Thursday, April 30, 2009.

Yes, I am posting when I am not supposed to be.

but just to post about my... exams feelings. (:

and I have yet to eat my dinner and it is 9.46!!! OMGGG!!! (Just finished tuition!!!)

english- oh my f-ing shit. the bloody comprehension was so hard.
the questions were literally beating about the bush! I
was so pissed, I kept tsk-ing and sighing to myself during the exam.
and I was so sleepy. I was bloody half asleep, so it made everything worse. So napped for 15 minutes, woke up, stared at the paper and went.

SHIT.

I was shitting bricks and trying veryyy hard to focus very hard on the questions.

and the bloody summary was bloody stupid because majority of my bloody points was focusing on the bloody children and not the bloody adults. so I went
'oh my bloody shit.'

anyhow, SS!

it was horrendous.

for a 6 mark question, I wasted an entire piece of paper and a good 15 minutes. because it was the bloody first question. and I forgot that it was six marks, so there was no reason to write so much.

the rest, was all shit. I was writing shit. crap. poop. doodle. whatever that similar with shits.

hahahaha. But I wrote a lot so was kinda happy, but majority was shit. so I am screwed and already anxious to know my results.

anyhow, one of my classmate told me this.

'amanda! every time I look up, I see you writing a lot! I get so scared la! what you write ah?'

hahaha, she sits diagonally of me. so I said this.

'Yeah, I wrote a lot, but all of them were shit. so that don really counts. (: '

and she laughed. xD ahahhaha!!!

anyhow. my class had been saying, no more like chanting,

fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail

before the exam even started, and even if it ends. xD

lols. anyhow. all the best for maths bio physics chem chinese! (:

and pray that my letter gets approve that I DROP ART!!! xDD woohoo!!!!!

oh. my dad's reply to me dropping art was.

'oh good, very good, I don like or want you doing art also.' WOOHOOO!!!

my dad comment overruled everyone! xD peace to all! and pray for me that my mom will sign the letter!!! and approve of it! and omg. my cip form. o-m-f-s.

OMFS!!!!!!!

p.s
*sneeze* oh my goodness, the swine flu?!

{ 9:30 PM }

Tuesday, April 28, 2009.

I will not be posting for awhile.

must get deadly serious for exams.

anyhow, get to say something.

I have no more energy to run for that chance, path or what not.
so I decided to make my life easier, and also harder at the same time by cutting down my future chances.

In other words, I am running away from it.
I don't deny it. but that is the fact. and I am not gonna run away from that either.

so leave it.

but I will drop it no matter what.

and that is it people. (:

cya around, study hard and god bless to all.

p.s
I will drop art, no matter what.

{ 9:15 PM }

Sunday, April 26, 2009.

(:

er.. i dunno what they are. but it just came to me. hahahahahaha.
enjoy~ (:

________________________________________________________

In the passing time, my wish will come true, I will go and see you, so look into my eyes and overcome the tears of sadness and sorrow. Tomorrow never knows, but now, I don't have any hesitations like the wings that gets lost in the sunny sky. I found kindness on the hill of hope and the sun will shine for the both of us. I believe that my dreams will come true. Goodbye... Thank you... I will become myself, in the passing time. Here there everywhere, I feel your loving and longing presence lingering beside me. forever.

________________________________________________________

The stars, the moon, the sun, they would shine brightly in your eyes, even when they are closed. Call my name. I will receive all your sadness and happiness.
Give me your body, your heart, entrust your life in my hands. I will go protect your smile, that shines with so much warmth and love. So that you will continue smiling forever.

________________________________________________________

The sky today is still high and far away. I think of my small self under the big blue sky, but the stars, the dark, the wind and tomorrow are continuing onto you, helping me find you. That we will finally reunite once again, under the endless sky. For once upon a time, the sky was endlessly loved.

_________________________________________________________

For a long long time, I have been dreaming, my feelings would somehow reach you. Softly and slowly I closed my eyes. And thought of your smile, your touch as it slowly moves against my skin. My trembling heart searches for yours. More and more, I give up my dreams for you, and only for you. But as the night passes, I want to go and see you. If my wish was granted, would you smile at me?

For my love for you is unstoppable, so please, do not disappear.

____________________________________________________________________

and that's it!

and goodness no, I do not have a boyfriend, lover nor crush. (:

it just came onto me. hee.

hope ya like it!

DON STEAL IT!!! >:(

p.s

crap. the time!!!!

{ 8:40 PM }

HEYY!!!

thanks all who came to visit me and gave me presents. :)

thank you so much. and sorry that there was nothing much to do here. xD
other than to watch shows. lols.

but thank you. (:

oh, and i have to rush for my art.. D:
i am so f-ing dead.

omg omg omg.
i have to do, four more boards and the 50% of final work.
OMG.

and don forget mid-years.. ==
darn, why they give like that one.. sigh. anyhow.
i am gonna kill sleep for this. die die i want to finish. MUST FINISH.

so all! if you see me zombie-fied on wednesday. hahahahaha.
means i killed my sleep. xD

ah wells. but i don think i can kill sleep.. --
mom and ahma will kill me by the ear if i do such. D: anyhow.
i only have three days left.

so good luck to those who have yet to finish!!! woohoo!!!

p.s
i hate art. damn it. ==

{ 7:46 PM }

THATS IT!!!!

I AM GOING TO REBEL!!!!

FOR FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS FUCKING KILLING ME!

F-U-C-K-I-N-G !!!!

I SWEAR, WHOEVER WAVES A FOOD I AM NOT ALLOWED
TO EAT.
I WILL BLOODY SNAP AT YOU AND MAKE SURE YOU WILL
REGRET DOING THAT AND FOR LIVING.
I WILL HAUNT YOU LIKE A SPIRIT AND MAKE SURE YOU
CANNOT EAT ANYTHING, SO BADLY, TILL YOU JUST SKIN
AND BONES!

I WILL TORTURE YOU. SLOWLY..

ONE BY ONE...

p.s
FUCK IT ALL!!!!!!!!

{ 12:27 PM }

God will punish me for bully little kids. excluding my younger sister.

haixs. ah wells.
i am a sadistic person, i agree on that..
but last night. was truly entertaining. in a sadistic manner.
but also, rather saddening. in a normal manner.

but me shall not give a full review on that. (:

anyhow. i do want to say something.
but i am not allowed. sadly.

still. sorry fiona. D:
bout everything and all.
hope it will not affect your friendship. D:

oh, to all my friends, yes.
it is the usual prank. 'i am your boyfriend' kinda thing. (:

hahaha. okay okay.

shall not blab bout it. i feel guilty. D:

hmm.

oh i am so darn happy. i finally took off that big big pressure bandage!!!
WOOOO!
and i finally finally, could bath properly.

oh i feel so clean...

what i like best bout daily life?
baths. (:

i don understand how people can don bath in the morning. D:
and go stroll to school with your bed hair, and the sleepy smell. D:
so... yuck. D:

anyhow,
better do all my work! (:

looking forward to the food today.. NOT.

THIS SUCKS LA!!!

my mom just had to buy all the food i LOVE.
and now i cannot eat it.

i promise you, whoever wave a chicken, burger, beef, egg. or whatever i am not allowed to eat.
i will turn into a cannibal and eat you off, slowly...
one by one...

HAHAHHAHA.
i kid.

anyhow. buaii.

and once again, sorry fiona. D:
do update me on everything yeah?
love ya, thanks and sorry. D: (thanks for visiting me. not the 'entertainment'.)

god bless ya all!

p.s
karma, retribution, strike by lightning.

{ 11:20 AM }

Friday, April 24, 2009.

HEY ALL!

lols, i do not feel one bit sleepy or tired.
in fact, i feel normal cept my breast is like, numb and painful? lols.

anyhow, a FULL REVIEW on the op. (:

okay, so i went there, changed into two gowns.
the inside blue, with my back open, and the outside red, with the front open.
so it covers everything. (:

than went to sit on those little children seats!
they were so cute!!! xD
got mom to take pictures of me.
and guess what?

i was wearing pink and the seat was pink too! hahaha!
i looked so pink. xD

than kids came in and out. it was so cute la.
they were all running around butt-naked, cause the only had one gown, the blue one which exposes the back.

kids came out of the op, sat there and stone, sucking on their little lollipops.
oh oh, than i went to see the doctor, took my weight. I LOST!
and than put the cream on my hands, for the injection later on. it was to numb the thing.

so went back to the seats, sat there and watched cartoon.
than sis and dad came in while mom went of lunch. D:
made one friendship band which was really baddd.

than saw the doctor again, touched touched. oh, it was the doctor i seen the last time. (:
didn't know she was a surgeon. lols.
than went back.

there were two kids before me.
Jared and Debra. (:

Jared was so CUTE la! he was hungry, than the dad, who looked very much like Donnie yen.
let him suck on his finger, till he slept.
CUTE LA!!!

and he don like it when his dad sits down, must move around one. xD

debra, was CUTE.
in fact, debra look like debra..? debra lim. (:
hahahahaha.
walking around, with two gowns on her, playing with the kitchen set.
than when it was her turn to go in, she looked so scared when she said bye to her dad.
her mom followed her in. (:

than after debra, it was my turn!!!
ran to change.
than walked to the theatre. man, the nurses and doctors were all staring at me. D:

anyhow, went into the room, it was worse than i imagined.
it was so big, it looked bare. cept for the bed in the middle. with the light thingy hanging over it. and the operators and machines surrounding the bed. D:
i was alone, mom didn't want to follow. D:

than layed on the bed, the worse came. the needle thingy to make me sleep. D:
it sting a little, and i was shaking so badly. the doctor said cause it was cold. but i said it was fear.
than, i prayed to god.
than, the needle started to hurt even more, cause the straw went in.
and then doc started to have a conversation with me.

me- ow ow ow ow ow.
doc-hahaha. relax. it will be okay.
me- orh.
doc- so, monday you going back to school?
me- ah? no no. wednesday. (:
doc- o.o oh.. wednesday. *walks off.*
me-............

me- *sighs, use right hand to cover half of my face.* relax relax, stop shaking.
doc- *appears out of nowhere* why? what happen?
me- *shocked* oh, nothing. just that my legs are shaking.
doc- oh, ahhha. it is just cause it is cold.
me- no... i think i am scared.
doc- ohh.. hahha. *walks away.*

than she came back.

doc- so, wednesday you having school eh?
me- er. not really, i have exams.
doc- OO EXAMS?
me- yupp. english. (:
doc- oh.. i see.. *walks off.
me- ............

than she came back again.

doc- so, what do you plan to do over the weekends?
me- oh, art and poa!!! :DD
doc- oh.. hahaha. so you have everything planned out already eh?
me-yup.

than i thought of a phrase,

'God will be with me, for i am his sacrificial lamb.'

than everything went black.

cool eh?

than i got woken up by my mom, than i went back to sleep.
when i woke up, i was so weak.
i couldn't even talk, move my head, or my legs.
i had to strain myself to do it.

it was scary, my vision was so blur..
and i could hardly move my head around. my eyelids was so heavy.
than i saw a balloon, two flowers, and a small bear at my left hand there.
anyhow, this continued bout 10 minutes?
quite frightening.

than mom came in, everybody slowly came in. (my family only.)
than i told them it hurt, so i was given B something..
drank water, drank milo, and ate biscuit. (:

than rested for an hour, and came home. (:

and thats it all! sorry for the long and wordy post.
pictures are below. there is even one bout the thing that was in my breast!
hahahah. so not for the faint of heart. (:

will post them later. mom is sleeping and the pictures are with her. (:

oh, and if ya visit. do sms me yeah? if can, sunday is the best. (:
there is a whole lot of food. (:

kay. byeee.

p.s
hmm. what shall i do now..?

{ 5:37 PM }

{ 5:36 PM }

Good morning all!

today is the big day! my OP!

ahahahahha!!!!!

feelings? er... peaceful more like it. (:
my family is bustling around, younger sister eating her breakfast, older sister picking her clothes, mother walking around, grandma packing here and there, father praying and checking his weight. (:

lols.

sadness, i cannot eat anything, and yesterday i forgot to eat the DELICIOUS CURRY PUFF.
aw man, i am drooling.
anyhow, i will be posting much today. (:

thank you all who sent me well wishes and good luck.
hee. xD

i feel super hyper!!!!!

ahhaha.

and i thank you god, for helping me. (: do continue to help me.

everyone!
study hard and take care yeah?!
don fall sick all!!!!

forgive any typo errors, running out of time. and still need to comb my hair.
BYEEE. (TIME, 8.44am)

bye.

p.s
this is not the end, this is just the beginning. (:

{ 8:41 AM }

Thursday, April 23, 2009.

Few more hours to my OP!

and i am here, sipping my hot chocolate and typing away..

anyhow, sadly, no visiting or whatsoever.
feel free to visit on saturday and sunday. (:

and yeah.

i feel.... exhausted.
scared? no..

yes, bout the long sharp needle..
and the doctor that might be a male, and will have to touch .... me.
before op. for updates.

MALE.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
A MALE!

and i am female! FEMALE!
AND I AM GONNA LET AN UNKNOWN GUY TOUCH MY BREAST AND THAN CHOP IT UP AND EXTRACT WHATEVER IS INSIDE OF MY BREAST!

AND HE WILL BE TOUCHING!
MY BREAST! WHEN I AM AWAKE! BEFORE THE OP!

I AM SCARED FOR THIS!

i am a teenager! A TEENAGER.
not that i am trying to imply anything, but rather, to stress on my age.

wahhhh. I DON WANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i never had a boyfriend, kiss or blah blah.
and tml, i will be letting a MAN touch my breast.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s
male male male. groping and touching my breast. D:
oh dear god.

{ 11:27 PM }

Wednesday, April 22, 2009.

I am drained out.

literally, i feel so damn exhausted, my tummy is hurting. my legs feel numb. their falling asleep on me. i am having my period.

and next thing you know, my sister is sleeping on my bed when she has her own bed.

ughh.

though i would like to ask question.

what is happening around me?
is there like a party going on or something?
it is making me fever-ish. and exhaustedddd.

sigh.
there are kids, people walking around. going in and out.
just so because people ___'_ ___ them.
and i am the only one who can.
and i am so exhausted..

aw man.
awww man...

anyhow, tml not going school. need to rest for before the op.
but sad to say, i will have POA tuition at 11, which i say, i wake up at that timing.
haixs. x.x
nvm.

than do my art for the entire day..

oh, and sms people bout the timing and all.
plus, it is entirely up to ya all if ya wanna come visit.
for my grandma told me, they will let me rest for... 2hours?
before i leave after the op.

and yeah. (:
oh, and i pray i don leak. it will be my third day..
and third day there are cramps and heavy flow...

oh i pray!!!!!
IT WAS BE SUPER LIGHT! (fat chance though, it is heavy like crazy now.) -.-

sucks man, why never come earlier!?!?!??!
tsk. ==

how annoying.
anyhow. gonna ... drink hot chocolate and read bio, and brush my teeth, wake my stupid sister up to brush her teeth and to get back to her bed, change, and go to sleep. (:

ciao..~

p.s
hot chocolate... ughh. i feel so exhausted. wanna just collaspe on my com..
p.p.s
should i take panadol before i sleep? my head is pounding.. D:

{ 10:18 PM }

Tuesday, April 21, 2009.

OKAY. READ THIS CAREFULLYYYY!!!!!

i do not have breast cancer. i apologize for saying that. but take note, i did say somewhere around that part.

thats why i said it is somewhere along the lines, if left any longer it will be breast cancer.
and that i am close to getting cancer.
but the thing is now i don even know what on earth is happening.

my condition got worse, and now it got even WORSE.

if not it is first stage to breast cancer.
it is a cancerous growth?
first time they saw such a BIG lump.

so now, the current situation.

last week or few days ago, i found out that, my right breast which has the big lump, now have small lumps growing out of it, and gets bigger and bigger a day.

NOW.
my left breast NOW have a lump, which was small two days ago, but got bigger.

so NOW. i do not know what is happening with me.

I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

WHY CAN'T MY OP COME ASAP!

== it hurts la. wth.

WTHHHH!!!!!!!

and yeah. any questions, ask me.
MEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

aiyo, you all damn funny eh.
ask marianne. D:
don believe me ah?

tsk tsk. ==

anyhow, my op is this FRIDAY.
THIS FRIDAY!

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS. CAUSE THEY WILL CALL ME ON THURSDAY AND TELL ME WHAT TIME TO FAST AND WHAT TIME IS MY OP AND HOW LONG MY OP TAKES.

get it?

no, not caps abuse, but rather it is like to highlight the important things. (:

and yeah.

bye peeps.

p.s
ai yo, so many problems la. arghhhh.

{ 10:02 PM }

Monday, April 20, 2009.

I do not like this one bit.

oh no, i do not like it at all.

with all the money getting involve and everything, how can i be happy?
and we still have the last time hospital bills and everything.
and now mom is not going for a trip cause my op is this friday.

and she paid the ticket already.

so tell me all, how i can not feel guilty?

i dunno man.

but i am pissed. very pissed.

so yeah.

bye people. nights and sweet dreams.

lets all study hard!

p.s
where is my vitasoy?

{ 10:36 PM }

Sunday, April 19, 2009.

I am finally posting something.

was too darn lazy to post.

anyhow, to comment bout the week.
i will say it was fun, stupid, maddening and rather pissing off. (:


one of the many reasons is that someone stole my mechinal pencil.
and this is not the first time.
plus, this is not primary school anymore.
so i don how so to why should anyone be so stupid to go around and steal pencils.

and that stupid pencil cost me 2.70. ==
i bought it with my OWN MONEY.

slap your face back and forth whoever stole my pencil.

anyhow, i finally got inspiration for art!
and i am CHANGING EVERYTHING!

shit right?

decided to do something on religon. hahahaha. confusing shit though.
from shopping mall, that concerns with religon and my painting will not be anything like a shopping mall.
anyhow, thats the main idea right?

to do something completely different from the theme you picked.

well, at least there are some of the work that i have been doing up till now, will have some use.
though art is tml, i am so dead because i do not have enough drawings.

oh and, i am sick.
got a stupid cough.

OOH, poa tuition starts tml!
excited! ahahhaha!

oh and speaking of which.

debra, joey and to all my friends who knows bout my condition.
one word to y'all!!!

it got worse. :D

i dunno how bad bad, but all we (my family) knows it is worse. (:
there is more than a lump now.
from that big thing, things (?) are growing out of it?
and it gets bigger and bigger in a day... (not kidding!)

freaky yeah?

so lets just say from the big lump, small lumps (?) are growing out from it.
it is growing at a fast speed, and more are growing out?

my grandma says it is 'exploring' around. :D
lols.

no this is not a sick joke joey.

anyhow yeah. thats bout it. (:

oh oh, and one more thing.
bout the money and all. i already sorted everything out.
so yeah. (:

oh, since ya all don believe me and all.
i can let you count everything one by one.
i even did a piece of paper of everything! lols. (:
so yeah, will let ya all see it tml.

bye peeps.

nights and sweet dreams!

p.s
hmmm. art art art. no wait, must do my maths too. and my other weaker subjects.. like poa.. chinese... science. oh, must brush up on my humance.. maths.. english.. hmm... what else?
p.p.s
will someone please lock my computer?
it is really really distracting. D:
no wait, in fact. can someone study with me everyday till very late?

{ 8:56 PM }

Wednesday, April 15, 2009.

Today was tiring...

aw shucks man, i need to do so many pages of art. D:
sucks!

anyhow, today was pretty funny. xD
i went on an extreme high.
lols!

went shopping with the rest, run here run there cause we were running out of time.
lols! run!
and than i kept shouting at them to get whatever items and to get on it. xD

oh oh, i felt like a mother!
marianne and joey had to go to another area, so i just passed the money to them and walked off to get the other stuff. xD
hahahah!
funny sia!

than at her house. was omg.
i acted like a KID.

hahaha. yupp.

anyhow, it was awesome!

and yeah. bye peeps. shall... sleep soon?
exhausted. D:

p.s
hmmm. *count count* 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... uh-huh, uh-huh.
p.p.s
short post! don mind, too lazy. :D

{ 9:04 PM }

Tuesday, April 14, 2009.

I am pissed...?

at myself and at people...?

no no, not in my group of friends.
more like. some of the people from my class.

my mindset now on them are filthy disgusting creatures. (:

and yes. i do think, quite to the extent of horrible about people at times.

i am not pure at heart or what so ever.

and majority of the times, i tend to stick to it and be a hypocrite till something comes along.

but anyhow, lets change topic.

hmm. i am supposed to be revising my maths, and doing my art.
but i am too darn lazy.
even though exams are in two weeks.

Mr F, was funny today, he kept shouting so loudly, if you were to put a glass of water.
it will be shaking.
but than, he mellowed down an inch and gave us encouraging and motivating words.
that encouraged me for half an hour. and than it went poof!

sucks.

oh, and i wasted plenty of time at bugis.
the engraver went out, so i went around for one and a half.
having lunch, went back changed everything, sat at the plants there.

it was fairly interesting.
today that is.

though sadly, i have no mood. zero.
not even a millimeter of mood to study.
but i will read the history textbook that is beside me, to brush up on my senseless knowledge on history.

though i was often told by some one this,

do not wait for the mood to come get to you,
if you don have it, create it.

good isn't it?
but one thing i would describe my feelings or emotions now, is that i am feeling very very extremely,

monotonous.

and that is it people. history will be it.
shall have a good night's sleep tonight while i am at it.
have been sleeping terribly late for the past few days.

coming home, and being greeted by a switched on computer.
it is nonetheless distracting.

p.s
mo-no-to-no-us. (:

{ 9:01 PM }

Sunday, April 12, 2009.

WELCOME BACK JOEYYYY!!!!

see, i so kind.
welcome you back so WARM-HEART-EDLY!

hahahahhaa.

and why you buy PAD!
i told ya to buy the CONDOMS!!!!! D:

i wanna scare my mommy!
hahahah, if would be so hilarious man.

but if i scare my dad ah. wahh.
i die like a thousand times ah. D:
lols.

just came back from my bai bai dinner!
played with the kids. D:
too energetic sia.
i no stamina ah. D:

they run like snake like that. D:
twirl here twirl there, left right. D:

hahahaha. and i think i sprained my big toe. D:
hurts. D:
oh noooo!!!!!

lols. ciao people.

shall go have a nice hot bath!!!!!!!!

p.s
condom and pads! LOLS.
p.p.s
ugh, i sound so bimbo-ishh.

{ 8:55 PM }

I am currently trying to focus on my homework.

which also reminds me about what happened this morning.

Happy Easter Sunday all!
today is the day Jesus rose up from the dead!
came back, to fulfill the scriptures!

hahaha, anyhow. went to church early in the morning.
was so tired..
my hair was in the mess. D:

oh! and i saw Adaline!
the P6 one!
the rich one? the funny joking one?
dunno.

anyhow, saw her. talked about sheryl shen.
seems like she still keep in contact with her.
lost contact with her like during sec 2?

hmmm...
church was okay, the songs was not nice. D:
none of my favorites. sadly. D:

oh! and dad followed along! to church!
and he kept singing so badly, and reading the words wrongly. and kept bugging me. ==
so annoying.

than went for lunch, the prata was awesome!
same goes with carrot cake!!!
hahahaha.
than had noodle which was bleh. D:

i crave for the prata now.

anyhow, talk talk talk, laugh laugh laugh.
oh!

we got a new sofa!
it is SUPER AWESOME!
it is like those cinema seats?

sis and i call it the butt sinking sofa. xD
and it is like first class airplane seat!
you can lower the thing, bring the leg thingy out.
it is so fun! plus, it has the ancient look!!!!

sad to say. mom didn't like the material.
so had to change it to PU leather. D:
ah wells~

anyhow. better do my ss and hist asap.
which also brings to remind me that exams is next week. D:
omg man. i am so dead for POA, Bio, Physics, Chinese and Art.
like major dead. (i sound like a bimbo! lols!)

better start studying like crazy!

note for the week;
Monday -shop shop.
Tuesday - tuition tuition.
Wednesday - cough cough.
Thursday - HOLY SHIT I GOT TUITION! I JUST REALIZED!
Friday - study study.

omg. bad bad. in so many way.
I NEED TO DO MY ART!
MY PRINTER BROKE DOWN!
MY GRANDMA COM IS DOWN!!!

NOOOO!!!!

p.s
hear ye hear ye! I am so dead. D:

{ 1:35 PM }

Friday, April 10, 2009.

Hahahahahahah. I am so dead.

oh dear, ahma's com got virus.
i think.
that's why the computer cannot be switched on.
and when we try, it gives off a ringing sound.

and guess what all?
lo and behold all, the computer holds all the pictures for nationals.

but it is safe!
i think.
cause i saved them all on the hard drive.

so it should be safe.

i hope.

and yes, i know.
I.... am ...?

I dunno man.
but i cannot use the com.
and when i get, boom!

the com gets something wrong.

and today i had to do cleaning for my computer,
which means i had to clean all my folders, clear all unwanted stuff.
blah blah blah.

anyhow, i feel neat!
FINALLY. over all these years, i deleted many and it is all oh so neat. :D

unlike last time, where you cannot even find something.
and when you go into a folder, you will go into another, and another and another.
endless!!!!


HAHAHAHAH.

anyhow, being spasm as per usual.
and my dad is hovering over me.

so.. bye all!!!

p.s
*clatter clatter* oh. *drops.* sigh. *picks up* and *clatter clatter clatter*
(Boredom kills)
p.p.s
and nat is having a bed time storing read by DAD.
his english is horrendous. D: he sounds like a........ ailen?
if he is having oral now, and i am the teacher, i will give zero! (poor dad. xD how cute.)

{ 10:42 PM }

Wednesday, April 8, 2009.

Today was a hectic day. again.

hahahaha.

anyhow, woke up early this morning.
and no i did not go to school, had checkup and was too sleepy to wake up go to school, than leave half way and rush to KK hospital.

either ways, this morning i was woken up by my mother saying that something was wrong with my great grandma who is 91 this year.
and that she is awake but she cannot move, open her eyes or talk at all.
and that snapped me awake.

so i was like, 'SHIT. what if she goes?!'
so i rushed out of my bed, grabbed my towel, brushed my teeth furiously and quickly, scrubbed myself clean, and was dressed in 15 minutes.
and my mom was still bathing. --

it was like, she didn't bother at all.

though i can't blame her..
lao ma is very attention seeking, so she do anything just to get all.

anyhow, reached there, and ah gong was drawing.
everybody was so calm it was frightening.
i ran to the room, and saw her laying so still, i got so scared.
she was not moving, other than her chest rising up and down, and that's it.

than mom came in, asked questions. blah blah.
than called ambulance. than the paramedics (i think it is spelt like that) guy came, checked everything.
and was all okay except for her blood pressure, it was very high.

than the other two came, she resisted going to hospital.
she could move by than, slammed herself down on the bed, to-long them. making noises at the back of her throat.

than godpa came, her favourite grandson, and within seconds, i repeat seconds.
she was on the stretcher to the ambulance.
while, everybody including my mom took one hour in hoping to convince her, and failed.
whereas, godpa took seconds and was successful.

lols. biased?
truly. (RUNS IN THE BLOOD MAN MARIANNE!)

hahahhaha.

anyhow, went for my check up.
was told that if this were to dragged any longer, i will get cancer!
ahhahahaha.

and they actually wanted to poke a long NEEDLE there just to take some out for examine.
and i will still have to op.

how dumb, i rather go straight for op.
and my op is after exams.
come visit me people! shower me with flowers! toys!
HAHAHAHAHAH! :D

(I am joking, they are so expensive it is hardly worth it.)

I HATE, DESPISE, LOATHE, anything that is more extreme than dislike, needles.
i rather take a knife through there than a needle.
*shudder*

i was so shocked i went into a daze when they said that, just imagining it, is too scary....

anyhow, all in all, i have to take an op.
before it get worse, and yeah.
lets just pray i will not get fever and dying pain from it yeah?
if i do, lols man, i am so dead. literally.

oh, and no PE for me man!
BWUAHAHHAHAHHAHAAH!!!!!!! xDD

oh, and i wanna pon art tml... D:
shall come to school late. :D
heheheheheheh.......

anyhow. today was funny, nerve-wrecking and rather... weird?
lols.
kk.

bye peeps!

p.s
that area got touched by 6 people. two of which are my grandma and mom, the other four doctors. and thank god female. if male, i will curl up and die. D: (and i am not one bit lessy. == )

{ 5:49 PM }

Sunday, April 5, 2009.

It has really been awhile since i post eh?

hahaha.
lets see how this week was.

monday, tuesday, wednesday.
nothing much.

thursday and friday!
NO SCHOOL!
competition!

yeahhh.

and i have no mood to say much.
today is a maddening day.
same goes for yesterday, especially during church.

well. that's bout it.
i still have to study. just that i only have SS and hist.
will do maths and art (maybe for art) later. (:

and i will upload the pics in the night.
i cannot use my grandma's com which has all the pictures. and she don allow me cause she wanna use it.
so yeah. (:

still on the first day shots.. it is annoying. delete delete delete.

speaking of which, we have no more training?!

random. . . . .

b y e p e o p l e . ( :

p.s
i wanna sleep forever.

{ 2:40 PM }