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2009-08-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

Moved to livejournal!
I am too darn lazy to handle two blogs. (:

link me?
http://littleelliot.livejournal.com/

2009-07-11T00:09:00.001+08:00

UGHH.

I am so damn confused, on POA. D:
shit laaaaa. I was given something that I did not touch before?
not really touch la, but there are adjustments to be done, i can actually cook up two methods. D:
with DIFFERENT answers! if it was the same than it is fine la. at least i know i am safe. D:
but i am NOT. arghhh. and my poa teacher will not be awake!

well, she will be, but it is rude.
to ask abt such things at the wee hours of the night. well, not really. it is only 10 mintues past 12.
anyhow, thats it i wanna post. (:

hahaha, nights and sweet dreams! (gonna turn in before reading few things.)

p.s
oh, it is offically 40 days to prelims and 60 days to N level. :D countdown!

2009-07-10T17:23:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE AISHU!!! EVEN THOUGH I DUNNO ABT YOU MUCH. (otherthanyoumakingalotofnoiseinclassandactingstupidandsuch.)

BUT I WILL STILL MISS YOU!!!!! TAKE CAREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
HAVE MUCH IN INDIA, OH , INDONESIA!!!!
TAKE CARE!!! DON MAKE ENEMIES LIKE YOU DID WITH MY CLASS WHEN YOU FIRST ARRIVED!

TAKE CARE! DON FALL SICK!!!

AIDEUUUU!!!! (yes!onelessloudmouthisout,onlyiftheotherslefttoo.)

_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________

WARNING!

WARNING! WALL OF TEXT AHEAD, FULL OF MY CRAP! ABOUT MY STUPIDITY AT HOME! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! YOUR BRAIN CELLS WILL CURL INTO THEMSELVES AND DIE! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! PROCEED WITH CAUTION! HAVE AN OXYGEN TANK BESIDE YOU! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

WARNING!~

hahahha, i am so damn mean. :D
anyhow, i realised something.

I HAVE NO LIFE! D:

I am so darn bored, done using the com and everything, and nothing is on tv, and i read finished all the books I have, giving them a thorough reading twice.
so while watching women on tv complain about the after effects abt pregnancy.
I decided to get rid of my stomach and thigh fats.

and no i am not anorexic. i do have stomach. D:
those lines when you sit down, they budge out, and my thigh needs shaping. (ithink)

so anyhow, while watching those women laugh like hyena's, i started to do crunches.
than i moved to sit ups, than jumping.
for the jumping i only did five. D: i tried doing what my older sister does everything to get taller.
touching the top of the door each time she jumped, but when i did that, i touched the celing.

I didn't even need to tip toe to touch the top. D:
and i stupidly forgot i didn't want to get anymore taller.
so i moved onto surfing!!!

and no, no waves or such. singapore waves is far too small.
my uncle won the surfing broad thing, the osim one, for free. and he is old, so he gave it to us youngsters.
but we did not touch it till my mom decided to go crazy on packing the house, again.
and i realised such a thing actually existed. so I went hyper and ask my mom to let me play with it.

it is fun! :D though i wanted to bend my knees 90 degress, to tone my legs, which my mom said will help.
you all should know right? bending your knees 90 against the wall is hard, but doing it on a broad that is moving so darn fast and holding that position for 10 minutes will make you feel like you are crippled.
(i now admire those surfers with their amazing packs.)

and guess how long did i hold out?
two pathetic minutes.
HAHAHAHA, i know. stupid.
anyhow, the worse happened, my thighs started to get numb and lactic acid decided to kick it. (biooo)

so i started to jump around, and in the air, bending my knees. so as to stretch the muscles that were cramping up.
it didn't worked, and i hate cramps, so i started to do all sort of stretches that will stretch your legs muscles.
and i was stretching the wrong one, instead of my thighs, i was doing my calves. D:

so i bend my knees 90 degrees again, leaning against the wall, trying to read my book.
but failed, only managing to remain in that position for 5 minutes.
anyhow, i managed to stop the cramp. :D

than, i moved on to my arm.
I am forbidden to lift anything heavy, but since it has been. what? two months? since the op.
I decided to go for it. lifting the women's hand bells.
and it was the stupidest thing to do ever.

er... will not go to details, but it started to hurt. so i was like,
' friggin' shit. it is long healed! why does it still hurt?! '
than i got all pissed, so i went to do more crunches till my stomach muscle started to cramp,
so to stop it from cramping, i did er... the bridge thing?
you lay on the bed and push yourself up using your legs and arms.

and yeah, so here i am, smelly and sticky, needing to take another bath.

oh, and the horror people. because of my stupid bangs, which i wanted side fringe.
i now have 39 pimples on my bloody forehead. D:
and there are all so DAMN SMALL. and it is like a friggin town!
LIKE A BLOODY PIMPLE CITY ON MY FOREHEAD!
LIKE THERE IS A FREAKING PIMPLE PARTY! (nooffensetothosewithpimplesfirsttimegettingsomanyinoneshot.RELAX.)

and i just realised ya not supposed to scrub your face too hard. D:
I didn't know! seriously!
and i think it got worse cause when i scrubbed my forehead, using those facial wash with the walnut shell, and using the er... bony part of your palm? beneath the middle of your palm, that one.
to scrub my forehead, super hard.
lols.

anyhow, wall of text. :D super hyper, and i don wanna do my homework, even though the little voice in my head is nagging at me to finish all my homework and start on my bio revision.
but no way, not now. well, there is a high chance though. D: i got lots of work. LOTS.
and next week is all staying back after sch for remedial and after that i got to travel to bleeding bugis for maths tuition and come home for poa tuition. D:

monday- maths, half an hour break and will end at 5? than go home for poa tuition.
tuesday- NOTHING!!!!
wednesday- science, '' '' '', than go to bugis for maths.
thursday- NOTHING.
friday- ss '' '' '', then go home for poa tuition again.

but oh, there is a high chance of me staying back in sch on tues and thurs.
if i were to come home i will do nothing but stupid stuff like today if not sleep, computer or tv.
so yeah. :D
anybody interested in staying back with me? or go to someone's house to study?
as in seriously studying, not play.

oh, and chinese MUST be better than mine. need to practise my disgusting horrendous terrible chinese. :D

okay. typed too much. xD

BYEEEEEE.

p.s
I AM SOOO HIGHHHH!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEE.
p.p.s
told ya it was stupid. :P

2009-07-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

YAY!! I GOT MY IPOD TOUCH!

and who cares if it is touch screen! it is AWESOME.
I was so upset when it didn't comg yesterday, which was supposed to.
and my sister was equally upset and pissed because we were like,
' the mac laptop is coming today!!! ' -her.
' my ipod touch is coming today!!! ' -me.

oh, reason as to why i suddenly got this.
i er... kinda broke my sister's laptop? hahaha.......
er... her battery kinda went crazy at me?

so my mom realised there was this student promo thing at apple.
and you get a ipod touch along with it, and my sis didn't want it, so she gave it to me. :D
happiness!

though i am struggling now as to what to do. D:
and my blue book is rather clean. D: and i am too excited to do it. D:
ughhh. got to get working on it now.

and the itunes is taking awfully longgggggg. D:
ughhhhhhhhh.

anyhow, got another blog. D:
and my writing sucks, my sis said that. bad bad badddddd. D:
no depth and no real... feelings in it.D:

thats bad. D: ugh.

p.s
ipod touch~

2009-07-03T16:24:00.002+08:00

I HAVE B.O!!!!!

and if i had for a long time and nobody told me.
I WILL KILL YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME I STINK!

NOOOO!!!!!

I STINK!
I STINK!
I STINK!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

p.s
I AM GONNA DO WHATEVER I CAN TO NOT HAVE B.O!

2009-07-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

I am not some fucking Cinderella.

you can't expect me to not get angry with my younger sister for being so damn rude to my grandmother, and for 'sleeping' on the dining table, not listening to me and for taking up so much damn space, and oh, littering on the floor, where she sleeps.

it is amazing.
i daresay my grandmother has the patience of a saint.
because my patience is thin as a thread when it comes to my younger sister.

and yeah, no surprise here, younger sister and family again.
and yeah, no surprise here too, i fought with her, again.

and guess what?
i got so pissed, at least i was in the right state of my mind, telling myself not to hit her.
so i took the cane took three steps back, and shouted at her,

'don touch me, or i will hit you so badly, you will not be able to walk the next day.'

but the thing is, she being stupid, wailing her head off saying it is my fault was disturbing her sleep when she was supposed to be studying.
wanted to grab my hands and bite, pinch me, and kept screaming in my face.

if you look it at another person side point of view, the scene will look hilarious even.
a teenager backing away with the cane as the defense, and a primary sch kid wailing and screaming her head off, trying to grab the teenager's arms.

but than, my dad stood in, and i had to back off.
i may hit my sister, but no bloody hell am i gonna let him touch her.
if you think i am worse, see my dad.

and yeah, so when i get so darn pissed, with so many homework, and housework to do.
where do all my raging anger go?
house chores.

i take my anger out on the pitiful vacuum and mop.
in return, i get a very clean house.
and it is good. (: cause i won't break anything.
though i broke the vacuum once and few wardrobes.

but other than that. everything lived, cept for the ants, dust and litters.

like i said, i am not some fucking Cinderella.
who hum and sings songs cheerfully and cry in the meadow after being bullied by some evil stepsisters.
and be rescued in a knight with shining amour riding a white horse and a fat fairy god mother who is clumsy enough to lose her wand.
and oh, no such thing as a glamorous ball.

so people, think twice before calling me cinderalla or adam-ralla, or whatever shit kay? (:
i am not so kind like that lady in a fictional story.

sides, happy endings don exist.
only in death, which is heaven, but it does not stop there. not yet.
and yeah. (:

i feel better already! woohooo!

bye people. shall do my history, sch and tuition poa homework, physics and english. (:

== and i dread waking up so early. ughhhh. exhaustion kills.

p.s
bullshit man!

2009-06-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

This blog is gonna go for hiatus for awhile. (:

(hope I didn't spell it wrongly.)

due to sch, and some other reasons.
and.. well yeah.

and I'm sorry, it was an accident. truly.
I did not mean to slip and hurt you.
but since you refused to believe me and give me those looks.

so be it.

ahahhaa, and yeah.
and i am not liking this, cause I'm being stupid. literally.
despite me calling other people stupid all the time, I'm the stupid one myself. D:

sucks eh?

but what to do.
shall do some soul-searching? and do some major hardcore mugging. (:
after that, lets party!!!! xD

and sch is starting tml, woop-dee-do.
hope sch will shut down. :D
hahaha.
but than again, sch shut down means death and illness. D:
bad thing to hope for.

and yeah.
i have no idea what i am saying. but lets start getting ready for prelims people!

study our ass off!!!!! xD

hahaha, and something stupid for all. (:
let's see if ya can guess what is actually happening. no prizes though.
just for a little kill-time? it is kinda obvious. (:

Touching the mirror with shaking hands, a small whimper slipped from a trembling lip.

Tears flowed freely, words were spoken from a stranger behind, it sounded so distant and foreign.

The small shaking hand reached for the face, tracing along the line, more words of time left the man's mouth.

An unknown face stared back at her in the mirror, emotions welled up inside her aching body.

A lady clothed in white opened the door, she stared at the stranger and took a step back, shaking her head and muttering words beneath her breath.

The girl turned around and stared fiercely at the woman, who backed away in fear, head shaking in disbelief.

She now no longer felt scared, her emotions flared as her body went numb with anger.

Words and pictures spewed in her mind.

She brought her hand, pointing to the pale motionless body wearing her face on the bed.

Her lips pulled up at both corners into a grim smile,
'you murderer.'

yeah!!!!! hahahaha. :D yeah.
I know, ridiculous. but i kinda like it. hahahaha.
cookies and ice cream and lollipops to those who knows the so called plot? :D

yup. (: and it is now 11.11pm!
woohoo! make a wish!
(I wish i can- shit it is freakin 11.12.) ==

heck, anyhow, cya all in sch. (:
byeeeeeeee.

p.s
oh, and to my beloved toy dog. I ♥ you! :D

2009-06-25T14:57:00.002+08:00

I am ending my holidays writhing in pain and agony.

from what?
it is kinda easy to guess, the thing i hate most about a woman. ==
and it kills my appetite.

skip skip skip.

ughhh, the past few days were shitty.
I have been having so little sleep. D: I think i might faint from exhaustion.

going to malaysia was okay, sleeping with mama was okay too.
except that the air-con was literally crazy, it was so hot.
it would go on full blast for five minutes, than it will switch off, than it will on again, but it will be like, full blast to small to nothing.

than i switched off the air-con, switched on the fan and made the worse mistake i could.
opening the windows.
the mosquitoes flew in a swarm, i could not see, but there was a lot.

so while sleeping, my face arms and they even went into my blanket, i was being feasted on.
whereas my grandma was sleeping soundly cause she put those oil that mosquitoes would not come bite her, good thing too.

so i closed the windows, switched on the fan and the air-con.
and could not sleep till 4am and i woke up at 7am.

yesterday.

went to watch transformers!
it was awesome. :D
the action was thrilling, the story line was amazing, the actor was hilarious.
i was the only person laughing my ass off in the first part. D: nobody found it funny.
and yeah, go watch go watch. (:

but it ended at 12.45am. around there.
than i slept at 2, and woke up at 8. D:
it was horrendous.

and oh, i lost my contact in my left eye.
which was what i thought, but in the end it was just stuck onto the cabinet after my facial.
oh, facial was a killer, my period came this morning, when i was already in a shitty mood cause it was so early in the morning, i couldn't see, and my hair was like a lion's mane.

and reason being why facial was a killer why cause of my period.
she said it will make me even more sensitive?
dunno, but yeah. D:
not gonna go for tuition, wanna cancel tml's poa one too.

need to do lots of packing and homework.
i stupidly did the wrong set. ==
and also kept doing my tuition ones only. D:

ughhhhh..

bye people. enjoy the last of your holidays. (:

p.s
bvjfdkgdfgehw ed jvw.

2009-06-19T20:56:00.003+08:00

Shitty day.

yea, title explains everything, today was a shitty day.

I woke up at frigging 7am with only 6 hours of sleep, just to go down to parkway parade to have facial, which was at 9.15am.
the treacherous journey ended and sis and i reached there at 9 o'clock.

and guess what?
the lady wasn't there. ==

sis called her but failed, she did not pick up.
so the next shop, some kind old lady saw us standing there waiting, with me cursing and swearing, sis on the phone with ahma, offered us to let us sit on her sofa while we wait for the lady.

so, we waited for an hour.
she was still not here. I took the number from sis, and spammed her with calls.
only at the third call did she answer, sounding sleepy.

and guess what?
today was not the appointment day.
it was tml, morning.

anyhow, called my grandma, and everybody was shocked because she said today would be alright.
turned out, she had to attend a funeral of her sister's father-in-law.
which she said it this way,
'er.. cannot ah. today i am off day.. cause right.................................
my sister father-in-law...... passed away. and today is the (she was thinking what to say.) thing! so i have to help my sister with the (again) thing.'

lie? who knows. i dunno, but all i know that i was really pissed off.
i woke up so darn early in the morning.
who would not be angry?
my sister. (who else?)

so while waiting for the bus, I said on coming to that area because it is near to east coast and we could go cycling, and saying to heck care about what our parents say.
than my sis had just add oil to the fire.
she said this with the fuck you and shut up tone and face.
' ya! curse some more! swear some more!'

which was bad, cause i nearly grabbed the back of her head, and rammed it into concrete ground.
but i didn't. thank god too.

so anyhow after that went to cut my hair,
wanted only side fringe, but guess what?
my sister convinced me with a few words of cutting short, and being extremely bored, i decided to cut it short.

and wendy, the hair dresser, said it is side fringe, just wait for it to grow long.
so now, it looks like bangs.
and i am not supposed to push it to the side even though it is side fringe.
like what the bloody shit, i asked for side fringe and you give me bangs and tell me to let it grow.

and my sis went all anal (?) on me.
what can i do?
so now, with my so called side fringe, it is now bangs.

and during tuition, i was so dead tired, even after having a lollipop.
i could not think.
and we were doing my worst topic, mensuration.
so i needed help for every single question, which was shitty.

ugh, i am getting more pissed as i type.
and i am sleepy,
and i cannot sleep in tml,
and i am exhausted,
and i still have my poa homework.

UGHHHHHH.

p.s
stranger's face.

2009-06-18T19:50:00.002+08:00

I am finally gonna post the pictures tonight.

yeah! rejoice all!!!!
hahahahhaaha.

and i am high today. :D

I woke up at bloody 8am and had POA tuition at 10 till 12.
than after that, i had Maths tuition at 2 to 6!
WOOHOOOOO!!!!

yeahhh!!!!

and thats it. (:

oh, just one more thing. er...
people seem to be thinking that bitch i mentioned in my last post?
yeah, she is fictional. like she does not exist.

and no it is not nobody for whoever's sake.

yeah. (:

p.s
fuck it, I am acting like a ______________________. (:

2009-06-17T19:32:00.003+08:00

Misery.

I just realised something.
next week is the last week before school starts right?
and that means when school starts, means that prelims is hitting very close by.
which also means that is extremely bad, because i for one, have not brushed up on my extremely bad sciences.

which also includes that i am gonna end my so called holidays by apparently having tuition everyday.
and not forgetting studying my ass off for the creeping fear of prelims.

which is kinda scaring the shit out of me now, well not really, I'd be lying if i am saying i am not in denial.
which is bad, because if i am denial about the friggin prelims, i will fail it and don promote and go to Nitec or ITE.

not to insult those people in ITE but my family thinking that me going to ITE.
literally means the end of their second daughter career and life, which also bring me to It's The End.
despite that ITE is better now, my parents are dead set on me going anywhere even working but ITE.

so here i am, drinking some soothing soup for the throat, because almost everyone in the house is sick.
well not really, just me my sis, and more me and my sis. well, just more on my sis. she is coughing and polluting the air as we speak.
well, technically, me typing.

and also not forgetting that when i go to sch, quite a scary number of teachers and people will be going after me.

1) Mr F.
reason- for being so enthusiastic about me going to school during the first week of the holidays and ask him questions i don't know. which i did not do instead i went to the library to study, but did go to sch on Monday and few other days for history lesson with the attendance of 8 people.

2) Miss Au.
reason- for not being able to pass to her the thumb-drive on the last week of sch.
was supposed to pass it to her on Thursday but was absent.
and Friday, it was only registered in my mind when i was on the bus home.
even when i went back to sch on some days, to find her not sitting on her chair in front of her desk to pass her the thumb-drive, it is still in my wallet.
and for not going for training without even contacting her or calling her.
and for having such a poor irresponsible attiude towards the CCA.

3) Arielene and other people.
reason- for not posting up the pictures during the nationals which was months ago, because i am banned from using the computer. and making empty promises.

4) My mom.
reason- for being really enthu about studying like crazy during the holidays which i only managed to keep it up for two weeks and it dissolved like a piece of shining rock drowned in acid.
and for not completing the number of papers she had bought for me and me willingly agreed and not helping her sort out her receipts for her work.

5) Karma.
reason- for doing so many bad things, like lying, not studying, and not helping out. and also for making empty promises.

and thats it! i am sooooo looking forward for when school re-opens.
when Mrs. Regina Lee will greets us all bright and lovely, shouting into the microphone,
"Good Morning girls! It is good to be back, did you all enjoy your holidays?"
which we will all groan and reply with a dull no.

I wonder how does she do it, truly.

and yeah. i feel exhausted. but hey, i managed to rant it out of my system.
and i hope that tml i will be able to have maths tuition from 2-6.
to make it up for today that is.
sigh, really hope so.
if do, i will have some food to accompany along with me. (:

bye people. you still have exactly 11 days before school starts. (:
let us being the count down yeah?

and oh, to you, bitch.
don't vent your fucking little temper on me. (:
If you want to see your neck connected nicely to your body. (:

just a little warning. to you-know-who. (:

p.s
you friggin piece of shit. screw it all.
p.p.s
wow. wall of text!

2009-06-16T14:39:00.002+08:00

Maths intensive tuition for 10 days consecutively.

ughhh, this sucks like cow dung.
i have to make my way down to bugis everyday from now on till the intensive thingy ends.
g-r-e-a-t-.

i lost my interest all in bugis already, and i am dying at boredom at home.
boredom= no book, and nothing else to do on the com.
and last night i studied my ass off for some reason.
i still have my sciences and humances homework left.

and it is now 2.41.
better get going soon. tuition starts at 4. D:
and the lift will be down at 3 and no way am i gonna walk down 22 levels.
no freakin' way.

anyhow, debra thanks for the... er.... advices?
dunno, but its okay.......? (:
thanks?
hahahahaha.dunno what to say.

and yeah. everyone have fun during the remaining of the hols!
try not to fall sick like me and don get H1N1 yeah?

shall do my homework and tuition POA work and the incoming tuition MATHS work during the rest of the hols.
and oh, brush up on my very bad sciences. :D

yeah, sounds good.
but wait, speaking of which, whats gonna happen for the class BBQ?

lols. kay. byeee. (:

p.s
darn, i can't do the heart on sis laptop. == damn.

2009-06-08T20:07:00.005+08:00

Someone teach me. How to love my younger sister.

THIS IS SO MADDENING.

my grandma just scolded me nicely and i took it seriously about how i am not treating my younger sister nicely.
and yes, i know i am mean towards her, and yes, it is about her again, but she says that's not the point.

she says that i am not giving her enough attention towards her.

like take yesterday for example. she was playing by herself the entire day while everyone was busy on their own things.
yes i am guilty.
but how on earth do i give attention to her?
when i never fail to fight with her over the simplest thing?

How on earth can i play with her, and actually understand what she is trying to say, when i cannot stand her character?

how am i suppose to show love towards her?
how am i suppose to show that i do not hate her and want her to die so badly?

and she kept rolling her eyes when i was scolding her on table manners.
for whoever's sake! she rolled her eyes like, more than 20 times?!
I felt so badly to just... Oh, I don't know, gouge her eyes out?

like when my grandma was lecturing me nicely on it, she was giggling and laughing away.
isn't it rude?
I felt so badly to just... Oh, I don't know, punch her?

and also, I am VIOLENT.
a very violent person, cause i was brought up, the what? oh yes the hard way.
hard way= not talking, hitting slapping caning and blah blah.

so maybe i should go for, control your fist management, it might help.
or even better, go for both control your fist and anger managment!

who knows?

ugh, this is so frustrating.
anyone with little younger brother/sisters and really close with them, with BIG age difference like 9 years or more.
can you please kindly teach me how to play or actually talk without fighting with her?

drop a little tag on my cbox. PLEASE.

oh dear god, i feel so.... pissed.
ughhhhhhhhhhhh.

this sucks big time. ==

p.s
good god, now what?

2009-06-06T20:11:00.003+08:00

Flag day!!!!

it was awesome, and it was my first time!
so i was extremely excited but nervous.
but it was fine. (:

met many different kinds of people.
other students from other school and talked to them.
stingy rich people who will just die from reaching into their Prada, Gucci, Chanel bag for some loose change.
generous people who goes up to you and drop a number of coins and move on to the next and drop some more coins.
more generous people who donate 2 dollars, 5 dollars and 10 dollars.
parents with their children and taking out as many coins as they can and drop them into the tin.

it was fun. :D
cept for the time those people just ignore you and pretend you do not exist.
or those people who can actually just walk pass you without glancing at you.
or those people who actually run away when they spot you 10 feet away.
and yeah, other than that it was fun. (:

anyhow, did some reading today. (:
seems like the future ain't looking good.
hahahhha.

not surprised though, i am actually kinda happy that i will have to go through such a stage which have yet to come.
and it is not surprising, since i have made up my mind on that.

though they are completely true in me having to change.
hahahaha.

anyhow, just felt like posting what i had up. (:
i did the 10 card twice and the three card once.
for those who find it taboo, i apologize, but yes, i do do such stuff that goes against religion.

and here it is.

The devil.
The tower.
The star.
The wheel.
Strength.
The hanged man.
Death.
The fool.
SWords 10.
Swords 9.

Swords 2.
Swords 1.
King of chalices.
Queen of chalices.
Wands 3.
Wands 2.
Wands 1.
Knight of chalices.
Chalices 8.
Chalices 7.

Pentacles 4.
Pentacles 3.
Pentacles 2.

lollipops for those who can guess what i had asked. :D (though i highly doubt anyone will actually find the meanings behind it.)

hahaha. nights all.

p.s
I ♥ my deck. (:

2009-06-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

I am unable to sleep.

even though I feel exhausted as though I ran 100km.

sigh. anyhow, I actually went to bed at 9.
and than some things happened here and there.
blah blah blah.

oh and thank you. (:
for helping me get rid of the nausea.

well, since I could not sleep.
I decided to do my SS homework I had actually planned to wake up early in the morning to do it.
but since insomnia is kicking in, might as well makes good use of the time.

and yeah. (:

okay, bye people. shall continue doing my work on sis laptop.

good night to all. and thank you joey. :D lols.

have fun everyone with your holidays.

p.s
bead one,
bead two,
bead three,
bead four,
bead five,
bead six,
bead seven,
bead eight,
bead nine,
bead ten.

2009-06-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

Yes, I am posting again.

sigh. this SUCKS.
just had POA tuition.

and was kinda happy bout it.
than guess what? everything went hazy. ==
god knows why too.

anyhow, half way of doing my work.
I looked up, and my teacher was doodling on a piece of paper.
and I saw my name. it was like this.
'Amanda is very....'

I could not see the rest.

and than, I kept thinking it was a bad comment blah blah blah.
and I started to over-react by thinking alot of stupid stuff.
and than I lost my concentration, and could not help but ponder what on earth did she write.

D: this sucks.

ugh. anyhow. nights all.

shall go study like crazy tml. (:

p.s
english, maths, poa, combined humanties and sciences. YES.
let's do it! just do it! hahahahha!
p.p.s
on a side note, I am using my new planner! It is AWESOME! Glad I bought it. :D yayyyy!!!

2009-06-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

Ultra sound is friggin' cool!

ahahhaa. and yeah, it is damn cool la.
anyhow, did not go to sch. was too tired to wake up in the morning.
then went to the docs. :D

the ultra sound thing was damn cool la!!!
but the sad thing was, i was not wearing my specs. D:

so like when i realised i could see whats happening in my chest, i asked her to help me get my specs.
and than she was like, ' wait wait. i do the important part first.'

it was so cool la.
and the doc didn't help me get my specs at all. ==
and i kept talking and laughing during it. and she kept asking me to keep quiet.

but it is DAMN COOL LA!

ahhahaha. than after the thing was done i kept complaining to my mom that she did not help me get my specs at all. xD
hahahaha.
than had lunch, went to see my doc.

seems like instead of a tumour. there is a sics! or whatever it is called/spelt.
of.... 1.7cm long?
but it is unknown if it will go away blah blah blah.

so i have to check if it gets bigger blah blah blah.

anyhow, my mom called me weird cause i was so enthu about the whole thing.
and the both of us caught the flu. D:
we kept sneezing like crazy. D: sigh.

anyhow.
that's bout it. :D

wooohooo!!!!!

buaii. xoxo. (yuck. lols. bye.)

p.s
i must wear my specs the next time!

2009-06-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

I bought a planner! ♥

it is really nice. (:
can't wait to use it. ahhaaha.

and how am i gonna ask dad... to pay me 30. D:
all the notes added up to that amount.
ah shit, he is gonna go nuts.

anyhow. byeee.

just came in to say these. :D

p.s
yes! get to leave sch early tml! and no sch on thurs! WOOHOO!

p.p.s
♥ to everybody out there!

2009-06-01T10:51:00.002+08:00

My stupid younger sister.

yes, no surprise here.
majority of my problems in the house is my younger sister.
why?
god knows man.

yea sure, i pick on her.
why?
because she has no fucking manners.

and when i try to teach her, my mother or grandmother SCREAMS at me.
'Can't you talk to her nicely?!'
'Don't talk to her!'
'Leave her alone!'

fuck you all bitches.

I am not trying to like, strangle her, rip her corpse into pieces, and sell them as meat to other people.

I am trying to teach her,
1) how to speak properly.
2) manners.
3) table manners.
4) how to at least sit properly.
5) how to behave.
6) give some respect to my grandmother and mother and everyone else in the family.

and oh. what do i get?
I get names like, I am a useless sister, blah blah blah.

and i just fought with them.
how did it go? here it is.

nat-crying her ass out. AHMA!!! ER JIE DON WAN TO GIVE ME EAT HER CRISP CHOCOLATE! SHE IS A VERY RUDE AND SELFISH GIRL! SHE VERY RUDE TO ME!
me- Yes, exactly. I don selfish and rude, thats why i don wanna give you. And why should i give it to you anyways? You don even know how to ask properly.
nat- cries and says the same thing over and over.
me- ignores her.
nat- I am your younger sister you know! You are supposed to share it with me!
me- so what? big deal. why should i share with you?
nat- keeps quiet.
me- goes back to work.

and well it is kinda long, and mostly she kept making comments at me and saying that i am rude and selfish.
oh yes, i remember saying to her.
'this is exactly why i don wanna stay at home.'
this happened when my grandmother was cooking btw.

and when my grandmother came out, she wailed from the living room, to my grandmother who was at the computer area.

nat- says the same thing over and over.
grandmother- don eat it! don care!
me- types away at homework.
nat- cry and cry.
grandmother- why you don wanna give her!
me- WHY?! WHY?! Because she cannot even ask properly!
grandmother- ya! but you are not any better!
me- thats why! i am trying to teach her, and when i do. you and mother always say, leave her alone, don bother, don teach her! and than you all come and scold me!
grandmother- ya! nvm. don worry. i am gonna go home to pack my house and leave with nat! than you and your mother can suffer! i am already damn sian of seeing you! and when i leave, you can become Queen!
me- ME? BECOME QUEEN?! (i was already shouting at this point, and my grandmother didn't even bother to look at me.) HA! i become Queen for what? you think i am doing all these to gain the title of queen?! i couldn't care less about what title or status i hold! all i want to do, is to teach her how to talk properly.
grandmother- tries to cut in.

me- raise my voice louder. because she did not even ask properly! she did not ask, 'Er jie! can you please share with me a piece of your chocolate?!' did she say this?! NO! instead she says i never share with her, i am a rude and selfish person. and she cries. she screams and shouts at me. and you all come and scold me for no darn reason! because i am just trying to teach her manners!
grandmother- quiet for a while. than she speaks. but you can speak to her nicely what! you are like your father like that! don't know how to speak at all! it is in your genes.
blah blah blah.
me- he IS my father.

and thats it. (:

wow. sure is long eh? but i feel better already.
and since she is leaving later with nat. which at first did not want nat to follow her.
I am not gonna stay at home.

hell no, i am not gonna run away. ==
i am just gonna go to amk library to study.
at home there are too many distractions. and i have no self control. so yeah.

anyhow. bye all.

sorry for the wall of complains again.

p.s
crisp crunch, not crisp chocolate.
p.p.s
and yes, i am still gonna give it to her. sigh. FAIL.

2009-05-31T08:46:00.002+08:00

It is now 8.45 am in the morning.

this is abnormal for me, a person who can sleep 24 hours except wake up in between when nature calls.

but i also woke up at 6am, 6.15 am, 6.30am and 6.33am.

and I am arguing with my younger sister, who apparently sneezed into her hands, and clean her mucus on her shirt, than she picks up her bread and begins to eat.
and when i scold her, she says
'you are not my mother.'

and my reply?
'i am your sister you idiot.'

goodness, what in the world is the kids coming to nowadays.

anyhow, the reason why i am up so early is cause my cousin is beside me.
and we were supposed to be riding our bicycles at east coast now.
but dear me, why am i still at home, hacking away on the keyboard of my sister's laptop?

well, it appeared that last night, she caught the flu and sore throat.
and than she said, 'I don think i can make it for tomorrow. so have fun.'
and i went, what the bloody fuck.

because, this have happened before, always without fail, the day before we hold this activity.
she falls sicks, or gets her period.

this is sickening.

one reason was also because of my stupid dad with his darn face and pride.
my sis and i was supposed to go, last night, for a BBQ at his younger brother's place.
and i did not want to go at first, my sister did.
but than when my father came home, he went to annoy my sleeping older sister and ask her at a very bad timing,
'so, are you going to mama house?'

and she being sleepy and in the comfort of her bed, said this.
'no, i wanna sleep.'

so my dad got pissed, and when he came to me, he threw his temper around, and i fought back.
than i asked, 'are we still gonna ride our bikes tml?'
and guess what he replied?!
'No, cause i am very tired.'

so i went, what the bloody fuck, you get my hopes and joy up and you fucking tell me you don wanna go cause you are tired?

than after that, everybody was pissed including my mom, cause my dad told her some stupid shits like he said to me.
than we went to church, and during church, i sms-ed my dad that we will still be going.
and he was like, die die don wan us to go.

and his english was horrendous, he didn't even know how to spell remember or even string a sentence together.

anyhow, we still went, and than later part my cousin, the one sitting beside me, came.
the party was hardly a party, but rather a band of over weight people, frying real life crabs in the open and cooking food.

plus, they were so greedy that when my cousin came, one guy ate her noodle that my mama saved for her. what a bunch of fools.
and we that was how we decided to go ride bicycles. with people smoking around us, kids running around half naked and wet, and the crabs trying to escape from the torturous heat and fire.

sigh.

how disastrous.
and thats bout it. sorry for the wall of complain and text.

bye peeps.

p.s
no comments.

2009-05-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

H1N1 on the loose!

yeaa, by now everyone should know it already.
and if you don't. read the newspaper.
plus, i don see why we are still on 'yellow'.

anyhow, comments aside.

sorry marianne and joey, that my house was so messy and i kept asking ya all to do things and that i kept talking during the show, 'The Uninvited.'

lols, i was very enthu on the show. :P

and also, the show is... not horror.
more like about the mind.

thought it was typical story where everyone one dies and blah blah.
but i forgot that it was from a crazy girl perspective.
lols.

'Love Matters' was funny. :P
and that guy has abs!
pity he face ain't nice. D: but heck. you hardly see teenage guys with packs. xD
hahaha! and i don wanna know.

anyhow, i filed all my homework already!
woohoo!
i am actually looking forward to next week. :D

for school and homework. but i am still not prepared for exams.
sigh. i doubt i will ever be.

anyhow, it looks like it came back.
kinda shocked. but not confirm. (:
sides, i will be seeing them and it next wed. :D
so can confirm it.

plus, the weather is crazy hot.

and and and. i am done. (:

bye. (:

p.s
did I mention this? I ♥ baths! (:

2009-05-28T20:08:00.003+08:00

Oh my f-ing shit.

is what i would LOVE to say.

but i got no time, i only have five minutes to blog.

anyhow, school has been fine, results was not one bit or anything near fine.

i have to see miss lock for the parents teacher meeting.

i have dropped art.

and, i have planned out my timing and what to do's and what to not do's for the holidays.

and i cannot go for the dollfie chalet, yes, i am the... traitor once again.
cause i am offically grounded.
the leash on me has tightened to the tightest.

and and and, i do not want to assume it.
but i am kinda scared for it. no not for results but another thing.

like helllllll.

anyhow. okay. gtg now. time for dinner. and time to get serious.

good luck to all! and cheer up joey. (:
you can do it. just don spend too much time on com, stoning, and fandom.

all the best to everyone out there!
marianne, angela, joey, debra, celine!
and everyone or whoever is reading all these!

and sorry i cannot reply to my cbox! no time!

OMG. MOM!!!

BYE!

GOOD LUCK!!!!

p.s
SHIT!

2009-05-20T22:26:00.002+08:00

I have a jinx for America Idol.

D:

and it sucks, cause whenever i turn to channel five to watch America Idol.
guess what?

I never fail to always appear right on time

.
.
.

when the singer just finished singing.

which also just happened when i was watching Adam finish singing his song. D:

that sucks la!!!!

anyhow, didn't go to school today, and will not for tomorrow.
got mc! :D

I am a good girl, I don pon. (:

and yeah.

p.s
HARD GAY!!!!! HOOOOO~! (is a hilarious show.xD)

2009-05-18T20:18:00.004+08:00

Blogs are meant for rants right?

so here I am, gonna rant about another day of my life.

well, since things are like this right.
I have a great suggestion.
why don't you gimme money?

to buy a one room apartment, so I can live on myself.
then, with that, you need not to fuss yourself over such matters about me not washing your dishes, or helping around the house.

instead of being a lazy daughter who comes home with bad results and bad attitude.
and for being so darn lazy, and not helping around the house and being so self-centred and such.

since I am a self centred girl, I have think now, it is all about me me me.

no one else.

because they are nothing, mere humans with no power unlike me.

hahaha, I joke about me having power and thinking about myself only.
not interested, so I will graciously turn it down, thank you but no thanks.

anyhow, today was full of shit.
literally.

school was major... funny and entertaining!

there was shit in the hall, with those stupid mindless words.
and decorated around the school, there are phrases such as,
'suck my cock.'
'fuck.'
'sluts.'
'something something LKY'

blah blah.
and the statue was burn and splashed paint at too.
I am anger by the fact that they can do such a thing, to a man with a history.

so I guess they must be indeed a bunch of un-educated fools with absolutely no brains, and major low IQ.

the kind of shameless people, you can just dismiss them with the swat of a hand. (:

they are like those flies that are flying around, no wait, comparing them with flies are a good level already.
hmmmm... guess there is no such existing word for humans like these?

hahaha, I sound damn... bitch la.
but still, pouring salt over a snail was entertaining in a disgusting way.

sad to say they did not sizzle to the extent like pouring acid over anything. D:

ah wells, happy collecting results. (:

p.s
annoyance.

2009-05-16T15:18:00.002+08:00

God bless your soul. (:

and H1N1 is coming!!!

anyhow, started off the day with packing the entire house.
and ended up opening my wound while vacumming half way, and only bother about it during bath.

hmmm. edit later. ==

brb~

2009-05-15T21:53:00.003+08:00

Sigh, I lost all my good mood.. D:

but anyhow, today was surprisingly fun. :D

er... joy was it? her name, along with jade and wei... ling?
was hilarious during k box. xD

omg. it was damn fun.

started out weird than okay than normal. (:

and yeah. hahahhaha. short post, with hardly any details.

♥♥♥HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN FRANCINE!♥♥♥

and

♥♥♥HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN FAITH!♥♥♥

even though it is extremely late, and one does not know this blog actually existed and the other does not come here. D:

but anyhow. :D
today was fun, yesterday was fun too. (:

and school is coming in another two days, which is depressing and sucks cause we will get back our results.

and i already know how much i got for my POA, so whoop-dee-do!

rejoice all!

though, as i always say,
no point crying over split milk. (even to myself to motivate.sad to know.)

MUST work harder! twice, triple, fourth...?

and art, will not, help me. but POA and science.
because i bloody hell was pass POA and SCIENCE and MATHS and ENGLISH and HUMANCE.
sad to say, i will not for chinese.

but anyhow that's bout it. (:

okay! bye people!!!!!!!

p.s
thanks for the memories!♥ (I like the heart!)

2009-05-12T13:22:00.001+08:00

WOOHOOO!!!!!

NO MORE ARTT!!!!

YES! YES YES YES!!!! *jumps for joy.*

WOOHOOOOO!!!!!

okay. *ahem*

now, i shall focus on my POA and science. MAJOR.

no computer!
no reading!
no fooling around!
no excuses!

yes! STUDYYYY!!!

oh speaking of which, i need to buy the ring and the er... paper thing.
yes yes yes.

okay! thats it everyone!!!! :D

p.s
i'm lovin' it!

2009-05-11T19:54:00.003+08:00

This sucks. D:

why didn't I drop art like. when they asked whoever wanted to drop. D:
darn it. now I have to fuss about doing it finished and everything. D:

ahhh!!! this sucks like shit. ==
i wanna ponnnnn.

but cannot. if i do such, i am in even deeper crap.
sigh. hope my letter gets approve asap. which is hard cause zalilee does not want me to drop.
and my form teacher has no clue about what to do with the letter.
which she told me that she will take no action and wait till she is contacted about it.

which means, it will never get approve. unless i take some action.
which sucks, cause i don wanna talk or see zalilee.
she is gonna rip my throat out. ==

anyhow. physics is tml. and i have not been studying.
and i cannot find on what to do for art. and i only have one more day left. which is tml.
which means, i have to rush and etc.

arghhhhh. i have no damn idea. D: darn it.

ah wells. oh.
and decided. (:

i shall not buy him. (: yupp.
decided not to.

books and photography is already enough to keep me busy and my hands full especially books.
will have to update every collection during June. :D
that will be fun.

wow. i sound so much like a bookworm. xD
ahhahahaha!!!!!

I ♥ books!

and yeah. (: good luck to all who still has exams!

oh oh!!!!
rejoice!!!! MY NEW SOFA IS COMING TML!!!!

and is gonna kill me cause i am gonna sit there and sleep on it or watch the tv. D:
oh noes. i cannot do that. ARTTTT!!!!!!

♥ can't wait for the sofa to come!!!! xD excited! ♥

p.s
i hate art man. D:

2009-05-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

Someone stop me! STOP ME!!!!!!

omg. I have this urge to buy an MSD or YOSD.

shit shit shit. and that is no good, cause it is bloody expensive.
less than 5 but it is more than 1. D:

NOOO!!!

I SHALL NOT GIVE IN TO TEMPTATIONS!

and marianne and francine!
DON TRY TO CONVICE ME INTO BUYING ONE!
I CANNOT AND MUST NOT BUY!

oh. and debra and joey and celine and angela. D:

convice me that it is EVIL.

and yeah.. lost all my mood. sigh.

anyhow... err... thats bout it.

ciao all... D:

p.s
fuck it. why is this happening? damn it.

2009-05-05T20:44:00.002+08:00

Kids nowadays. what is the world coming to?

anyhow, I would love to comment on them, but I am a nice person.
so I will let it... linger at the back of my mind instead of announcing it to the whole world.

Chinese paper was horrendous today. and I slept a lot.
and so sorry joey. D:
I forgot that the exams were all pushed back by an hour and told you the wrong timing. sorry. D:
and thanks for accompanying me back and forth too!

hahaha. hope the pictures was good though. (: good luck for your art!!!

anyhow. shall go to amk library tml. (:
study and borrow books! :D so guai hor?

anyone wanna tag along with me?
went to amk library dunno how many years ago.

oh, and one more thing.

Kimberly, I truly hope you are still good friends with Fiona. (:
and truly sorry for playing such a mean childish prank on you. but thank you for such a wonderful experience. it was truly memorable.

it is etched into my mind, and i still can vaguely remember it like it happened 1 second ago.
oh yes.. (:

and there you have it. :D

everybody, good luck for your mid-years! it is finally ending, thank god for that.

thanks hao yee for visiting me! xD
hahaha! I can remove the plaster and everything on friday!
the cut healed up nicely and there is an obvious scar.

s-c-a-r-. (:

nothing to be ashamed off. I call it my battle scar!
harharharhar! (lols. I've lost my brain to the op.)
must get my doctor something for giving me a clean nicely done cut and not having any infections and what-so-ever.

oh speaking of which, this is completely off topic but.
if our singapore icon (?) turns red, which is currently orange now.

rejoice all! and pray for everyone.
for schools will be closed till further notice. (if it hits singapore)

and it is no longer called swine flu, because there is more to it than just swine flu. so it is now H1N1.
and er... it hit 1,000 already.

lots of countries last night announced to all that it got hit with it.

but let's go shopping and marathon movie after the exams!!! xD

p.s
words dripping with venom and sarcasm. brilliant.
nah, not looking for trouble. (: me don like trouble.
too ma fan.

2009-05-03T11:45:00.004+08:00

Yes, I am using the computer AGAIN.

done nothing for the past two days but com com com. ==
so gonna mug for the entire day today.

scared for maths exam? nope.
i even had a dream about it. D:
and my results.

that i flunk so badly, i died.

lols. i dunno, but anyhow.
I don want that happening. so after this and lunch, gonna do my work and will not touch computer till done with everything. (:

oh. and marianne, when ya gonna go down to alice to pay?

good luck all!!

p.s
LUNCHH!!!

2009-04-30T21:30:00.007+08:00

Yes, I am posting when I am not supposed to be.

but just to post about my... exams feelings. (:

and I have yet to eat my dinner and it is 9.46!!! OMGGG!!! (Just finished tuition!!!)

english- oh my f-ing shit. the bloody comprehension was so hard.
the questions were literally beating about the bush! I
was so pissed, I kept tsk-ing and sighing to myself during the exam.
and I was so sleepy. I was bloody half asleep, so it made everything worse. So napped for 15 minutes, woke up, stared at the paper and went.

SHIT.

I was shitting bricks and trying veryyy hard to focus very hard on the questions.

and the bloody summary was bloody stupid because majority of my bloody points was focusing on the bloody children and not the bloody adults. so I went
'oh my bloody shit.'

anyhow, SS!

it was horrendous.

for a 6 mark question, I wasted an entire piece of paper and a good 15 minutes. because it was the bloody first question. and I forgot that it was six marks, so there was no reason to write so much.

the rest, was all shit. I was writing shit. crap. poop. doodle. whatever that similar with shits.

hahahaha. But I wrote a lot so was kinda happy, but majority was shit. so I am screwed and already anxious to know my results.

anyhow, one of my classmate told me this.

'amanda! every time I look up, I see you writing a lot! I get so scared la! what you write ah?'

hahaha, she sits diagonally of me. so I said this.

'Yeah, I wrote a lot, but all of them were shit. so that don really counts. (: '

and she laughed. xD ahahhaha!!!

anyhow. my class had been saying, no more like chanting,

fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail

before the exam even started, and even if it ends. xD

lols. anyhow. all the best for maths bio physics chem chinese! (:

and pray that my letter gets approve that I DROP ART!!! xDD woohoo!!!!!

oh. my dad's reply to me dropping art was.

'oh good, very good, I don like or want you doing art also.' WOOHOOO!!!

my dad comment overruled everyone! xD peace to all! and pray for me that my mom will sign the letter!!! and approve of it! and omg. my cip form. o-m-f-s.

OMFS!!!!!!!

p.s
*sneeze* oh my goodness, the swine flu?!

2009-04-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

I will not be posting for awhile.

must get deadly serious for exams.

anyhow, get to say something.

I have no more energy to run for that chance, path or what not.
so I decided to make my life easier, and also harder at the same time by cutting down my future chances.

In other words, I am running away from it.
I don't deny it. but that is the fact. and I am not gonna run away from that either.

so leave it.

but I will drop it no matter what.

and that is it people. (:

cya around, study hard and god bless to all.

p.s
I will drop art, no matter what.

2009-04-26T20:40:00.004+08:00

(:

er.. i dunno what they are. but it just came to me. hahahahahaha.
enjoy~ (:

________________________________________________________

In the passing time, my wish will come true, I will go and see you, so look into my eyes and overcome the tears of sadness and sorrow. Tomorrow never knows, but now, I don't have any hesitations like the wings that gets lost in the sunny sky. I found kindness on the hill of hope and the sun will shine for the both of us. I believe that my dreams will come true. Goodbye... Thank you... I will become myself, in the passing time. Here there everywhere, I feel your loving and longing presence lingering beside me. forever.

________________________________________________________

The stars, the moon, the sun, they would shine brightly in your eyes, even when they are closed. Call my name. I will receive all your sadness and happiness.
Give me your body, your heart, entrust your life in my hands. I will go protect your smile, that shines with so much warmth and love. So that you will continue smiling forever.

________________________________________________________

The sky today is still high and far away. I think of my small self under the big blue sky, but the stars, the dark, the wind and tomorrow are continuing onto you, helping me find you. That we will finally reunite once again, under the endless sky. For once upon a time, the sky was endlessly loved.

_________________________________________________________

For a long long time, I have been dreaming, my feelings would somehow reach you. Softly and slowly I closed my eyes. And thought of your smile, your touch as it slowly moves against my skin. My trembling heart searches for yours. More and more, I give up my dreams for you, and only for you. But as the night passes, I want to go and see you. If my wish was granted, would you smile at me?

For my love for you is unstoppable, so please, do not disappear.

____________________________________________________________________

and that's it!

and goodness no, I do not have a boyfriend, lover nor crush. (:

it just came onto me. hee.

hope ya like it!

DON STEAL IT!!! >:(

p.s

crap. the time!!!!

2009-04-26T19:46:00.002+08:00

HEYY!!!

thanks all who came to visit me and gave me presents. :)

thank you so much. and sorry that there was nothing much to do here. xD
other than to watch shows. lols.

but thank you. (:

oh, and i have to rush for my art.. D:
i am so f-ing dead.

omg omg omg.
i have to do, four more boards and the 50% of final work.
OMG.

and don forget mid-years.. ==
darn, why they give like that one.. sigh. anyhow.
i am gonna kill sleep for this. die die i want to finish. MUST FINISH.

so all! if you see me zombie-fied on wednesday. hahahahaha.
means i killed my sleep. xD

ah wells. but i don think i can kill sleep.. --
mom and ahma will kill me by the ear if i do such. D: anyhow.
i only have three days left.

so good luck to those who have yet to finish!!! woohoo!!!

p.s
i hate art. damn it. ==

2009-04-26T12:27:00.003+08:00

THATS IT!!!!

I AM GOING TO REBEL!!!!

FOR FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS FUCKING KILLING ME!

F-U-C-K-I-N-G !!!!

I SWEAR, WHOEVER WAVES A FOOD I AM NOT ALLOWED
TO EAT.
I WILL BLOODY SNAP AT YOU AND MAKE SURE YOU WILL
REGRET DOING THAT AND FOR LIVING.
I WILL HAUNT YOU LIKE A SPIRIT AND MAKE SURE YOU
CANNOT EAT ANYTHING, SO BADLY, TILL YOU JUST SKIN
AND BONES!

I WILL TORTURE YOU. SLOWLY..

ONE BY ONE...

p.s
FUCK IT ALL!!!!!!!!

2009-04-26T11:20:00.002+08:00

God will punish me for bully little kids. excluding my younger sister.

haixs. ah wells.
i am a sadistic person, i agree on that..
but last night. was truly entertaining. in a sadistic manner.
but also, rather saddening. in a normal manner.

but me shall not give a full review on that. (:

anyhow. i do want to say something.
but i am not allowed. sadly.

still. sorry fiona. D:
bout everything and all.
hope it will not affect your friendship. D:

oh, to all my friends, yes.
it is the usual prank. 'i am your boyfriend' kinda thing. (:

hahaha. okay okay.

shall not blab bout it. i feel guilty. D:

hmm.

oh i am so darn happy. i finally took off that big big pressure bandage!!!
WOOOO!
and i finally finally, could bath properly.

oh i feel so clean...

what i like best bout daily life?
baths. (:

i don understand how people can don bath in the morning. D:
and go stroll to school with your bed hair, and the sleepy smell. D:
so... yuck. D:

anyhow,
better do all my work! (:

looking forward to the food today.. NOT.

THIS SUCKS LA!!!

my mom just had to buy all the food i LOVE.
and now i cannot eat it.

i promise you, whoever wave a chicken, burger, beef, egg. or whatever i am not allowed to eat.
i will turn into a cannibal and eat you off, slowly...
one by one...

HAHAHHAHA.
i kid.

anyhow. buaii.

and once again, sorry fiona. D:
do update me on everything yeah?
love ya, thanks and sorry. D: (thanks for visiting me. not the 'entertainment'.)

god bless ya all!

p.s
karma, retribution, strike by lightning.

2009-04-24T17:37:00.005+08:00

HEY ALL!

lols, i do not feel one bit sleepy or tired.
in fact, i feel normal cept my breast is like, numb and painful? lols.

anyhow, a FULL REVIEW on the op. (:

okay, so i went there, changed into two gowns.
the inside blue, with my back open, and the outside red, with the front open.
so it covers everything. (:

than went to sit on those little children seats!
they were so cute!!! xD
got mom to take pictures of me.
and guess what?

i was wearing pink and the seat was pink too! hahaha!
i looked so pink. xD

than kids came in and out. it was so cute la.
they were all running around butt-naked, cause the only had one gown, the blue one which exposes the back.

kids came out of the op, sat there and stone, sucking on their little lollipops.
oh oh, than i went to see the doctor, took my weight. I LOST!
and than put the cream on my hands, for the injection later on. it was to numb the thing.

so went back to the seats, sat there and watched cartoon.
than sis and dad came in while mom went of lunch. D:
made one friendship band which was really baddd.

than saw the doctor again, touched touched. oh, it was the doctor i seen the last time. (:
didn't know she was a surgeon. lols.
than went back.

there were two kids before me.
Jared and Debra. (:

Jared was so CUTE la! he was hungry, than the dad, who looked very much like Donnie yen.
let him suck on his finger, till he slept.
CUTE LA!!!

and he don like it when his dad sits down, must move around one. xD

debra, was CUTE.
in fact, debra look like debra..? debra lim. (:
hahahahaha.
walking around, with two gowns on her, playing with the kitchen set.
than when it was her turn to go in, she looked so scared when she said bye to her dad.
her mom followed her in. (:

than after debra, it was my turn!!!
ran to change.
than walked to the theatre. man, the nurses and doctors were all staring at me. D:

anyhow, went into the room, it was worse than i imagined.
it was so big, it looked bare. cept for the bed in the middle. with the light thingy hanging over it. and the operators and machines surrounding the bed. D:
i was alone, mom didn't want to follow. D:

than layed on the bed, the worse came. the needle thingy to make me sleep. D:
it sting a little, and i was shaking so badly. the doctor said cause it was cold. but i said it was fear.
than, i prayed to god.
than, the needle started to hurt even more, cause the straw went in.
and then doc started to have a conversation with me.

me- ow ow ow ow ow.
doc-hahaha. relax. it will be okay.
me- orh.
doc- so, monday you going back to school?
me- ah? no no. wednesday. (:
doc- o.o oh.. wednesday. *walks off.*
me-............

me- *sighs, use right hand to cover half of my face.* relax relax, stop shaking.
doc- *appears out of nowhere* why? what happen?
me- *shocked* oh, nothing. just that my legs are shaking.
doc- oh, ahhha. it is just cause it is cold.
me- no... i think i am scared.
doc- ohh.. hahha. *walks away.*

than she came back.

doc- so, wednesday you having school eh?
me- er. not really, i have exams.
doc- OO EXAMS?
me- yupp. english. (:
doc- oh.. i see.. *walks off.
me- ............

than she came back again.

doc- so, what do you plan to do over the weekends?
me- oh, art and poa!!! :DD
doc- oh.. hahaha. so you have everything planned out already eh?
me-yup.

than i thought of a phrase,

'God will be with me, for i am his sacrificial lamb.'

than everything went black.

cool eh?

than i got woken up by my mom, than i went back to sleep.
when i woke up, i was so weak.
i couldn't even talk, move my head, or my legs.
i had to strain myself to do it.

it was scary, my vision was so blur..
and i could hardly move my head around. my eyelids was so heavy.
than i saw a balloon, two flowers, and a small bear at my left hand there.
anyhow, this continued bout 10 minutes?
quite frightening.

than mom came in, everybody slowly came in. (my family only.)
than i told them it hurt, so i was given B something..
drank water, drank milo, and ate biscuit. (:

than rested for an hour, and came home. (:

and thats it all! sorry for the long and wordy post.
pictures are below. there is even one bout the thing that was in my breast!
hahahah. so not for the faint of heart. (:

will post them later. mom is sleeping and the pictures are with her. (:

oh, and if ya visit. do sms me yeah? if can, sunday is the best. (:
there is a whole lot of food. (:

kay. byeee.

p.s
hmm. what shall i do now..?

2009-04-24T17:36:00.005+08:00

Hahahah. and thats it! xD

yeah, it is only me. (: the ones taken with my mom not nice. D:

sad.

okay. last picture.

what was in my breast? the picture says it all!

WARNING!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! DO NOT PROCEED

FURTHER, IF YOU JUST FINISHED A HEARTY MEAL.

NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART! YOU HAVE BEEN

WARNED!

PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!!
.

ARE YOU SURE? I WILL GIVE YOU MORE TIME TO

CONSIDER!

YOUR TIME IS UP! SCROLL DOWN SOME MORE

TO MEET YOUR DISGUSTING FATE!!!!

YUCCKKK!!!!! *screams of terror arouse in whoever's home*

and yes, oh, it filled the entire cup. (:

the reason why it was like that cause, orginally, it is one huge lump.

but the hole they cut was small, so the cut it and scoop it up. (:

and this is why it became like that.

hahaha.

hope you enjoyed. (:

p.s

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

2009-04-24T08:41:00.002+08:00

Good morning all!

today is the big day! my OP!

ahahahahha!!!!!

feelings? er... peaceful more like it. (:
my family is bustling around, younger sister eating her breakfast, older sister picking her clothes, mother walking around, grandma packing here and there, father praying and checking his weight. (:

lols.

sadness, i cannot eat anything, and yesterday i forgot to eat the DELICIOUS CURRY PUFF.
aw man, i am drooling.
anyhow, i will be posting much today. (:

thank you all who sent me well wishes and good luck.
hee. xD

i feel super hyper!!!!!

ahhaha.

and i thank you god, for helping me. (: do continue to help me.

everyone!
study hard and take care yeah?!
don fall sick all!!!!

forgive any typo errors, running out of time. and still need to comb my hair.
BYEEE. (TIME, 8.44am)

bye.

p.s
this is not the end, this is just the beginning. (:

2009-04-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

Few more hours to my OP!

and i am here, sipping my hot chocolate and typing away..

anyhow, sadly, no visiting or whatsoever.
feel free to visit on saturday and sunday. (:

and yeah.

i feel.... exhausted.
scared? no..

yes, bout the long sharp needle..
and the doctor that might be a male, and will have to touch .... me.
before op. for updates.

MALE.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
A MALE!

and i am female! FEMALE!
AND I AM GONNA LET AN UNKNOWN GUY TOUCH MY BREAST AND THAN CHOP IT UP AND EXTRACT WHATEVER IS INSIDE OF MY BREAST!

AND HE WILL BE TOUCHING!
MY BREAST! WHEN I AM AWAKE! BEFORE THE OP!

I AM SCARED FOR THIS!

i am a teenager! A TEENAGER.
not that i am trying to imply anything, but rather, to stress on my age.

wahhhh. I DON WANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i never had a boyfriend, kiss or blah blah.
and tml, i will be letting a MAN touch my breast.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s
male male male. groping and touching my breast. D:
oh dear god.

2009-04-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

I am drained out.

literally, i feel so damn exhausted, my tummy is hurting. my legs feel numb. their falling asleep on me. i am having my period.

and next thing you know, my sister is sleeping on my bed when she has her own bed.

ughh.

though i would like to ask question.

what is happening around me?
is there like a party going on or something?
it is making me fever-ish. and exhaustedddd.

sigh.
there are kids, people walking around. going in and out.
just so because people ___'_ ___ them.
and i am the only one who can.
and i am so exhausted..

aw man.
awww man...

anyhow, tml not going school. need to rest for before the op.
but sad to say, i will have POA tuition at 11, which i say, i wake up at that timing.
haixs. x.x
nvm.

than do my art for the entire day..

oh, and sms people bout the timing and all.
plus, it is entirely up to ya all if ya wanna come visit.
for my grandma told me, they will let me rest for... 2hours?
before i leave after the op.

and yeah. (:
oh, and i pray i don leak. it will be my third day..
and third day there are cramps and heavy flow...

oh i pray!!!!!
IT WAS BE SUPER LIGHT! (fat chance though, it is heavy like crazy now.) -.-

sucks man, why never come earlier!?!?!??!
tsk. ==

how annoying.
anyhow. gonna ... drink hot chocolate and read bio, and brush my teeth, wake my stupid sister up to brush her teeth and to get back to her bed, change, and go to sleep. (:

ciao..~

p.s
hot chocolate... ughh. i feel so exhausted. wanna just collaspe on my com..
p.p.s
should i take panadol before i sleep? my head is pounding.. D:

2009-04-21T22:02:00.003+08:00

OKAY. READ THIS CAREFULLYYYY!!!!!

i do not have breast cancer. i apologize for saying that. but take note, i did say somewhere around that part.

thats why i said it is somewhere along the lines, if left any longer it will be breast cancer.
and that i am close to getting cancer.
but the thing is now i don even know what on earth is happening.

my condition got worse, and now it got even WORSE.

if not it is first stage to breast cancer.
it is a cancerous growth?
first time they saw such a BIG lump.

so now, the current situation.

last week or few days ago, i found out that, my right breast which has the big lump, now have small lumps growing out of it, and gets bigger and bigger a day.

NOW.
my left breast NOW have a lump, which was small two days ago, but got bigger.

so NOW. i do not know what is happening with me.

I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

WHY CAN'T MY OP COME ASAP!

== it hurts la. wth.

WTHHHH!!!!!!!

and yeah. any questions, ask me.
MEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

aiyo, you all damn funny eh.
ask marianne. D:
don believe me ah?

tsk tsk. ==

anyhow, my op is this FRIDAY.
THIS FRIDAY!

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS. CAUSE THEY WILL CALL ME ON THURSDAY AND TELL ME WHAT TIME TO FAST AND WHAT TIME IS MY OP AND HOW LONG MY OP TAKES.

get it?

no, not caps abuse, but rather it is like to highlight the important things. (:

and yeah.

bye peeps.

p.s
ai yo, so many problems la. arghhhh.

2009-04-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

I do not like this one bit.

oh no, i do not like it at all.

with all the money getting involve and everything, how can i be happy?
and we still have the last time hospital bills and everything.
and now mom is not going for a trip cause my op is this friday.

and she paid the ticket already.

so tell me all, how i can not feel guilty?

i dunno man.

but i am pissed. very pissed.

so yeah.

bye people. nights and sweet dreams.

lets all study hard!

p.s
where is my vitasoy?

2009-04-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

I am finally posting something.

was too darn lazy to post.

anyhow, to comment bout the week.
i will say it was fun, stupid, maddening and rather pissing off. (:

one of the many reasons is that someone stole my mechinal pencil.
and this is not the first time.
plus, this is not primary school anymore.
so i don how so to why should anyone be so stupid to go around and steal pencils.

and that stupid pencil cost me 2.70. ==
i bought it with my OWN MONEY.

slap your face back and forth whoever stole my pencil.

anyhow, i finally got inspiration for art!
and i am CHANGING EVERYTHING!

shit right?

decided to do something on religon. hahahaha. confusing shit though.
from shopping mall, that concerns with religon and my painting will not be anything like a shopping mall.
anyhow, thats the main idea right?

to do something completely different from the theme you picked.

well, at least there are some of the work that i have been doing up till now, will have some use.
though art is tml, i am so dead because i do not have enough drawings.

oh and, i am sick.
got a stupid cough.

OOH, poa tuition starts tml!
excited! ahahhaha!

oh and speaking of which.

debra, joey and to all my friends who knows bout my condition.
one word to y'all!!!

it got worse. :D

i dunno how bad bad, but all we (my family) knows it is worse. (:
there is more than a lump now.
from that big thing, things (?) are growing out of it?
and it gets bigger and bigger in a day... (not kidding!)

freaky yeah?

so lets just say from the big lump, small lumps (?) are growing out from it.
it is growing at a fast speed, and more are growing out?

my grandma says it is 'exploring' around. :D
lols.

no this is not a sick joke joey.

anyhow yeah. thats bout it. (:

oh oh, and one more thing.
bout the money and all. i already sorted everything out.
so yeah. (:

oh, since ya all don believe me and all.
i can let you count everything one by one.
i even did a piece of paper of everything! lols. (:
so yeah, will let ya all see it tml.

bye peeps.

nights and sweet dreams!

p.s
hmmm. art art art. no wait, must do my maths too. and my other weaker subjects.. like poa.. chinese... science. oh, must brush up on my humance.. maths.. english.. hmm... what else?
p.p.s
will someone please lock my computer?
it is really really distracting. D:
no wait, in fact. can someone study with me everyday till very late?

2009-04-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today was tiring...

aw shucks man, i need to do so many pages of art. D:
sucks!

anyhow, today was pretty funny. xD
i went on an extreme high.
lols!

went shopping with the rest, run here run there cause we were running out of time.
lols! run!
and than i kept shouting at them to get whatever items and to get on it. xD

oh oh, i felt like a mother!
marianne and joey had to go to another area, so i just passed the money to them and walked off to get the other stuff. xD
hahahah!
funny sia!

than at her house. was omg.
i acted like a KID.

hahaha. yupp.

anyhow, it was awesome!

and yeah. bye peeps. shall... sleep soon?
exhausted. D:

p.s
hmmm. *count count* 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... uh-huh, uh-huh.
p.p.s
short post! don mind, too lazy. :D

2009-04-14T21:01:00.006+08:00

I am pissed...?

at myself and at people...?

no no, not in my group of friends.
more like. some of the people from my class.

my mindset now on them are filthy disgusting creatures. (:

and yes. i do think, quite to the extent of horrible about people at times.

i am not pure at heart or what so ever.

and majority of the times, i tend to stick to it and be a hypocrite till something comes along.

but anyhow, lets change topic.

hmm. i am supposed to be revising my maths, and doing my art.
but i am too darn lazy.
even though exams are in two weeks.

Mr F, was funny today, he kept shouting so loudly, if you were to put a glass of water.
it will be shaking.
but than, he mellowed down an inch and gave us encouraging and motivating words.
that encouraged me for half an hour. and than it went poof!

sucks.

oh, and i wasted plenty of time at bugis.
the engraver went out, so i went around for one and a half.
having lunch, went back changed everything, sat at the plants there.

it was fairly interesting.
today that is.

though sadly, i have no mood. zero.
not even a millimeter of mood to study.
but i will read the history textbook that is beside me, to brush up on my senseless knowledge on history.

though i was often told by some one this,

do not wait for the mood to come get to you,
if you don have it, create it.

good isn't it?
but one thing i would describe my feelings or emotions now, is that i am feeling very very extremely,

monotonous.

and that is it people. history will be it.
shall have a good night's sleep tonight while i am at it.
have been sleeping terribly late for the past few days.

coming home, and being greeted by a switched on computer.
it is nonetheless distracting.

p.s
mo-no-to-no-us. (:

2009-04-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

WELCOME BACK JOEYYYY!!!!

see, i so kind.
welcome you back so WARM-HEART-EDLY!

hahahahhaa.

and why you buy PAD!
i told ya to buy the CONDOMS!!!!! D:

i wanna scare my mommy!
hahahah, if would be so hilarious man.

but if i scare my dad ah. wahh.
i die like a thousand times ah. D:
lols.

just came back from my bai bai dinner!
played with the kids. D:
too energetic sia.
i no stamina ah. D:

they run like snake like that. D:
twirl here twirl there, left right. D:

hahahaha. and i think i sprained my big toe. D:
hurts. D:
oh noooo!!!!!

lols. ciao people.

shall go have a nice hot bath!!!!!!!!

p.s
condom and pads! LOLS.
p.p.s
ugh, i sound so bimbo-ishh.

2009-04-12T13:35:00.002+08:00

I am currently trying to focus on my homework.

which also reminds me about what happened this morning.

Happy Easter Sunday all!
today is the day Jesus rose up from the dead!
came back, to fulfill the scriptures!

hahaha, anyhow. went to church early in the morning.
was so tired..
my hair was in the mess. D:

oh! and i saw Adaline!
the P6 one!
the rich one? the funny joking one?
dunno.

anyhow, saw her. talked about sheryl shen.
seems like she still keep in contact with her.
lost contact with her like during sec 2?

hmmm...
church was okay, the songs was not nice. D:
none of my favorites. sadly. D:

oh! and dad followed along! to church!
and he kept singing so badly, and reading the words wrongly. and kept bugging me. ==
so annoying.

than went for lunch, the prata was awesome!
same goes with carrot cake!!!
hahahaha.
than had noodle which was bleh. D:

i crave for the prata now.

anyhow, talk talk talk, laugh laugh laugh.
oh!

we got a new sofa!
it is SUPER AWESOME!
it is like those cinema seats?

sis and i call it the butt sinking sofa. xD
and it is like first class airplane seat!
you can lower the thing, bring the leg thingy out.
it is so fun! plus, it has the ancient look!!!!

sad to say. mom didn't like the material.
so had to change it to PU leather. D:
ah wells~

anyhow. better do my ss and hist asap.
which also brings to remind me that exams is next week. D:
omg man. i am so dead for POA, Bio, Physics, Chinese and Art.
like major dead. (i sound like a bimbo! lols!)

better start studying like crazy!

note for the week;
Monday -shop shop.
Tuesday - tuition tuition.
Wednesday - cough cough.
Thursday - HOLY SHIT I GOT TUITION! I JUST REALIZED!
Friday - study study.

omg. bad bad. in so many way.
I NEED TO DO MY ART!
MY PRINTER BROKE DOWN!
MY GRANDMA COM IS DOWN!!!

NOOOO!!!!

p.s
hear ye hear ye! I am so dead. D:

2009-04-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hahahahahahah. I am so dead.

oh dear, ahma's com got virus.
i think.
that's why the computer cannot be switched on.
and when we try, it gives off a ringing sound.

and guess what all?
lo and behold all, the computer holds all the pictures for nationals.

but it is safe!
i think.
cause i saved them all on the hard drive.

so it should be safe.

i hope.

and yes, i know.
I.... am ...?

I dunno man.
but i cannot use the com.
and when i get, boom!

the com gets something wrong.

and today i had to do cleaning for my computer,
which means i had to clean all my folders, clear all unwanted stuff.
blah blah blah.

anyhow, i feel neat!
FINALLY. over all these years, i deleted many and it is all oh so neat. :D

unlike last time, where you cannot even find something.
and when you go into a folder, you will go into another, and another and another.
endless!!!!

HAHAHAHAH.

anyhow, being spasm as per usual.
and my dad is hovering over me.

so.. bye all!!!

p.s
*clatter clatter* oh. *drops.* sigh. *picks up* and *clatter clatter clatter*
(Boredom kills)
p.p.s
and nat is having a bed time storing read by DAD.
his english is horrendous. D: he sounds like a........ ailen?
if he is having oral now, and i am the teacher, i will give zero! (poor dad. xD how cute.)

2009-04-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

Today was a hectic day. again.

hahahaha.

anyhow, woke up early this morning.
and no i did not go to school, had checkup and was too sleepy to wake up go to school, than leave half way and rush to KK hospital.

either ways, this morning i was woken up by my mother saying that something was wrong with my great grandma who is 91 this year.
and that she is awake but she cannot move, open her eyes or talk at all.
and that snapped me awake.

so i was like, 'SHIT. what if she goes?!'
so i rushed out of my bed, grabbed my towel, brushed my teeth furiously and quickly, scrubbed myself clean, and was dressed in 15 minutes.
and my mom was still bathing. --

it was like, she didn't bother at all.

though i can't blame her..
lao ma is very attention seeking, so she do anything just to get all.

anyhow, reached there, and ah gong was drawing.
everybody was so calm it was frightening.
i ran to the room, and saw her laying so still, i got so scared.
she was not moving, other than her chest rising up and down, and that's it.

than mom came in, asked questions. blah blah.
than called ambulance. than the paramedics (i think it is spelt like that) guy came, checked everything.
and was all okay except for her blood pressure, it was very high.

than the other two came, she resisted going to hospital.
she could move by than, slammed herself down on the bed, to-long them. making noises at the back of her throat.

than godpa came, her favourite grandson, and within seconds, i repeat seconds.
she was on the stretcher to the ambulance.
while, everybody including my mom took one hour in hoping to convince her, and failed.
whereas, godpa took seconds and was successful.

lols. biased?
truly. (RUNS IN THE BLOOD MAN MARIANNE!)

hahahhaha.

anyhow, went for my check up.
was told that if this were to dragged any longer, i will get cancer!
ahhahahaha.

and they actually wanted to poke a long NEEDLE there just to take some out for examine.
and i will still have to op.

how dumb, i rather go straight for op.
and my op is after exams.
come visit me people! shower me with flowers! toys!
HAHAHAHAHAH! :D

(I am joking, they are so expensive it is hardly worth it.)

I HATE, DESPISE, LOATHE, anything that is more extreme than dislike, needles.
i rather take a knife through there than a needle.
*shudder*

i was so shocked i went into a daze when they said that, just imagining it, is too scary....

anyhow, all in all, i have to take an op.
before it get worse, and yeah.
lets just pray i will not get fever and dying pain from it yeah?
if i do, lols man, i am so dead. literally.

oh, and no PE for me man!
BWUAHAHHAHAHHAHAAH!!!!!!! xDD

oh, and i wanna pon art tml... D:
shall come to school late. :D
heheheheheheh.......

anyhow. today was funny, nerve-wrecking and rather... weird?
lols.
kk.

bye peeps!

p.s
that area got touched by 6 people. two of which are my grandma and mom, the other four doctors. and thank god female. if male, i will curl up and die. D: (and i am not one bit lessy. == )

2009-04-05T14:40:00.002+08:00

It has really been awhile since i post eh?

hahaha.
lets see how this week was.

monday, tuesday, wednesday.
nothing much.

thursday and friday!
NO SCHOOL!
competition!

yeahhh.

and i have no mood to say much.
today is a maddening day.
same goes for yesterday, especially during church.

well. that's bout it.
i still have to study. just that i only have SS and hist.
will do maths and art (maybe for art) later. (:

and i will upload the pics in the night.
i cannot use my grandma's com which has all the pictures. and she don allow me cause she wanna use it.
so yeah. (:

still on the first day shots.. it is annoying. delete delete delete.

speaking of which, we have no more training?!

random. . . . .

b y e p e o p l e . ( :

p.s
i wanna sleep forever.

2009-03-28T23:24:00.004+08:00

Today was the most horrible day i had, so far in this year.

and more will come knocking on my door asap.

i woke up with people screaming at me, on the phone and in my face.
i am going to sleep with people who screamed at me in my face.

and sides,
i have to comment on something.
it has been a really long time since i tasted salty water, first hand, down my cheek.

duh. it is so obvious as to where this salty water came from.
i was peeing and crying.
LOLS.

weird i know. shut up.

anyhow,
two phrases or more like sentences stuck in my head.

one,
'you are getting more closer to satan. shall i put a bible on your forehead?'

no mom, its okay.
putting a bible in my head will not make me anymore holy-er.
nor going to church will make me so.

it is just my way of thinking.

two, (i said this to my sis.)

'i figured you will say this to me,
'oh you bitch you got me into your ass again.'

and her reply was,

'well, i would have said that in the past, but now i would say this.
if such stuff does help you in certain ways, than i guess its okay.
you just tend to give in to temptations a lot, which it is what humans do.'

trust me, i was shocked to the tips of my toes.
and what a sweet sister i have, god bless her soul, and good to hear that she has changed for the better. (maybe)

and yes, i give in to temptations like a hundred thousand times.
and trust me, i always end up regretting it.

but sides, what can i do?

ah wells, for now, all i can say is this.

yun lu, i will be imposing on you as much as i can.
as long as i am free, and you are free.
i will be going to your house almost everyday just to study.
my sincere apologizes.

it will at least help me to be able to run away from my biggest temptation at home.

which in other words, i will not be coming home till quite late.

but oh no, i will have dinner back home, just late.
come home, bath, eat dinner, sleep.

sounds good to me, i will not really use the computer much.
and oh yeah, i have to hand wash all my clothes from now on.

and mom, with all due respect, if you do ever read this, i would like to tell you this.
i don mind washing them, but let me remind you.
the water bill will be high, and that is cause ahma, me and jie will be washing our clothes in different timing and so forth.
and don forget sis and i have school and training.

ahma will use washing machine,
sis and i will hand wash and than use the washing machine to spin dry.
which also means, in other words,
both your electricity and water bills will definitely increase, and we are not say very stable with our financial.

and yeah, i hope you will do some thinking about this.

and that's it people!

that concludes my horrendous day and my moodiness.

and i hope i can use the computer tomorrow.
i need to get the pictures from shooting to my thumb-drive and print some of them out downstairs.

ah wells.

and oh, one more comment.
the earth hour was rather disappointing. i still could see and everything.
but at that time i was in the hospital with my family so i cannot really say about it.
but from my view during that one hour, it was bright and lively.

and yeah.

nights and sweet dreams to all who read this at night.
good morning and good day to all who read this in the morning and afternoon.

god bless everybody's soul out there.
and those who hates me and those who think i hates them.

p.s
stars...? how random.
p.p.s
and thanks to my sister who kindly lent me her laptop.

2009-03-28T13:06:00.000+08:00

I bathed in 5 minutes and 18 seconds.

and this is my third time typing all these out, cause my com went nuts. --

anyhow, i am too lazy to type the whole same thing out.
just basically, i just wanna say.

i don care.

and yup. (:

nice short simple. (:

hahahahaha.

okay bye people. (:

p.s
to hell with this.

2009-03-26T20:23:00.004+08:00

OMG. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. O-M-G-!!!!!

people. the pictures are horribleeeee.
you can see the before and after when the person MOVES.
AND.
EVERYBODY IS MOVING EVERY SECOND.

SO YOU CAN SEE NOTHING BUT BLURRED SHAPES AND BLAH BLAH.
OMG OMG OMG.
FAIL.

FAILLLLL.

I FAILLLLLLLLLL.

WTFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT DA FUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK?!!?!?!?!?

I FEEL LIKEE CRYING FOR THOSE BADLY TAKEN SHOOTS!!!

THAT COULD HAVE BEEN SO DAMN NICE!

MARIANNE! WHEN YOU HAD THE BRAIDS!
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO KEEP MOVING!!!
WAHHHHH!!!!

I DON EVEN HAVE A PROPER, GOOD, NOT MOVING, NO BLUR THING WITH YOU IN BRAIDS!!!!!!!

OMGGGGG.
OMG OMG OMG.
AND I HAVE SO MUCH MORE PHOTOS TO GO.

I JUST KEEP DELETING AND DELETING!
AND ROTATING AND ROTATING!
BUT DELETING?!?!
NOOO!!! I DON WANT THAT!!!

WHYYYYY!!!!
WHAT MODE WAS IT IN WHEN I WAS TAKING?!?!?!
WAS IT P???!!!!
WAS IT MICRO??!!!
WAS IT RUNNING??!!!

WHATTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT EVEN NEAR THE PART WHERE FRANCINE HAD TO GO FOR HER DETAIL!!!
I AM ONLY AT THE PART WHERE EVERYBODY WAS PLAYING WITH YOU HAIRRRR!!!!

WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*freaking out like crazy.*

now i am calm.
and oh my shit,
the pictures are so f-ing bad.
and my mom is so pissed at me cause i had not been studying and talking very rudely.
and that i brought my camera out without her consent....

shoots.
i am far worse than dead.
i am gonna be chopped up, cremated, gased, burn, and nailed.

arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

will not be able to post up the photos anytime soon.
this might be the last time for me to use the com for this week.
so i warn you all. do not keep your hopes up.

and apologizes.

p.s
*cries and wallow in self pity for being a useless and super amateur photographer.*
p.p.s
it is gonna take me years to edit. i highly doubt those blurred pictures can be edited..
p.p.p.s
*cries even harder.*

2009-03-26T17:00:00.002+08:00

I TOOK 1,508 SHOTS TODAY!!!

hahahha. and yeah.
today was the national pistol competition!!!
and it was fun!

somehow, and i dunno why, felt a bit weird at first. but woo. (:
love my camera. and all the people.

and i took so many shots, just tranferring out to this com, my grandma com.
is gonna take about an hour?
thats what it says. D:

hahahah, it was okay la.
didn't die of boredom. kept laughing like crazy majority of the times. and taking photos.
oh!
and i kept stalking yolanda and many other people!
hahahahahhha.

oohhhh.
i love the part where we went to the bridge and did jump shots. :DD
didn't want to be in the photo. but loved to take it.
it was sooooooo fun. :DD

and the pictures turn out really funny and awesome!!!!

and thanks to the glaring sorching sun.
i pespired like a mad woman. D:
now i am dying to bath.
but shall bath after posting this. :D

well over all it was fun.
but the sad thing was after everything. everybody seemed to have lose all their hyper-ness. D:
no more jump shots.
and they say i bimbo? cause i kept asking people to jump so i can take them. D:
but it is so nice!!!!!

ah wells.
i still have next thursday and friday. (:
shall take more pics, and must charge my other battery.

oh oh!
i got pics of MISS AU too!!!

she kept scolding me once though, for taking pictures of her unknowningly. :D
hahahahha.
the fun and the joy. (:

yeah, good thing i brought my cam!!!! :DD

bye peeps. shall bath, do everything.
than will post on facebook. anybody want the pictures, call me and go online on msn.

*thunder rumbles..*

ahhahahaha.
shall edit here and there too!!!!
anyhow yeah. (:

buuuaaaiiii.

p.s
aw come on, a jump shot for me? pretty pleaseeeeeee. :DD

2009-03-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

no, I am not crazy.

anyhow, today was alright~
training was okay. once again, slacked like crazy and took a lot of videos. (:
will post it up on facebook if i am bored.

came home, sat down had dinner, watched tv.
became pissed cause cannot even watch tv nor read newspaper.
only study.

than bathed, than mom was in the room.
she bought me new b** so i had to try.
than in the end, found out i had a huge lump on my right boobs.

and mom and grandma started to scare me with whatever they were saying.
and so, i am not going to school tomorrow cause we are all scared and paranoid and wanna be safe and all.
and i am so tired, so i have no idea what i am typing.
gonna sleep after posting this post.

i am not suppose to even use the com.
ugh..

bye peeps.

will update tomorrow.

and sorry to yun lu and miss au and orelia and jasmine and marianne and gang for not going to school tomorrow.
sorry yun lu and miss au, for not being able to accompany ya two to go transport the guns.

and ohhhhh, i pray, i only get tml's mc.
i die die don wanna miss thursday. D:

p.s
if i really have it.
you see me die of laughter and not from breast cancer.
p.p.s
all the over-reacting and doing my homework drained my energy...

2009-03-22T13:31:00.002+08:00

SATURDAYYYY!!!!

it was fun. :D
met up with yun lu and sharon at the mrt in the MORNING.
oh.

wait pause, on the way, i took the bus 88 to tp.
the top bunk? was pitch black.
so i thought it was like, cannot go up or something.
so i sat on the first level, which was like, half empty.

then suddenly, one person came down!
and another!
and another!

so i went up, and saw people.
PEOPLE. SLEEPING.

so i sat down, and it was cozy. :D
dark, nice, listen to music.
and ended up falling asleep.

than the lights came back. D:
five stops before the last one. DD:
aiieeee.

oh, then met up with them, sat down and waited for yolanda outside the NTUC.
sharon said that we looked like as if we were beggars.
LOLS.
than went to school.
settle this settle that.

got on bus, and Singapore flyer, here we come!

should have brought my camera. D:
it was nice la, but can go there next time. (:

than walked with sharon, yun lu and yolanda.
held hands, walked to... i dunno where, than walked back.
hahah.
than one of yun lu friends asked, if sharon and i were her sisters.
and she was like,
yeah! i told you what.

lols.

than went to raffles, had lunch there.
it was horrible.
like horrid horrible.
bleh.

walked around, went to vivo.
the rest went to forever21, to find sharons bag.
and on the mrt to there, yun lu and i was saying that if the bag there also out of stock.
we would laugh our ass off and do a high five!

and guess what?
there was no more stock.
lols.

oh, while waiting, yun lu and i went to try something!
hahaha!
it was AWESOME!
set me on high. :)

oh oh oh, we went to the national thingy, and they had this little cube room showcase.
where a person will stand inside, and cold wind will blowwwww.
it was awesomeeeeee.

i went in first, i felt like a showcase though. D:
everybody was standing there and watching me.
than, the fan started.
it was awesomeeeee.

it was so colddddddd, i felt like as if i was in chinaaaaaa.
but sad, could not see my breath. D:
no puffs. D:
but it was awesome!

they had this body temperature check thingy?
and my temperature did not drop so quickly. and i was dancing around like a mad woman.
not to mention, the wind was so strong, my hair was flying like crazy.
hahahahah.

than yun lu went in.
she did not stand in the middle. D:
hahaha.
her body temperature dropped like anything.

than sharon went in.
when the wind started, she screamed so loudly we could hear her.
hahahaha.

than we kept posing and taking pictures inside.
sad thing is that yolanda, nat and sheryl did not go. D:
it was FUN.
like crazy fun!

and when you step out, after like 10 minutes, you will feel like as if ya burning.
cause of the different body temperature and the sudden change.

anyhow, i loved it!!!!
i wanna go it in again! :DD

hahahha. and yeah. (:

well, better do whatever homework i can today and all.

bye peeps.
school is starting tomorrow!
(sadness. D:)

p.s
i love myself too much to fall in love with a boy. (: lols!

2009-03-20T19:45:00.002+08:00

I am so tired.

so damn tired. I am going to fall asleep while using sis laptop soon.

anyhow, today was okay.
woke up super early, met with yun lu.
then went to the range.

everybody's expression when they saw me was hilarious.
even the coaches.
they said i looked better, more fresh?
funny thing was i was sleepy that timing.

hahaha.

though francine kept commenting that,
my hair was frizzy,
my bangs had so many holes,
my hair is not nice.
blah blah blah.

i find it funny though.

we were having a conversation and she can just say,
'oh my god, you bangs is horrid.'

hilarious no?

whatever, i am too tired.

than went to have late lunch with yun lu and sharon.
ate yoshi, bought things.
walked around woodlands.
than went home.

and yeah, thats bout it.
gonna turn in for the night now.
tomorrow i have an early day again, got CIP.
so tired...
not an ounce of energy left.

and yeah.
bye people.

my period is killing me, and i cannot eat my meji strawberry yogurt.

ugh.

p.s
nights and sweet dreams.....

2009-03-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

It is hot, my friend is here, and I am sweating like a PIG.

arghhh. i hate that time of the month.
god knows what happened to me in the day,
i was feeling like i had a darn fever.
and my tummy hurt like shit.
oh, and none-the-less i felt like puking over and over.

despite me drinking hot water and forcing food down my throat.
nothing worked.
this is madness.

anyhow,
on sis birthday went to Singapore Botanic Gardens!
forgive my spelling mistakes, too lazy to correct.

anyhow,
IT WAS AWESOME.
hell, i was sweating like a PIG again.
ended up not going for tuition cause had to collect my passport.
and in the end, after waiting for an hour.
we forgot to bring my OLD passport.

dumb?
i know.

so went back home, took it, went back there and met up with sis.
then on the way to there, she did not know where we were going and she fell asleep.
we got lost, got stuck in some area for half an hour, cause no cars were moving.
then finally we reached. :D

it was heaven!
cept that i was wearing jeans, and that mom sis and nat did not wait for me, and just walked ahead, while i hurriedly took pictures and chased after them.

the food was good, though i thought the servings were small.
surprisingly, i was full. (:
the meat is awesomeeee.

then went to little india.
sis did her eyebrows.
was too chicken to try it out. looked too scary... and too painful.
(good thing i did not too, since my period was on the way, it would hurt a hell lot worse than normal.)

then went to the stall beside it and did Hanna?
mine is cool!
sis butterfly is too... elaborated?
mom's flower look so.. weird.
nat's flowers was cute. (:

oh, and the best part?
we went back home.
brushed everything out, and realized we got cheated.

it is so light.

mom's one, despite her being fair, there was no trace that she did Hanna.
mine is okay, blends in with my skin tone sadly. but yeah.

hahahaha.

i took a hell lot of pictures. and i am too darn lazy to put it up.
and i wanna bath, and i need to STUDY DESPERATELY.

and yeah. (:

oh,
one more thing.
i reallllyyyyyyy hate periods. ==

oh!
and i dreamt of yeye!!!
WOOOOOOOOO.
random, i know.
but it was nice. (:

oh. mom is home.

cya TML.

and people. snap out of it.
our one week of 'freedom' is going to end in approximately 76 hours and dunno how many minutes and seconds. :)

CYAAAAAAA.

p.s
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH. god bless you all!

2009-03-15T13:40:00.002+08:00

I only have 20 mins to use

before it touches 2.

anyhow.
earlier on went for prata!!!!
it was good. :)
it came hot and hot.

hahahaha.

then oh, this morning.
i did something badddd.

i was sleeping, than dad came in, stood beside me.
and put his finger in my ear. (yuck, i know.)
then, some how.
when i turned, my right hand just....
flew?
when i turned, and it hit, no wait, smashed onto my dad's neck there.

collar-bone? chest?
don't know.

i didn't even know what i was doing, and later i realised that he did not even see my hand coming.
and when my palm, backwards, smashed onto his chest.
he took a step back, and grabbed his shirt.
seems like it was really hard, cause i could even feel the impact and the sound of like, as if bones hit against one another.

ahahhaha,
and even my sister winced and said ow.
he kept rubbing the area i hit for like. half an hour?
and she even commented that it was really loud.
hahahaha.

guess do not do anything funny when i am sleeping! xD

woot.

anyhow, better study now.
than can play my cameraaaaa. :DD

p.s
touch me when i am sleeping, and i will break your ribs with my powerful skinny bony hand!!!
BWUHAHAHAHAHA. xD
(joking~ i am not that violent to the extreme.)

2009-03-14T14:47:00.015+08:00

The pictures!! I took more, but too lazy. xD hahahah.

the plants are fake. :)

heee. note the focus. :)

oh, above it mom and nat. (:

AND

finally, me!!! xD

hahhaa, with short hair, bangs and hair-band. oh and not forgetting my camera!

2009-03-14T14:28:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO.

hahaha, and fiona, one reason this blog is boring cause i hardly update anything that had been interesting.
too much la. xD

anyhow!
went to IT fair on the first day!
tuition was okay, i was so exhausted at one part i was semi-conscious.
so whatever she was saying, i was like, 'okay okay.' nod nod.

then when come to me explaining to her and doing the question.
i went like, 'huh? how to do?'
thank god she is so patient.

anyhow!
IT FAIIRRRRR. was so damn crowded.
there was like, so many people going through the same direction, and it was so hot.
thank god i changed to shirt, blouse will literally kill me of heat.

ack, better type fast.
mom is on me.

anyhow, went to IT fair.
pa bought pa long a acer laptop.
then when they went to play, went to teach her english using an acer desktop.
then then.
went to nikon.
saw the prices and both of us winced and walked away. D: sadly.

then saw sony cameras.
went there, started playing and everything while mom talked to the man, Keith.
then while playing, she was like.
"you better gimme all my A's."

WOO.
i got a camera!!! plus it is not bad. :D
i was so happy!
though the price pulled me down.
at least we got so many free gifts.

and of two, mom wanted to buy earlier. and in the end she did not.
good thing too, if not she would have wasted since it came as freebie along with the cam. :)

then went home.
blah blah.

yesterday told dad, he was so calm.
it was frightening.
truly frightening.
he was like, okay okay, but buy for what? blah blah.
total he said was like two sentences.

i thought he would hit me or something or kill me.

anyhow.
PLAYED WITH THE CAMERA TODAYYYYY.
it is awesome!

fondled around with the mode, lightning, focus and blah blah.
i truly love such cameras. :D
something i know that will not be short-lived.
and i am dying to go downstairs to take nature. :D

oh, and i cut my hair again.
not suprisingly. since whenever my hair is that long, cut!
and well, it is shorter than the earlier cut.
and instead of fringe, it is bangs.

anyhow. here are some pics round the house! :DD
sorry, the pictures are on the top. D:
something wrong la.... ==
my computer gone bonkers. now using my grandma's one.

oh, and it is SNOWING in korea!!!
minus degree!
cool eh? hahahaha.

p.s
I LOVE IT!

2009-03-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

I love my grandmotherS!

hahahha.
and I know, I should not be using the computer but needed to type this out. D:

you all should know bout north korea right?
anyhow, I was on the bus, dozing on and off. exhausted.
then somehow, I woke up wide awake and looked at the tv.
and it was showing the latest news bout north korea.

then came home,
my grandmotherS was watching show through the small dvd portable player.
I was so shocked to see mama home, so I stood there, mouth open shocked.
and she laughed at my expression.
gosh. she is so cute. xD

then about north korea, ahma still does not know whether she should tell her friends or not.
and I am unsure if mama knows such happenings.
and it is so frustrating.
as much as i would love to comment.
I shall shut my mouth up.

anyhow, I am super scared.
both my grandmothers are going to SOUTH KOREA next wednesday.
and what if something happens?
what if just nice, a spark is created?

they are like *ahem* and *ahem* (if you learn history you should know who I am talking about.)
they would use any excuse to create a war.
just one little spark that need not be visible, will be enough to start an explosion.

arghhh, this is so maddening.

anyhow, gtg now.
study study study.
good thing took a super short nap during the bus ride. (:

kk, bye people.

and happy sweet sixteen shanice. ((:
you are finally sixteen. can watch NC16 shows! xD hahahahha.

kk. bye bye.

p.s
god bless everybody's soul.
p.s
gonna keep track of the news like a stalker. gggrrrrrrrrrr.

2009-03-08T20:09:00.002+08:00

Annoyance.

this is truly annoying.
i say i found the inspiration to study, but no matter how much i do.
i still can't get the drive nor mood.

this is frustrating as it comes.
and the worse thing is that is does not go.

arghhhh.
anybody in the study mood?
if do, tell me yeah?

I DESPERATELY need the mood.
like really bad.

we only have 120 days till the important exams!
in other words, we only have 4 months!
and that is not exactly a lot.
and my POA is like shit.

ughhhhh.
shall continue to do physics and bio now.
got to get super serious.

p.s
for the nikon camera!

2009-03-08T13:57:00.004+08:00

COMPUTERRRR!!!!!!

thank you god for sundays!!!
I CAN FINALLY USE MY COMPUTER PROPERLYYY!!!!
WOOOOTTTTT.

and enough of rejoicing.
this week was... blah blah blah.

anyhow!
JB was okay okay. :D

went there, went shopping!
GOT CUTE NEW SHIRTS!!!!!!!
hahahaha, and i was the one who spotted them!!!!
it is CUTE.
ultra cute!

but the sizes are too small for mom and jie.
hahahaha. lucky me!!!!
good thing i am skinny. xD

then had kfc for lunch.
it was yum! better than singapore. :D
hahahaha.

then went back home, dropped our stuff, watched tv till 5.
left for dinner.

and got lost for 2 1/2 hours.

yup, we went round in circles, literally, passing by the same area over and over.
and thinking we found the place called LEGEND we got lost further.
stupid old man, must die die eat at that area. ==

anyhow, some how we reached that area and found it.
then we waited for half an hour for our food to come.
i was so..... full?
i didn't eat much.
sides, none were to my liking 'cept for two to three dish?

the pudding was budget. too sweet.
the food was alright. just too salty.
the tea was good. cept that i had to keep walking cause they were to busy to help to re-fill and that they did not allow me to put the tea on the table.
annoying.

and i saw a jeans that i thought was nice, but mom and sis said it was not. guess i have bad fashion taste? D:
anyhow tried it on. but sadly. thanks to my BIG HIPS.
cannot. D:
ai ya ya.

anyhow, night came and gone.
and i kept tossing and turning.
i kept getting bitten.
i kept waking up.
i could not sleep.

then this morning, had the usual tim sum, at the usual area.
and people kept staring at us cause we kept talking and eating.
i ate a lot. xD
and when we left, the entire table turned around to stare at us go.

sis said maybe cause we talked in different languages.
chinese english and canto.
dunno~

then now. okok.
my computer is lagging.
and i have inspiration to do art and start getting serious for study.
and getting pissed cause shooting keeps interfering with my plans.

and people~
Moira ain't free tomorrow. she asked for Tuesday and i told her majority of us have cca.
so she will see how.

and yeah.
just note.
things to do by today.

-shooting form.
-ez link card.
-letter of apology.
-edward.
-study.
-revise.
-homework.

hmm. that should be bout it. :)
getting tired. D:
but better use the com while still can.
sorry for e long post.

and just a reminder, my blog will be dead from Monday to Saturday for sadly i am only allowed to use the computer on the last day of the week.
SADLY.

and if i get 5 A2s for 'N', mom will buy me a Nikon camera. :D
woooooooo.
so i am gonna study super hard to get that!
and save money so i can at least pay half of it. :DD

and yeah.
study study study.
bye peeps.

p.s
i am a sad case. haixs. D:

2009-02-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

The new lift is working!!!!

YEAHHH. and i was so happy and excited!

i just came out of the bath when dad came home, then when he said it,
i ran out in my pjs, hair wet, bra-less, and towel round my neck.

then ran back in, changed and went up and down with my younger sister!
it was f-u-n.
and we were acting all so suaku. xD

hahahaha.
anyhow. the vid i saw was hilarious. xD
oh, and i have facebook. just to get pictures. (:

and i am super pissed at my sister and mother.
not to mention i have to wake up at 7.30 am cause i have tuition tml. and it is now 11.02.
yay, i am soooooo mad. ((:

bye people.

p.s
people change without you knowing, and sometimes you feel like killing them. (:

2009-02-19T19:11:00.003+08:00

I have a fever of 38.3

And my period came at 4.10am, thank god i woke up.

and i puked in school after recess.

art was good. gave me little inspiration but better then nothing.

after school was even better, though my stomach ache like anything, and cramps.

went to taka, celebrate (?) joeys birthday.
we all stuff her with food.

then walked to cini, took neoprints.
the second was AWESOME!!!!
the songs are not that bad, cept the one 'under the sea' that played over and over gave me a headache.

the pictures turned out awesome.
it was so awesome.
literally awesome!!!
i wanna post the pics up but...
D: no camera to take.

anyhow, bought tiramisu from bread papa ( expensive ya know! D: ) for my family.
decided to reward (?) them, especially my dad and mom.

and in the train, think got motion sickness, felt like puking all over again.

and while bathing, everywhere was ssspppiiinnnnnniiinnnggg.

anyhow, ahma is pissed cause i did not want to go down to pick nat.
i am already shivering in my seat, if i were to go down, i am dead.

anyhow, don really feel like coming to school tomorrow.
if i still have fever maybe not, but most likely yes.
cannot miss maths and the other subs.

oh she is back, forgot to mention she told me not to come back home for dinner the next time.
hmms, wonder why.
D:

don blame her. if she were to ever come across my blog, i would like to say
sorry.

anyhow, hope all will like the tiramisu.
shall go starving tml, need to save the money for the tiramisu and bank.

oh and marianne, i don quite get the sms miss au sent? D:
and post up the neoprints yeah?
all of them!
i wanna grab them. :D
thanks.

p.s
why?
because i know it.
genius.
but of course! (:

p.p.s
8.49 pm. i have no appetite, not surprisingly.
but this is MADDENING.
MY BLOODY FEVER KEEPS GOING UP AND DOWN!!!!!!!! ==

2009-02-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

Er... I don't know how to start..

anyhow, today was quite bad at first.
i thought i would pass my physics test but did not and failed just by 3 marks.
with plenty of careless and stupid and did not think twice mistakes.
which kinda ticked me off, and yeah.

shooting was fun!~
my shots were good. (:
and and and, my dear mother gave me a shock by sms-ing me.
'how is my darling?'

freaked out a little. xD
ahhaha,
then told her that this sat got another shoot thingy but doubt will be able to make it seeing that i have tuition.

then when she replied, naturally and not surprisingly, she was pissed.
so i was halfway typing this,
'hahaha, yeah i knew you would say that. and i knew you will ca-'
and my phone burst into life, i got a shock and nearly dropped the vibrating phone.

hahaha.
i am a genius. :D
but shooting, how to answer calls?
so left it on the table and stared at it.

then after shooting, rachel came.
teased her with the mommy thing again and all.

then we had to gather at the lockers so that coach can tell us bout our stuff and who shooting for NYT.
pistol,
rachel, francine, sheryl.
and sadly i am reserve. sigh. ah wells.

then half way when he was saying but the sighting, position and everything.
i notice that angeline, squeezed herself into the small area that holds the fire extinguisher hose, was fast asleep.
few minutes later..

when coach was getting into the major part, we heard a sound..
angeline was snoring in her deep slumber.
if it wasn't the lecture that still went on going, with the lecturer knowing that it was snore, we would all have burst in a fits of laughter.

but instead, we all just went.
HA.
smiled and our dear vice captain knocked her awake.
the rest of the lecture, angeline spent it sleepy-eyed.

it was hilarious.

anyhow, something shocking happened.
we were just alighting the bus when miss au asked yun lu and i,
"are you girls in a rush home?"
then we were like.
"er.. ok ok la."
then she said,
"i am hungry, i feel like having some ice cream." pause "you want ice cream?"
my eyes went to the Mr. Bean we were heading too,
"i treat you all!"

we were all lost for words.
rachel and logini just trailed along behind us, stunned.
and me, famished and being oh so glutton. i immediately agreed to ice cream, and the rest kept quiet.
rachel and logini did not get ice cream but pancakes.

so we were really shocked.
and i was telling yun lu,
"Miss au is feeling generous today? she really is in high spirits."

oh, and all.
Miss au absolutely LOVES ice cream.
it is like her most favourite food in her world.

so while we were eating outside the mrt station, we naturally chit chat.
with a warning to them, that i eat ice cream very slowly.
and half way through my ice cream, being me, ka-po and curious and all.
i asked her.
"so miss au, why are you not married yet?"

and she went,
"why am i not married yet?" *extremely red*
"cause i have not found Mr. Right!"
her face was red like a chilli when i asked her the next.

'so, did you have boyfriends in the past last time?'
she went red, and said.
'amanda ah... you are so....
me- ' open, direct.'
au- 'yes yes, and this is getting bit too personal and all.'

and so, she did not tell me that.
sadly.
but really man.
she is shocking.

for today's training, she did not shout, scream or scold or nag at anybody!
she has been in really high spirits since...
the global village ended and i came back?
that moment, to me, she was like. happy happy.

gosh, i think it is love.

anyhow.
bye people. sorry for the wordy post.

(: cyas.

p.s
i am so dead if i am caug-

SHIT.

2009-02-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

I am.... sleepy. and having a stupid headache.

anyhow, played mah-jong like.
a lot of rounds?
hahahahah.

just came to post stupid random stuff so yeah. xD

hmmm~

crap, english, i have no file.. from last year.
the paper and notes are everywhere in my room, or on earth, or maybe even in the air. D:

oh noooo.
and maths.
mr f. is gonna kill us, none of us had enough time...

oh my head..

money...
stuff...
school...
home...

arghhhhhhh................

bye bye people.
nights and sweet dreams.

and orelia and whoever has the ice hockey sticks.
if you do not bring them tomorrow.
i will wring your neck dry.

nights. (:

p.s
my head feels like it is exploding.

2009-02-15T18:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEYYY!!!!!!

and i am so sorry that i do not a banner like marianne. D:
and i am so sorry that this is so late.

anyhow.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!
you just got older, and ya at the... sweet age? :D

hahhahha. hope you didn't die in the singapore flyer.
but ya so lucky man, go singapore flyer. xD
and the tickets are freeeeeee!!!!!

anyhow!
make yourself free after school tomorrow!
ya wanted! xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY JOEYYYYYYY!!!!

oh, sorry if i sounded dead over the phone. D:
i have like, major bad bad flu and super bad bad throat.
so yeah. xD

anyhow.

HAPPY BIRTHHHDAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s
the weather is a killer.

2009-02-14T18:24:00.002+08:00

I am very very very very upset.

hahahha, yeah, i am quite sad actually. xD

believe or not!

why?

1) global village.
2) stupid popping balloons.
3) funerals.
4) sleep deprived.

yeahh. global village was quite. hmmms. actually.
quite upset that we did not win the movie tickets, and felt..
upset that all the food went all the way down to waste.
and all the hard work we all put in.
ah wells~

balloons, when two went BANG loudly in a row.
believe or not,
i nearly cried.

hahaha, yeah, i teared a little.
but thank god.
anyhow, i still hate those plastic looking balloons.
that goes pop easily.

why?
childhood trauma.
yeahhhhh.
really bad one too.
but ah wells~

and i am trying to avoid funerals. (:
why?
cause 5 people went away last year, and one is my grandfather.

'sheesh man, it has been so long. why is she still emo-ing and affected about it?'

some of you might think this way.
but whatever.
i don really bother bout you people.
so *shrugs* none of my business.

your tai chi!!

anyhow, i had two things to cheer me up.
my honeydew ice blended, and dinner.

but none went well. my mood got the worse of me, and well.
it sucked.
and when i left the bus, i got into a very very bad mood for some reason.

dinner was okay, but
before i ate, went to bai yeye, and cried while burning the joss sticks. -.-
arghhhh.

anyhow~
this sucks.

i am quite disappointed really.
sadly, barely awake.

i am exhausted.
not comparing the ones who went for self awareness.

anyhow.
bye bye people.

happy valentines day all.
happy spending money.
happy making out.

p.s
damnation.

2009-02-13T20:11:00.003+08:00

Today was awesome!!!

taking away the part when we had to switch off the lights and fans for an hour.
oh,
and the stupid 'gas leakage' thing, and the two false fire alarms.
oh,
and the stupidly hot weather.
oh,
and the canteen not being open.

and yeah. (:

other then that it was alright.
training was fun even.

yun lu and i had to take the test 30 shots. and so forth.
and coach kept coaching us about what we should do and what we should not.
and it work!

the follow through shooting thing worked!
i finally was able to just STARE at the sighting thing and not really focus on the card.
plus plus, i only got like.. six 7s?
not bad man.

and the rest is majority eight, nine and ten!
woohooo!!!!!!!

then after that went to pack everything up, to move to yishun.
then angeline had some problem,
and miss au noticed i happened to be near by and she dragged me holding my arm and said.
'amanda, please help to solve this problem. i have no idea what she is talking about and my blood pressure is gonna rise.'

HA.
i was shocked. but it was somewhere along the lines la.
hahaha.
and angeline was like.
'diaoosss.'
==

anyhow, board the bus, and my flowers on the side of my bag got 'caught' in the... railing?
so i went.
'wo de tian ah! wo de hua!' (omg, my flowers! in chinese)

then yun lu was laughing through out the entire way.
plus plus, at some times we converse in chinese!!!
then while i was eating chocolate and francine sitting beside me was also eating chocolate.
she said this.

yun lu- 'amanda! your chinese is quite good eh!'
me and francine- *cough cough, HAHAHHAHAHA. cough cough cough!*
i got choked on the chocolate, and everybody was like.
'eh! don die eh!!!'

hahahah, and even miss au was like,
'amanda, you got choked on your saliva ah? '
hahahha. it was so funny, i laughed till i cried.

then the rest of the bus ride was really fun,
we were all eating chocolates and cookies, and some really nice pizza stick!
sharon, yun lu and francine kept bullying me. D:

cause i tried to drink water,
and the bus was moving (i cannot drink water on moving vehicles.),
then i accidentally spilled a lot on my jeans, thigh there, and francine was like.
'ah! amanda! you how old already?! still need diapers ah?'

and they kept bullying me on it. D:
after a while, they were like pee pee pee!
then francine was like, 'you see, outside so peaceful.'
and she was like, pee-ful.

hahahah.
then i asked what is pee-ful, and took a huge gulp of water.
then francine said.
'full of pee!'

and i saw stars.

i choked, literally, and the water went up my nose, and i was like coughing and laughing.
hoo boy.
the bus ride was fun loud and noisy. :D
it is super fun!

anyhow, today was good.
oh oh.
after packing up, me yun lu sharon and rachel went to the interchange.

then i was like,
'eh! rachel can be the mommy!'
hahahahh! then everybody all started calling her mommy.

on the underpass, we were all.
'mommy! don walk so fast eh!'
'mommy! i want that!'
'mommy! walk slower, later xiao mei cannot catch up!'
'mommy! wait wait, i want to hold your hand!'

(me, the oldest child. yun lu, er mei. sharon, xiao mei.)

hahahha, it was hilarious.
then sharon's train came, and she shouted.
'bye bye mommy!!!!'
everybody stared at rachel and she was so embarrased she hid. xD

and i was like,
'bye xiao mei! see you tomorrow!!!'

hahahah. anyhow, today was a good day. (:

and sorry joey, D: did not go canteen.
was held up in class. D:
sorries.

and debra, celine, marianne and angela.
hope ya having fun at CAMPPP!!!!

and wow, wordyyyy post. xD

bye bye people.

p.s
cold showers rocks your hot socks off!

2009-02-12T10:16:00.003+08:00

Having art now~

i don get it.

it is not one bit cold. D:

anyhow, art is soo.. hmmms.

plus earlier on, sarah was going bonkers.

like literally.

she call me and the others,

crazy jerks selfish self centre bitches and bimbos.

and that she hates us all and we should go to hell.

lols.

then cui ling said that she haven't take her medicine yet.

i was holding sarah's arms and flapping it around,

then i asked.

'what's her medicine?'

cl- 'oh, wen qing and (someone else whose name i did not hear properly.) lor.'

sarah turned red.

push me and stomped her foot and ran down.

we were all like..

er... what just happened?

seriously man, she is way too emo.

and.. short fused?

she should learn to control her temper more,

like me!

but not well done la.

anyhow, i think she should snap out of it and think that we all hate her which we don, we just don like her emo-ness and overreacting-ness and craziness.

i am a good kind girl, i don bad mouth people!

and orelia beside me is saying

anyhow anyhow!

sooo mean.

her reply is whatever man. and she said that whatever she say i write la.

ack, my typing very loud..

gtg now.

and i don like art. D:

orelia said who likes. xD

hahaha.

ciao~

p.s

art sucks your life out.

2009-02-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING THE GLOBAL VILLAGE POSSIBLE!!!

and thank god i was finally able to use the computer.
yesterday, i was so exhausted, came home, had lunch, an hour later i went to sleep.

anyhow, global village was AWESOMEEE.
it was so fun!
not to mention, the two levels swarmed to us for the waffles.
it was horrifying.

they were like, piling over all over one another and their hands was like trying to grab the toothpicks.
they were doing it like as if, their life depended on it.
gosh man, they should eat breakfast. D:

BUT.
i notice lots of people loved the stalls that had food and not games! xD

but all in all it was awesome. (:
cept the part when *ahem ahem* and *ahem* country took their papers, cancelled their votes for whatever country and wrote theirs on it.

:D

if i have solid proof evidence. (:
you lot would be in coffins right now. ((:

you f-ing bitches, i would have wring your neck and body dry out of blood and bathed in it if god allowed me so.
but god being so merciful and kind, and forgiving.
i obviously could not do that.

plus, this is kinda of contradicting, but i wouldn't want to stoop to your level and do such lowly pathetic stuff that would make people avoid you like the plague or spit in your face and step all over you.
you retards are not even worthy to be dirt on the sole of my shoe.
being there is considered an extremely high ranking for you bunch of uncouth, brainless, pathetic people.

in fact, i would not kill you. (:
our oh so great Celine mentor would do that for us.
for all the other countries that did no such thing.
and if she doesn't, i will certainly do something about it.
fret not all. justice is true.

not to mention that, i seriously ponder on how you lot even come up with such a scheming scheme.
we were too busy and flustered to even have that thought crossing through our mind.
you poor lot, you were too free, and had so little people interested in you lot so you guys actually stoop to such a low level to do such stuff.

sigh...
you lot are the most, no not the most, pitiful people i have met.
i rather kill myself then to do such a lowly thing.

poor you. (:

anyhow, shooting today was fun.
Rachel kept showing me bad bad pictures that had me laughing for a long time.
it was hilarious. and really baddd.

tsk tsk, how could you do such a bad thing man captain?
tsk tsk tsk. xD

hahahah, anyhow, i was extremely shocked that miss Au did not scold me or whatever.
she seem to be in a good mood. (:
yayyyyy.

and to Ashely sister. please rest in peace.
you are now finally going up to the house of god, and finally no longer suffering.
we will all grieve for you.
but remember all,

a kiss for you that is sorrowful, a goodbye for you that is loved.

meaningful sentence isn't it?
i wanted to use that for the newspaper for yeye.
but it cost thousands to have it on the newspaper, and our budget was extremely tight.

so to all out there,
do not take your family and friends for granted yeah? (:

live life to the fullest.

p.s
god is loved.

2009-02-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

God bless everybody.

and i mean literally.

and, for the Ashely's sister, please, rest in peace.

and to all who loved and missed her,
fret not, for she has finally no need to suffer the endless and painful struggle and hardships.
for now she has finally gone up to the house of god.
he will look after her.
i promise you. (:

and today, was quite a bad day.
woke up in the morning and an hour later, i found myself half dressed and my sister crying badly.
life sucks, life is unfair, it is never fair.
thats why heaven exists.

ughhhhh.
stupid bloody dream.

anyhow, today was bit freaky but okay.
though i am still selling my boy, and getting the really nice camera.
i don care man.
i have no more feelings for him.

so call me bias, selfish, bitch, stupid. or whatever.

but!
before i get my camera, my bank must be rich.
and my house bank must be rich too.
which will not be easy, unless i get customers who is willing to buy stuff from me.

and also, i must save and eat less everyday.
yupp.

anyhow, thanks ya all. (:
today was... weird.

the meeting was hmmms.
but overall it is not that freaky as i spectaculated.
and it was quite fun. (:

kk. gonna prepare the flour and everything now.
bye bye.

p.s
reality is harsh.

2009-02-07T22:15:00.006+08:00

Good riddance.

today, I felt like slapping so many people.
but!
something held me back...
hmmms.

and oh, marianne reminded me. xD
thank you all for doing and helping with all the work for the seemingly endless g.v!
and for taking my temper. (:
thank you all so much, and sorry to have taken up your time?

THANK YOU CELINE MOKKKKK.
hahah! xD
and sorry for waking you up and spamming on your msn. D:
next time, you should appear offline. D:
sorry and thank you so much!

ahahha, and celine the mentor is not that scary, she is just.. loud? :)
you two are on the same wavelength!
cept that she is older and kinda scarier. and she scolds and curse a lot too. xD
hahahha.
anyhow thanks~ and good morning ya all!

(edited on sunday morning, 8.22am. I AM AWAKE SO EARLY ON A SUNDAYYY!!!!)

xD

hahahha.
anyhow, global village was a...
really... tiring and bit pissing off.

1) why the hell do we need to fold the damn papers for the stupid people?
2) the boxes, oh good god.
3) .... late lunch.

and yeah.

plus, everything seems so alien to me now.
it is kinda scary and sad.
i could not recognise her face...
it was like, i did not see her centuries.

kinda scared but guess there will always be a time for such stuff.
sigh.

my heart pains bleeds..

anyhow, marianne, cheer up. :DD

lets have fun tml yeah?
do whatever we can. (: freaky funnn!!!

p.s
if nobody does it, somebody in the end eventually has to do it.
(quote from a famous person who is gonna turn 16 this year. :D)
p.p.s
oh good lord, bless my soul! i am gonna have a heart attack soon!
hahahah! quoted from yours truly! xDD (jkjk)

2009-02-04T21:30:00.002+08:00

I have yet to eat dinner.

anyhow, i better type this all fast cause it is 9.30 and i have not taken dinner yet. D:
okok.

yesterday was stupid. really... stupid.
and i was being stupid. like really stupid.
over-reacting and not being calm enough.

marianne, don ever do that ever ever again yeah?
i kept screaming and cursing on the phone, headrush, so loudly and badly, i had to go to the carpark to scream down at the phone at you.
plus, samantha and yolanda grew more frightened of me.
greatttt.

though sharon did not stand 10 feet away from me. :D
thats a good thing.
and, do remember in future.
don be so smart to eat famous amos cookies when you have sore throat or cough.
they are like the killer for it.

and i am so dead,
for many reasons being like.
-i have yet to do my art seeing that i have just changed my theme last week?
-my room is super messy.
-i am having headaches and sleeping far too early every night.
-no money.
-irregular meals.
-g.v.

ahhh yes. the g.v. thing.
tml!
DIE DIE DIE.
by friday, everything has to be done. :)

i don give a flying duck if i am alone or what.
reason being, i give late notice to them and yeah.
so who cares man?

in the living world.
trust nobody, partnership?
sure, sign a partnership contract or whatever POA stuff.
capital, drawings, profit and loss.
blah blah blah.

after this g.v thing is over.
i daresay, rejoice all, for FINALLY one can have time to study and revise.
though, i hate to admit, art is a bothersome chore.

ack, i type too long.
9.36 now. D:
better go.
don wanna have dinner at 10.

OH CRAP. THE FIRE.

BYE.

p.s
i sock you in the eye!

2009-02-01T14:42:00.002+08:00

YAY. I am so proud of myself!!!

and extremely exhausted.

but first things first,
sorry marianne, for not calling you last night. was too tired.
the moment i reached my godparents house, i went straight to sleep.

and yeahhhh!!!!
woke up 5 seconds before my alarm rang, 6.15am. :D
guess how far i walked?

from holland v alllll the way to habour front. xD
cool rights?

total 17km!!!

it was awesome!
the canopy walk is the best!
NUS, was super confusing.
oh, the wave and faber was not bad. :D

it was super fun. :DD
if only i had brought camera mannnnn.

anyhow, i promised my godparents, the next time we go there, canopy walk.
i will be going with a camera!
nikon D90!

I WANNA GET THAT. :D
though i have to save a thousand for bank first. D: that will take forever.
well, not really. xD

ahhahaha. anyhow yeah. :D

thanks godma and godpa for letting us stay over and bringing us for the long walk. :D
hahah.
oh and thanks to the guy for posting the map and all on his blog. :D

kk.
bye people. gonna... nap for awhile?
then will call marianne and all. :D

oh oh, and marianne, i will bring you and francine and the others to canopy walk. :D
can bring your kids.
the view is absolutely amazing.
they will love it. :DD

things to do:
-save a thousand. (must!)
-sell your boy. (MUST.)
-buy a laptop and Nikon D90! (save the money.)
-do the global village asap.
-save save save save save.
-STUDYYYYYYYY.
-call miss au and apologize.

byeeeees.

p.s
sides of singapore uncovered!

2009-01-31T01:51:00.002+08:00

It is now 2am.

and I am still awake. ==
sigh.

and I need to wake up at 8...
and I can't sleep yet..

arghhhhh.

the sticks have yet to be dry...

and oh, the ice hockey rings, sadly, the circles look funny, but the lines are straight after much effort of measuring and expperimenting things that will make them in line.

the ice cream sticks, i ran out of red paint, so some of them behind have and don't have.

the poster, i have no bloody idea on what to do.
and what to you mean by passport?

anyhow, i think i might be grouchy tomorrow.
so do watch out for my... mood swings and temper.
it happens when i don get enough sleep.
(low blood pressure?)

hahahaa.
kk.

shall read book and wait for the sticks to dry..

*warning*
do not piss me off, i will... go crazy cause i will half asleep, and sleep deprive. so yeah.
*warning.*

do not say i did not warn ya all.

cya later.

p.s
x.x dry dry dry.

2009-01-30T20:24:00.005+08:00

Congrats Jie for making it into CJC.

though some people would say
'good luck.'
for the strict rules there. xD and the pregnancy rate.
though if you do get pregnant, unwillingly.

the guy, watch out. :)

willingly.

both of you, watch out. :))
though i will be grateful and spare the baby.
oh, and, i will have a hell lot of fun totouring you and the guy.
though the guy more. :)
-teehee- (LOLS.)

anyhow, I did something really stupid.
really stupid. haixs.

~ah wells~

assembly was horrendous.
It made me so madddd. (the last part)
I felt like punching the person on the mike.
whatever she said was BULLSHIT. =.=

tsk.

global village was ok~
stayed back for ice cream sticks.

then shooting.
i am dead, but well..
no choice.

today had to help and get whatever things done for g.v.
and sunday i cannot make it.

and tml is the meeting.
got to do the ice hockey rink and ice cream sticks now.~

:D
good thing i slept for.. 6 hours last night?
and had a really good dream. :D

oh, and i have to do homework. D:
argh, bummer man.
don feel like going soy. ==
so many homework and tests coming up..

see how~ xD
don think i will be spared if i don make it though. xD

and oh, my computer sucks.
like crap.
the internet connection link is so slow, and... it kept un-connecting.
in the end, used sis laptop. :D

hahaha. k.

bye bye people.

oh.

my mom is scolding my sister for spending so much money, and giving a dollar to her friends everyday.
oh my.
she stole something.

no wait, she borrowed money and bought something.
and she gave someone money.
and someone gave her money.

oh oh, she is lying now.
goodness me.

i did not even get a dollar when i was P1. ==
stupid girl.

i didn't even dare lie, i would get slap on the spot.
sheeeshhhhhh.

bye bye people.
kids nowadays are getting from bad to worse.
if not, stupid to the infinity of stupidty.

gonna have dinner now.
bye bye.

p.s
mutter mutter mutter. argh.

2009-01-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

Bye bye holiday.

so much for a celebration or even a holiday man. D:
this chinese new year, suck.

it suck like shit.
no wait, worse then shit.

1) reliving memories.
2) ultimate betrayal.
3) temperamental.
4) emotions.
5) financial cost.
6) academics.

sigh. ==
I just came home from ahma's house, spent two days and a night there.
the first night was horrible.

dad came along with us, and sis and i went to the room to greet people and got stuck there.
and we played cards.
then when we came out, dad was gone.
i went down to check, the car was gone.
he. left. without. a. word.

i got upset, mom got pissed.
then it was about close to 10, he came back to have dinner, the house was empty.
he ate, i sat down with sis and started to have small bites.
mom came, they talked about something about 328.
about some guy not paying up and is a lazy worker.

the way he talked, his actions.
mom shouted at him. banged the table. and went to the living hall.
he smirked.
mom switched on the tv in the hall, the volume way too loud.
for about 10 minutes, she made it softer.

ahma came to kapo kapo and asked what happened.
thats one thing i hate about my grandma.

she is too blind, bias, and stupid.

then mom came to help us clean and wash the house.
she asked if we had house keys.
sis lend it to her.

they left without even talking or eye contact.

the lightning and thunder struck.

the next day, (dad went to malaysia.) mom came by. happy.
today was alright.
gambled a lot, earn a lot at first and lost plenty at night.

including profit and loss, total, all i gain was $2.
miserable me.
i missed the good timing, cause i went to sleep. D:
sis earned 32 through gim rummy. sigh.

anyhow, it seems like mom took a taxi home, and dad drove back home.
sigh.

anyhow. i have to go now. got to bath.

and, i did not complete any homework at all.
and there is double period of maths tomorrow.
and i have no jeans.

I am so dead.

Few things.

-The storm hits.

-I saw an angel, he smiled at me, and closed my eyes.

-It is fading, the presence. Is this how it is meant to be? Is this part of human life too?

p.s
don't go.

2009-01-26T16:08:00.003+08:00

Reliving memories.

today was good. :D
i woke up in a bad mood though. mom did not allow me to sleep longer. D:
went to mama's house, had those yummy veggies. :D
ate quite a lot, then went to temples.
could not touch anything cause i was having it.

guess what!
the first temple, it was at bugis, and it was SO CROWDED.
you had to queue!
but my family and i went to cut though. xD lols.

and i was wearing, a blue dress with super high white heels. :D
can you believe that? hahahaha.
going to a temple looking like that. everybody was staring.. gosh, it was so embarrassing.

then, went to some super old empty area with lousy food to have lunch.
then came home.
my phone died halfway. D:
no batt.

anyhow~
yeah. :D tonight is the reunion dinner. can't wait for the ... food?
i don like steamboat. D:
i LOVE the steamboat that allows you to cook like seol garden. :D

so yeah.

happy new year all~

p.s
and together, hand in hand, they walked down the path.

2009-01-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

I feel relax now. and my computer is working. so I shall post a long wordy post.

kindly, do not say this is long, for it is long, just don complain.
I don think I will be in the mood to hear any complains at the moment.

anyhow, thanks Marianne.
and sorry for intruding your house. xD
woke up too early, and reached too early.
lols.

and yeahhhhh, why do.. English people have such nice eyes?
that guy, Shawn, has gray eyes.. gray gray eyes.
it was so pretty, plus, his daughter was just adorable.
though the house was... kinda.. need a clean up.

anyhow. thanks for following me to far east! :D
like the shirt, and the other stuff. lols.
it was fun. :D
lets go shopping another time yeah?
I wanna buy more shirts there, and most likely jeans.
my this jeans is 8 years old already. D:

ahaha.

went to mama's house.
the dinner was good, though all i had was fish, and.. more fish with more rice and soup.
was hardly hungry from the heavy lunch.
play mah-jong, two rounds.
dad was such a cheater bug. ==
useless old man.

went home, and in the car, mom told me something that i dreaded to hear, and was in denial of it.

mama cried, cause of yeye.

that's when I got pissed.

Natalie had to keep talking.
'she is a child, completely innocent.' was what my sis said.
'that makes me even more pissed.' was what i shot back.

That's why I don really like kids.

I shall not dwell on this subject any longer.

happy chinese new year all.
take care of yourself, don fall sick.
this will be your only break through out the entire year.

god bless.

p.s
amidst the running hot water from the shower, cold tears descended from the heavens and splashed onto my face.

2009-01-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Bummer.

1) the weather is torturous, it is far too hot in the afternoons.

2) my phone is dying. so i do not tend to it. anything, just call, don sms. if i don pick up, call my house.

3) i have no money.

4) my period came today.

5) my mood is getting from bad to worse.

6) i have a lot of issues now.

7) i am not studying.

8) i have no motivation.

9) it is new years, and i got cough, flu, and period.

10) everybody is screaming at me, and when i scream back at them, my throat gets worse.

11) more homework. yay.

12) no tuition. don't know why.

13) find school dentist for the wisdom tooth removal, cost and so forth.

14) drink lots of water.

15) eat regular and proper meals.

16) eat medicine, don be lazy. oh, don forget to gurgle too.

17) do not procrastinate.

18) bring lots of tissues and pad wherever you go.

19) clean your room.

20) spend less on computer.

21) i saw a really nice shirt, and tried it on, i love it, but it cost 60. did not buy.

22) no 22. gtg now. bye bye.

p.s
summary, summary.

happy chinese new year all. don spend all your new year money, this recession is far worst then the great depression.
believe it or not, it is your money, your life, not my problem. do not say i did not warn you.
happy spending, and happy saving.

2009-01-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

Heck, who cares bout what I lost.

anyhow, flu is spreading around like a fire.
I had a badddd flu, and dashini, beside me, got it in two periods. :D
she started to sneeze like anything.
lols.

lalala.
then shooting!!~
woo~ awesome.
only four pistol-ers. :D
shot for two hours. :D

hahahah, also. felt super weird today.
dizzy, drowsy, weird weird. D:
especially during shooting, felt something unpleasant..
stoned out, and was so out of it, i dropped the pellet box. D:

anyhow. came home!
then mom is home!
and then while talking to her, she said something. :D

me-blah blah blah.
mom-blah blah blah. oh.. can wear red already.
me-really? good! *thinks bout friday.*
mom-oh and yeye moved here already.
me- (instinct reaction) *turns around* YYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! *runs to the kitchen.*
mom-*silent.*

yeye moved here!
well. at the anesteral table though. xD
was so happy.
and mom dreamt bout him. :DD
seems like he was worried about her.

dad and mom. blahs.
anyhow.
i gtg now.

p.s
without knowing, the time of hands moved on.