frustrating as it comes.
and the worse thing is that is does not go.
arghhhh.
anybody in the study mood?
if do, tell me yeah?
I DESPERATELY need the mood.
like really bad.
we only have 120 days till the important exams!
in other words, we only have 4 months!
and that is not exactly a lot.
and my POA is like shit.
ughhhhh.
shall continue to do physics and bio now.
got to get super serious.
p.s
for the nikon camera!
{ 8:09 PM }
COMPUTERRRR!!!!!!
thank you god for sundays!!!
I CAN FINALLY USE MY COMPUTER PROPERLYYY!!!!
WOOOOTTTTT.
and enough of rejoicing.
this week was... blah blah blah.
anyhow!
JB was okay okay. :D
went there, went shopping!
GOT CUTE NEW SHIRTS!!!!!!!
hahahaha, and i was the one who spotted them!!!!
it is CUTE.
ultra cute!
but the sizes are too small for mom and jie.
hahahaha. lucky me!!!!
good thing i am skinny. xD
then had kfc for lunch.
it was yum! better than singapore. :D
hahahaha.
then went back home, dropped our stuff, watched tv till 5.
left for dinner.
and got lost for 2 1/2 hours.
yup, we went round in circles, literally, passing by the same area over and over.
and thinking we found the place called LEGEND we got lost further.
stupid old man, must die die eat at that area. ==
anyhow, some how we reached that area and found it.
then we waited for half an hour for our food to come.
i was so..... full?
i didn't eat much.
sides, none were to my liking 'cept for two to three dish?
the pudding was budget. too sweet.
the food was alright. just too salty.
the tea was good. cept that i had to keep walking cause they were to busy to help to re-fill and that they did not allow me to put the tea on the table.
annoying.
and i saw a jeans that i thought was nice, but mom and sis said it was not. guess i have bad fashion taste? D:
anyhow tried it on. but sadly. thanks to my BIG HIPS.
cannot. D:
ai ya ya.
anyhow, night came and gone.
and i kept tossing and turning.
i kept getting bitten.
i kept waking up.
i could not sleep.
then this morning, had the usual tim sum, at the usual area.
and people kept staring at us cause we kept talking and eating.
i ate a lot. xD
and when we left, the entire table turned around to stare at us go.
sis said maybe cause we talked in different languages.
chinese english and canto.
dunno~
then now. okok.
my computer is lagging.
and i have inspiration to do art and start getting serious for study.
and getting pissed cause shooting keeps interfering with my plans.
and people~
Moira ain't free tomorrow. she asked for Tuesday and i told her majority of us have cca.
so she will see how.
and yeah.
just note.
things to do by today.
-shooting form.
-ez link card.
-letter of apology.
-edward.
-study.
-revise.
-homework.
hmm. that should be bout it. :)
getting tired. D:
but better use the com while still can.
sorry for e long post.
and just a reminder, my blog will be dead from Monday to Saturday for sadly i am only allowed to use the computer on the last day of the week.
SADLY.
and if i get 5 A2s for 'N', mom will buy me a Nikon camera. :D
woooooooo.
so i am gonna study super hard to get that!
and save money so i can at least pay half of it. :DD
and yeah.
study study study.
bye peeps.
p.s
i am a sad case. haixs. D:
{ 1:57 PM }
narcissism.
her name is amanda laura age 15 going to 16, she is a tarot card reader , blessed with family and
materialist.
I want this
good results,
for my prayers to be heard
friends and family smiling happily forever :)
i've got this
family,
friends,
myself,
god. :P
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