Saturday, March 28, 2009.
Today was the most horrible day i had, so far in this year.and more will come knocking on my door asap.
i woke up with people screaming at me, on the phone and in my face.
i am going to sleep with people who screamed at me in my face.
and sides,
i have to comment on something.
it has been a really long time since i tasted salty water, first hand, down my cheek.
duh. it is so obvious as to where this salty water came from.
i was peeing and crying.
LOLS.
weird i know. shut up.
anyhow,
two phrases or more like sentences stuck in my head.
one,
'you are getting more closer to satan. shall i put a bible on your forehead?'
no mom, its okay.
putting a bible in my head will not make me anymore holy-er.
nor going to church will make me so.
it is just my way of thinking.
two, (i said this to my sis.)
'i figured you will say this to me,
'oh you bitch you got me into your ass again.'
and her reply was,
'well, i would have said that in the past, but now i would say this.
if such stuff does help you in certain ways, than i guess its okay.
you just tend to give in to temptations a lot, which it is what humans do.'
trust me, i was shocked to the tips of my toes.
and what a sweet sister i have, god bless her soul, and good to hear that she has changed for the better. (maybe)
and yes, i give in to temptations like a hundred thousand times.
and trust me, i always end up regretting it.
but sides, what can i do?
ah wells, for now, all i can say is this.
yun lu, i will be imposing on you as much as i can.
as long as i am free, and you are free.
i will be going to your house almost everyday just to study.
my sincere apologizes.
it will at least help me to be able to run away from my biggest temptation at home.
which in other words, i will not be coming home till quite late.
but oh no, i will have dinner back home, just late.
come home, bath, eat dinner, sleep.
sounds good to me, i will not really use the computer much.
and oh yeah, i have to hand wash all my clothes from now on.
and mom, with all due respect, if you do ever read this, i would like to tell you this.
i don mind washing them, but let me remind you.
the water bill will be high, and that is cause ahma, me and jie will be washing our clothes in different timing and so forth.
and don forget sis and i have school and training.
ahma will use washing machine,
sis and i will hand wash and than use the washing machine to spin dry.
which also means, in other words,
both your electricity and water bills will definitely increase, and we are not say very stable with our financial.
and yeah, i hope you will do some thinking about this.
and that's it people!
that concludes my horrendous day and my moodiness.
and i hope i can use the computer tomorrow.
i need to get the pictures from shooting to my thumb-drive and print some of them out downstairs.
ah wells.
and oh, one more comment.
the earth hour was rather disappointing. i still could see and everything.
but at that time i was in the hospital with my family so i cannot really say about it.
but from my view during that one hour, it was bright and lively.
and yeah.
nights and sweet dreams to all who read this at night.
good morning and good day to all who read this in the morning and afternoon.
god bless everybody's soul out there.
and those who hates me and those who think i hates them.
p.s
stars...? how random.
p.p.s
and thanks to my sister who kindly lent me her laptop.
{ 11:24 PM }
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